Well…up at 4;54 today and I’m not sure how I feel about that…pretty normal and I’m pouring coffee down to try to get jump started and get on the bike…I am so damn tired of the cold and it got down to 19 degrees last night….and it’s not getting above 35 today so I won’t be outside on the bike for a few more days…so my goal of 2K miles before the end of March is out of reach…I think I may just make this a low key day and throttle things back a bit…the weather widget on my screen just changed to “high winds soon” and it made me laugh….it’s always high winds out here and they shook the house yesterday…I am going to make a pizza on the grill today since I need to use up the ingredients from the last one…and I have a big ham to make tomorrow so I won’t have to cook for a week or so…going to clean the living room today and rotate the couch cushions along with washing the couch protector and the rest of the laundry…and I need to go over to the library to get some more books with finishing up the three I had going….but I need to get two rides in before that…not much to do today…just need to get moving slowly over the next half hour or so and then get on the bike…it’s 6 am and that is too damn early….more later…

Well…this is one I didn’t want to write…my brother died last night…I am so glad I went to see him for the last time Monday…through my whole life he was there and now he’s not…I will miss the phone calls when we would talk for an hour or so just to catch up and see how each other was doing…and he always had things to give or to sell me…two of my bikes were his, my stereo speakers, my lawn care equipment, and my gas grill were all from him…and now on our birthday it will only be mine…I know it’s life but it still sucks…

Well…damn, running late today with not getting out of bed til 6:30 and I need to get on the bike in 9 minutes to get a ride in before the grocery run…slept okay last night with only getting up once but I still feel pretty worn out today after cleaning the dining room and doing the wood floors that I need to wax today…and then I need to get on the living room and wash the couch cover when I rotate the couch cushions…the weather is going to be cold and crappy for the rest of the month and it sure doesn’t feel like the first day of spring that came yesterday….oh, well…I do need to get outside on the bike if I’m going to make it to 2K miles by the end of the month but it looks like I’m not going to make it…have about 300 miles yet to do and at 16 miles a day indoors and only 11 days, the math doesn’t add up…I am going to buy a big ham today since Meijers has them on sale for 89 cents a pound and I can’t pass that up….okay, need to get on the bike right now after I pour this cup of coffee down….more later…

Well…yesterday sucked…went over to see my brother and he’s gone…only recognized me for a brief second and it hit me like a punch in the face…I’ve been getting myself ready for this day for a while now but that doesn’t make it any easier…he’s been there my entire life and soon he won’t be…I know it’s how life goes but it makes me feel my end coming….the heater core in my car is still leaking and I need to find a new car soon but all I want to do is just sit here…feel so damn worn out and the cold weather we are having doesn’t help…rain and snow again today and a high of 40 with wind of 20-30 and I am so tired of the wind…it was blowing the car around on the trip into GR yesterday and that was a lot of work…didn’t do the weight work yesterday and I don’t want to get on the bike today…but I will…and the cleaning won’t do itself so I need to get that started today…damn, it’s 7:10 and i need to get on the bike here in 20 minutes…just feel old today and that sucks…the wind is howling already and I could use a little peace and quiet…not much to do today…cleaning, cleaning, cleaning….more later…

Well…not sure if it’s good news or bad news but they have changed my PSA test schedule from every three months to every 6 months and I’m guessing it’s from the two that they took after the surgery that shows that it was undetectable…so, when I called my doctor this morning to schedule one, they said they have one ordered for the first week of May and I can go out to the lab any time that week…I did get the bike rides in this morning and it was a little easier than normal for some reason and I even got started a little after 7 and done by 9:30…and now I’m going to read a bit to start the afternoon…damn, it’s cold out here today and it snowed about 3 inches overnight so that is pretty depressing with the forecast of cold weather into April…brrrrr…oh, well….reading time…

Well…darn, it snowed overnight and it must be a few inches and I’m so damn tired of it…so no outdoor ride again today since it’s not getting over 35 again today…I wonder where spring is? Up at 4:24 and out of be by around 6 and I am exhausted today….stayed under 1K calories again yesterday and that probably has something to do with it…and for some reason my left knee hurts like crazy today but lots of other pain so I guess that’s normal…started to clean this place up and that will continue today…need to get on the bike in 19 minutes and I really don’t want to…have been on the bike every day since the first of the year and I think I’m wearing out…and I have lots to do this week that I don’t even want to think about…then I have the yard work to get started on as soon as the snow melts…it’s another leftover day but I do need to plan meals for the rest of the week and get the freezer emptied a bit…not much to do today…just the routine of two rides and then maybe a little reading…want to finish the third book today so I can go to the library Wed or maybe even tomorrow…more later…

Well…it’s been a little bit of a weird day and I didn’t get much done but the bike rides since I wanted to finish up the second of the three books I got from the library…and there was a race on for background noise…my new beard trimmer came and I hate it so it’s going back to amazon this week…have already ordered a different one that will be here Friday…the one I got today didn’t cut smoothly and couldn’t be adjusted for the length I want my beard to be and it had these weird adjustments that I would never need and didn’t have a ear trimmer attachment that I use all the time on the one that broke…tomorrow I have to call my doctor to get them to order another PSA test since I’m a month past when they should have ordered it and I really want to know if the cancer is back or not…then I need to start cleaning the house since one of my sons and his wife are coming over and bringing dinner Sunday along with their dog Art…and I’ve been lazy about cleaning lately…

Well…that was better…didn’t get out of bed til 6 or so and it broke the string of 4 to 5 am wake ups…but that still leaves me with 13 minutes before I need to get on the bike…had a pretty easy day yesterday and got some cleaning done…I now have a clean kitchen floor and have started to de-clutter the dining room and living room so that is progress…slept okay last night but with too little food I’m out of energy today…I mean a half a bowl of soup and a piece of pizza is not enough to support two rides and working around here…but will I do anything about it? Going to try today…have thawed a pork loin fillet and will have it with some broccoli and a baked potato…the temps outside have crashed down to 33 and it’s not getting much warmer than that for the day today and tomorrow and I am tired of the cold…but that is going to continue the rest of the month…I need spring to come right now….not much to do today…just need to get the rides done before the truck race from Bristol comes on at 10 but I’m having a hard time getting going…but I will…now…more later…

Well…damn, out of bed at 5:14 this morning and I knew trying to sleep later was not going to work…already have laundry in the washer and will be on the bike by 7 to get two rides in by 10…doesn’t look like I’ll get outside today with the wind forecast to be 20-30 with gusts and I haven’t healed from the last time i went out in wind like that…my ribs still hurt from the last time and it still hurts to move…didn’t get a lot done yesterday but I’m off to a better start today…still need to do the kitchen floor and I’ll get to that after the rides…have way too much food on hand so lots of it will go in the freezer but I still need to figure out what to eat today…stayed under 1K calories yesterday and will do that again today…need to lose 10 more pounds but I’m okay with what I weigh now…I do need to buy some new clothes since my jeans are hanging off me so I need to go down to a 34 inch waist…and buy a new belt since I’m out of holes in it…I did finish one of the books I have going and will try to get another one done today…but I really have no urgency to it…not much to do today…just need to get the rides in to start the day but then it’s just a wing it day….still pretty tired and need to get on the bike in 14 minutes…more later….

Well…had a pretty good day today with getting an outdoor ride in and may be able to do that again tomorrow but we’ll see…won’t be outside Sunday or Monday with highs in the 30’s and that is just damn cold to be out anymore…and it looks like the rest of the month is going to be int he 40’s and I hope it doesn’t go on into April…that would suck…went out to get more of the turkey from DD today to put in the freezer since I like it quite a lot…really tastes like turkey and it is nice to be able to taste something…might have to thaw a pork fillet since I have 8 of them in the freezer and have broccoli to use with it with a baked potato….need to meal plan better since I have too much spoiling food in the fridge…I guess I could eat more with getting 30 miles a day in…only had a bowl of soup and a piece of pizza all day today and that’s only about 800 cals for the day…think I’ll watch a movie tonight and get at the Oscar nominees done…and have a cocktail…