Well…I don’t know whey I keep doing these when it seems that every day is a day I get a bunch of stuff done….started out with the grocery runs and then when I got back here, I took the cover off the garden to see that I’ve lost almost all of the tomatoes but I have a lot of them downstairs still so I may be able to salvage that…then I made a chicken stir fry for lunch and I think my taste is still limited since it just didn’t have the flavor it used to have…then out on the bike outdoors for a brutal ride at 45 degrees with a 20 mph wind blowing from the NE on the way back…and lets add in a little rain for the last 5 miles coming back….so, there was no way I was going to get back on the bike outside since it nearing the end of April and I’m still wearing almost full thermasuit to go  outside….so then I went downstairs and put 8 in for 23 miles today and I can live with that…it was supposed to get over 60 today but it’s not going to get there but I hope it does tomorrow….but I’m done for the day…going to just have a chicken sandwich for dinner since I do need to eat something to support all the running and miles today…going to take another day off tonight and be good and will try to stretch that all the way to next Tuesday….

Well…that really, really sucked…didn’t go to bed til an hour after normal and the tried and tried to sleep and maybe got 2-3 hours…so it’s going to be a low and slow day today…still have lots to do with the grocery run this morning, uncovering the garden and then trying to get two bike rides in….I was good last night so that has something to do with not sleeping and I’m going to be good until next Tuesday night after my MRI…didn’t get a lot done yesterday but do the laundry but today will be much busier and when I run out of steam, which I will, I am going to try not to power through it but rest a bit….it looks like I will still have most of the garden after the freeze last night…I hope…and I finally have peppers and tomatoes downstairs so I can replace everything I lost….I have to get my absentee ballot filled out for the millage election out here and drop it off at the cop shop tomorrow to keep my string alive of voting in every election I’ve been eligible….I won’t say not much to do today because that’s not true…have lots to do but I don’t need to get going just yet…have to stall until the Meijer pharmacy opens at 9 since I need to pick up some prep stuff for the MRI….more later..

Well…damn, still can’t get moving today and I’m not sure why that would be…just laid on the couch all morning and haven’t even taken a shower yet and it after 1…I did get laundry run so I guess that’s something…I am going to go out to fill the bird feeder in a bit and will check on the garden then…it’s still in the 30’s but I’m hoping that the partial sun will make the plastic act as a greenhouse and warm up the dirt so the plants don’t die….both my right hip and shoulder hurt today and it must be from sleeping on them last night…although my hip hurt before I went to bed so maybe that’s not it…I better get going if I’m going to get anything done today….more later…

Well… damn, I’m so worn out today that I am contemplating taking the day off….I wonder how that would feel? Not sure what is going on but I woke up sweating through everything today and I wonder if that has something to do with losing my taste? Okay, with losing so much weight, I have lots of crepey skin that is just hanging off me and that makes me look so damn old….how the hell do you have hanging skin on your hands? I am going to try to get on the bike today but not too soon….have no motivation at all right now and one of these days I’m just going to sit here and do nothing…there is snow on the ground out there and I guess I’m going to just assume that I’ve lost the garden and will have to start over…but I’m not sure I want to…not sure if I want to do anything….slept okay last night but don’t have a lot of energy right now….have laundry running already and need to go down and put it in the dryer in a minute…I spread one chicken breast over two meals yesterday but my brain is treating that as a lot of food when it’s only about 300 calories…probably under 1K for the day yesterday and that is not sustainable….not much to do today….don’t want to do anything right now but have more coffee and sit here…going to try to get moving but I feel so damn tired…oh, well…I am old after all…more later….

Well…it has been kind of a rough day with losing my sense of taste…well…not all of it but a lot of it and I was concerned enough to use one of my covid tests to make sure that it’s not that…it showed negative so that’s one thing I don’t have to worry about…it’s probably just my allergies that are working themselves up to be a real pain in the butt as soon as the trees bloom…ha, the little widget on the lower banner just changed to “high pollen” and I thought to myself “no shit” as I read it…did get a bike ride in indoors this morning but didn’t do two…just didn’t have the motivation to go back down there…even though I have my garden covered, I think I may lose most of it and if I do, that’s it for the year and I’ll just let it go til next year…I do have some extra plants in the kitchen that should go under the light and I’ll do that in a minute….I did get some good news today when my daughter told me she is sending me a stainless steel, roll around prep table for my kitchen since I don’t have enough counter space to use it for that…and it’s going to be here Friday…now I’ll be able to do food prep in the kitchen instead of the dining room…

Well…crap…I noticed when I was out for lunch last week that I’m losing my sense of taste…can’t taste the coffee I’m having right now and couldn’t taste anything I ate yesterday…even poured hot sauce on some refried beans yesterday just to see if that would work but couldn’t taste it at all…so, I wonder what the hell caused this? It’s snowing outside and I’m glad I covered the garden but I think I’m going to just let it go…have no desire to do anything and getting it going this year has been a huge pain….I’ve had this taste thing happen before a couple of years ago where everything tasted like ash but with the mild depression I’m feeling, it’s a little overwhelming to have something else go wrong….didn’t get much done but run an errand yesterday but I have to drag myself downstairs and get a ride in today….I’ve lost the flow to my days and it’s disconcerting….I guess I can shift into survival mode but that even seems like too much work right now….not sure what I’m going to get done today but I know I need to cook something and it will be some chicken breasts that I got Friday…but I won’t be able to taste them so why bother? Maybe super spice them so a little taste will come through? Who knows? More later….

Well…as depressions go, this is a mild one but it’s still here and it sucks…with the rain out here today, I didn’t get any bike rides in and tomorrow looks like it will be indoor rides with more rain in the forecast…I did figure out how to build a tent over the garden today with a 9×12 clear drop cloth and that has to be done tomorrow afternoon since the temp at night is going to be around 30 Monday and Tuesday night….it’s already down to 42 out there right now and it’s going down to 36 tonight…crap…I am really starting to think about selling this house and trying to find one out in the country…just so damn tired of how hard I have to work to just live here with all of the calls to the police for the noise complaints and making sure that everything is locked up all the time…I mean, I can’t even leave my garage door open when I mow my lawn…and I really want to just live for a while without having PTSD from all of the thumpy assed bullshit music….one of the first neighbors I met when I bought my house moved out today and it looks like they just abandoned a 200K house…the garage door was left open and there is nothing in it anymore…I wondered why I haven’t seen them in weeks…oh, well…

Well…damn, I’m not sure what is going on but another night of waking up at 4:53 and then staying in bed til about 6:30…man, I’m worn out today and don’t want to do anything…maybe today would be a good day to take off the bike…it looks like I’m going to have to cover the garden tomorrow night with it getting down to 32 so I’ll have to get that ready today…I may have problems with the bean plants this year and could be losing all of them…you know, I’m getting tired of the stress of getting the garden going this year and I may just give up on it….it would be okay if I could just plant stuff and have it grow but that’s not how it’s working out this year…crap….not too sore after all of the work yesterday but my back did need heat after I got done…sure hope the weedkiller works this time…need to get another bottle of that and some fungus dust and I may run out to get that this morning at Menards…still debating with myself whether to get a ride in before I do anything else but it is supposed to rain and I sure don’t want to get wet….not much to do today…have a gale warning for later today with with wind of over 40 as the cold front comes through and I hope we don’t have snow….not feeling the ride right now so I am going to sit here and have coffee for a bit before I make any decisions….more later…

Well…yeah, you can see that I haven’t found a topic for today in politics so I think I’ll do something else…had a good day so far but it was filled with work…got the two rides in this morning and was going to take the rest of the day off but then I heard someone start their mower in the neighborhood and there was no way I was going to let someone else be first to mow…so I got mine out and it started on the 3rd pull and I got that done…then I put weedkiller on the lawn too, and now I really am done for the day….it looks like rain tomorrow and Monday so I may get a day off on one of those…I will try to find one for politics but that will take a while as I read the news…more later…

Well….damn, woke up at 4 or so freezing my butt off and I had thrown my covers all over my bedroom by tossing and turning last night…after I recovered them I stayed in bed til almost 7 so I consider that a good night…I think it was a mistake to skip the second meal yesterday and I won’t do that again today…there is a “tempts plummet” warning on my lower banner this morning and they are going to…only in the lower 40’s Monday and that sucks…but it almost 60 right now so I’ll be out for the first ride here in a minute…got a few things done yesterday and finally got the bird feeder cleaned and re-filled that I have been waiting for a warm day to do….not going to take my normal Sunday off tomorrow with it still being warm enough to ride whenever I want…think I’ll move it to Monday since it’s going to be cold…still don’t think it will be cold enough for frost but I’ll be watching that closely…need to find a plastic drop cloth just in case…not much to do today….going to get on the bike by 8 or so and then just wing it from there….there are races on today and soccer so I’ll have something to run in the background all day….more later…