Well…it’s later in the day and reason has substituted for pain….so I’m glad I’ve waited this long to come back today, or I would have had to delete any post that I would have written. It’s been a tough couple of days emotionally for me but I don’t want to get into that as yet…I will later, but it gets back to the change thing that I struggle with all the time and how it relates to friendship. I see mine dying all the time and I really don’t know what to do about it…I usually attribute it to the changes that come with differing stages of life; stages that I’ve already gone through but is that it? That’s the problem, I don’t know. I also don’t know if I have the energy or desire to try to construct new ones…just to have them die and end up back here thinking about it again. <\/p>\n
I do know one thing…that I have depended on these relationships too much; have given them more value than I should have; even defined myself by them…but that is just me..basically all or nothing when it comes to everything…you get a huge high when it is working but I don’t know if the inevitable low and pain is worth it….more later….<\/p>\n
Oh…I would like to claim that first line as my own…but, it is borrowed from the song “Live My Life Again” by Jim Fox… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Well…it’s later in the day and reason has substituted for pain….so I’m glad I’ve waited this long to come back today, or I would have had to delete any post that I would have written. It’s been a tough couple of days emotionally for me but I don’t want to get into that as yet…I … Continue reading Whew…<\/span>