Well…up at 5:53 this morning and I’m feeling pretty worn out after all the work yesterday but it’s going to be an easier one today…just have the radiation oncology meeting at 9:30 and then have the rest of the day off…need to figure out what to eat today but nothing grabs me…need to get on the bike for the first ride by 7:30 and then do the second one when I get back…it is nice to get the cancer treatment moving and know that something’s happening instead of just waiting…and I’ve been waiting since last October…it got down into the 50’s last night but still no rain…and the low is going to be 50 tonight so I’ll have to remember to close this place up tonight…it’s cold in here right now and I think that woke me up this morning…I like it hot but the cool is a little refreshing…I now have a “beach hazards” warning on my lower banner and the wind is supposed to pick up later today so there will be high waves…think I may go to the beach for a swim Thursday and try to get back into my routine after all of the doctor stuff this week…not much to do today…just going to do the appointment and then try to clean a bit….health stuff is a lot of work…more later…

Well…got the first of the three doctors appointments done and I am happy with this surgeon…it’s all he does is prostate cancer work and he removes it through 4 small holes using a medical robot…3 hour surgery and one night in the hospital…the only thing is that it has to happen the week after we get back or I have to have another biopsy and MRI and have to pay for it and after the 5 grand for the surgery, I don’t want to spend any more money….my daughter is driving in from Maryland to keep her schedule flexible and stay later or go home earlier depending on how I’m feeling…and she is going to load the car up with household stuff from the summer home that I can use…good to get the process started…

Well…damn…it felt like I slept in this morning but what I thought was 8 o’clock was really 6:13…and I was cold with leaving the bedroom window open and no covers on….it got down into the 50’s last night and the heat is going to break a bit so that will be welcome…today is the video conference with the surgeon and I wonder why they have to make it so frickin complex and not just do a phone call…this is really stressful for me and people living in the modern world don’t understand it…they just assume that everyone has new computers, smartphones, and tablets that work seamlessly and I won’t be able to relax today until it’s over…at least the channels are back on emby so I don’t have to spend two hours getting them back again today….I think not eating enough has become a downward spiral for me…just don’t care about it anymore with not being able to taste anything…if this keeps up, I could get down into the 150’s by July and I know that’s not healthy…I am going to get two rides in this morning but I need more coffee first…need to clean up the couch to make for a neat backdrop for the video call today and I need to drag the tripod up from downstairs to hold the tablet…this whole process of being sick is so damn tiring….more later…

Well…I just realized that it looks like the garden is going to survive and I even have some surviving tomato plants…and I noticed that the potato parts I planted have come up and are about 8 inches tall…pretty cool….and the broccoli has shot up about 4 inches this week in the heat….along with the radishes…I wonder if you can freeze radishes? Even the pepper plants are rallying and look like they are going to grow….the beans already have flowers on a couple of them but the plants are pretty small so the beans probably will be, too….just remembered to go out and feed everything before I watered for the last time today….so there is hope I’ll get something from the garden even with the crappy start…can’t wait to see what I get….I think I even have lettuce up that is cool…

Well…up a little before 6 this morning and have just spent almost 2 hours getting my emby guide re populated so I can use it today…and that made me too late to get a bike ride in before the F1 race at 9…I am just so damn worn out today and I’m not looking forward to all of the damn medical crap this week…might even take the day off the bike today but you know I won’t….there is a red flag warning for wildfires today with no rain, wind, and high temps for today….it looks like we are going to go another 10 days with no rain out here and that will get up to 50 days without any and I don’t think I’ve ever seen that in my long life….we’re into June without any storms at all? That is pretty darn strange….didn’t get much done yesterday and today looks the same with very little motivation going on with me…I know that half a pork chop, two spoonfuls of potato salad, and some asparagus is not enough to support two rides but without being able to taste anything, I just don’t care about eating anymore….not much to do today….just going to sit here for a while and have more coffee as I try to figure out what the day is going to look like….more later…

Well…darn, I almost forgot to come back here and do another one today…and there really isn’t any reason for it other than I’ve been bored…the tv service my son runs and where I get all my live tv has been down all day and that sucks since he isn’t talking to me…I did text him this morning but won’t hear back so I missed all the races today and will probably miss them tomorrow, too…sucks…I did get a few things done today…pulled the weeds in the lawn, did laundry, and made dinner of asparagus in the air fryer…it looks like I’m getting my bills again with getting the electric bill yesterday and a credit card bill today…so that takes a load off…I need to spend the day getting all of the paperwork done for my consults on Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday…and I can’t wait for them to be over…my daughter sent me another care package today that had 2 Contego coffee cups, 2 instant pot cookbooks, 2 pairs of compression socks, and two huge, 100% cotton beach towels in it…they are selling the summer home and she said I’ll be getting lots more home stuff like sheets and bath towels over the next few weeks…I can use anything and I have room for it so why not?

Well…damn, emby is down this morning so there won’t be any races for me today and that sucks…and that means I really don’t have to hurry to get on the bike to be done before F1 qualifying….still so damn worn out that it is going to be a chore to do anything today…do I text my son and tell him? Not right now…I think I may take the day off tomorrow…the little widget at the bottom of the screen just flashed “record high” so it’s going to be a bad one today but we may get some rain this afternoon but I’m not holding my breath about that…had an okay day yesterday but I don’t think I ate enough but with not being able to taste anything, eating is not something that gives me any pleasure anymore…and that sucks….not too sore today but my right shoulder hurts from sleeping on it last night…nothing new but annoying….it is strange to be living in this old body and remembering what it was like to not be so damn old…I mean I’m never going to get better and it’s nothing but decline from this point forward….and that sucks…more later….

Well..its been a hot, hot day today and even with running an errand this morning, I still got the rides in by 10 to beat the heat…but that’s all I did today except find a bigger container to put out for the animals…washed it and put it under the tree but also left the little one out…and you can guess which one they are using….they have ignored the big one since I put it out around noon and I thought at least the Bluejays would splash in it since some of them are too big to fit in the small one…but I’ll leave them both out there and see if they warm up to it….still haven’t put the ac unit in yet and slept okay last night and I didn’t even put the fan on me so that was nice…might have to tonight….

Well…I think I’ve hit a wall this morning after being on the bike for 30 miles a day for almost a month now…feel so worn out that I’m thinking of taking the day off today…I need to go out and run an errand this morning to get a new garden hose since one of mine now has 5 leaks in it and I am tired of getting wet using it…I did notice that a couple of bean plants have flowers on them but they are only 6 inches tall so the beans are going to be pretty small…everything is just stunted other than the radishes….it was damn hot yesterday and I did get a little color at the beach but that means my right foot is a little swollen and pink…so I need to keep it raised a bit…it is going to be hot again today and tomorrow but it looks like we may get some rain tomorrow and I’ll keep my fingers crossed for that…will probably go out and stand in it if it does….need to figure out what the second meal is going to be today..DD has stuff on sale that I want but I have no room in the freezer…I guess I should use some of the stuff in there first…not much to do today…just need to run the errand but I sure don’t feel like it right now…and I need to do the bike rides…crap, too much to do…at least it was cool enough to not put the AC unit in the window….more later…

Well…darn, I’m going to say something that I never thought I would…I think I’ve lost enough weight…yeah, my entire life has been focused on restricting calories but now, I think being in the 160’s is enough for now…down almost 40 pounds in the last year and now I need to have a new mindset….had a good day yesterday and don’t have a lot to do today…thinking about going to the beach to even out my color and veg a bit…it’s going to be 90+ for the next few days and that would be great if the lake was warm enough to swim but it’s still in the 50’s and that is way too cold…but it is June 1st so it will be getting there soon…I need to get a bigger pan to put water out for the animals out here since it hasn’t rained in almost a month and they empty the 2 quart one I have out there overnight….it’s a leftover day today but I am going to make potato salad this morning after the bike rides…I can start on the rides at any time since it is warm enough to go out in a t-shirt right now…got out of bed at 6:30 this morning and I may have slept a bit but sure don’t feel like it…not much to do today…just going to get on  the bike by 7:30 so I can finish the second ride by 10 or so…man, I’m tired….more later….