{"id":25047,"date":"2022-05-10T21:42:19","date_gmt":"2022-05-11T01:42:19","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jamesdevol.com\/?p=25047"},"modified":"2022-05-10T21:42:19","modified_gmt":"2022-05-11T01:42:19","slug":"the-deep-blacks-are-back","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/jamesdevol.com\/?p=25047","title":{"rendered":"The deep blacks are back&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Well&#8230;crap&#8230;.the deep blacks are back and I&#8217;ve spent the day in a fog of just existing and putting one foot in front of the other&#8230;.but, I&#8217;ve spent the night sitting in the dark watching a movie and then Sense8 and I don&#8217;t feel if I can take the light right now&#8230;.this whole teeth thing is freaking me out and having to have some teeth removed is like having a finger removed and I don&#8217;t like it one damn bit&#8230;I know it is my fault for neglecting my teeth but there was no other decision to be made&#8230;my son needed his house saved and I needed this one&#8230;.but this is new that I don&#8217;t have the people I used to have that understood depression and life&#8230;who knew how it felt when the blacks came and how the couch was an oasis that you could spend days on until things got better&#8230;.but, I&#8217;m not sure it will work this time&#8230;.I don&#8217;t want to be me anymore&#8230;.so flawed that my kids don&#8217;t even want to talk to me&#8230;how much does that weigh? Right now, too much&#8230;but tomorrow we go on and listen to some music and ride the bike and revel in the fog that is supposed to be out here&#8230;.and hope for better days&#8230;.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Well&#8230;crap&#8230;.the deep blacks are back and I&#8217;ve spent the day in a fog of just existing and putting one foot in front of the other&#8230;.but, I&#8217;ve spent the night sitting in the dark watching a movie and then Sense8 and I don&#8217;t feel if I can take the light right now&#8230;.this whole teeth thing is &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/jamesdevol.com\/?p=25047\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">The deep blacks are back&#8230;<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[39],"tags":[41],"class_list":["post-25047","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-my-life","tag-life"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/jamesdevol.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/25047","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/jamesdevol.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/jamesdevol.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/jamesdevol.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/jamesdevol.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=25047"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/jamesdevol.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/25047\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":25048,"href":"http:\/\/jamesdevol.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/25047\/revisions\/25048"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/jamesdevol.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=25047"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/jamesdevol.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=25047"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/jamesdevol.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=25047"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}