Well…that really, really sucked…didn’t go to bed til an hour after normal and the tried and tried to sleep and maybe got 2-3 hours…so it’s going to be a low and slow day today…still have lots to do with the grocery run this morning, uncovering the garden and then trying to get two bike rides in….I was good last night so that has something to do with not sleeping and I’m going to be good until next Tuesday night after my MRI…didn’t get a lot done yesterday but do the laundry but today will be much busier and when I run out of steam, which I will, I am going to try not to power through it but rest a bit….it looks like I will still have most of the garden after the freeze last night…I hope…and I finally have peppers and tomatoes downstairs so I can replace everything I lost….I have to get my absentee ballot filled out for the millage election out here and drop it off at the cop shop tomorrow to keep my string alive of voting in every election I’ve been eligible….I won’t say not much to do today because that’s not true…have lots to do but I don’t need to get going just yet…have to stall until the Meijer pharmacy opens at 9 since I need to pick up some prep stuff for the MRI….more later..
The fox news trial is on…
Well…there was a lot of consternation by commenters and the news media that the Dominion/fox news suit was going to be settled before trial but jury selection has started today so I guess those talks are off…I wanted to see the suit go to trial for selfish reasons…that a trial will do much more damage that any settlement since settlements can be kept secret and we might have never known what happened and fox would be able to continue to lie about it…and I know why there was concern in the media about a settlement…since that would take away an easy story for them that will stay in the news now probably for months as the trial goes on…with the earlier summary judgement earlier that Dominion’s evidence gotten in discovery already proved fox’s liability, the only thing that Dominion needs to prove now is what’s called “actual malice” that fox new they were lying and kept it up anyway…and that may be a little difficult but is certainly doable….can’t wait to read more about the trial…and remember that this is just the first suit…Smartmatic has another, bigger one in the pipeline and if fox loses the Dominion suit, it will be in a world of hurt for the second one….geez…
Still can’t get moving…
Well…damn, still can’t get moving today and I’m not sure why that would be…just laid on the couch all morning and haven’t even taken a shower yet and it after 1…I did get laundry run so I guess that’s something…I am going to go out to fill the bird feeder in a bit and will check on the garden then…it’s still in the 30’s but I’m hoping that the partial sun will make the plastic act as a greenhouse and warm up the dirt so the plants don’t die….both my right hip and shoulder hurt today and it must be from sleeping on them last night…although my hip hurt before I went to bed so maybe that’s not it…I better get going if I’m going to get anything done today….more later…
April 18th
Well… damn, I’m so worn out today that I am contemplating taking the day off….I wonder how that would feel? Not sure what is going on but I woke up sweating through everything today and I wonder if that has something to do with losing my taste? Okay, with losing so much weight, I have lots of crepey skin that is just hanging off me and that makes me look so damn old….how the hell do you have hanging skin on your hands? I am going to try to get on the bike today but not too soon….have no motivation at all right now and one of these days I’m just going to sit here and do nothing…there is snow on the ground out there and I guess I’m going to just assume that I’ve lost the garden and will have to start over…but I’m not sure I want to…not sure if I want to do anything….slept okay last night but don’t have a lot of energy right now….have laundry running already and need to go down and put it in the dryer in a minute…I spread one chicken breast over two meals yesterday but my brain is treating that as a lot of food when it’s only about 300 calories…probably under 1K for the day yesterday and that is not sustainable….not much to do today….don’t want to do anything right now but have more coffee and sit here…going to try to get moving but I feel so damn tired…oh, well…I am old after all…more later….
Kind of a rough day….
Well…it has been kind of a rough day with losing my sense of taste…well…not all of it but a lot of it and I was concerned enough to use one of my covid tests to make sure that it’s not that…it showed negative so that’s one thing I don’t have to worry about…it’s probably just my allergies that are working themselves up to be a real pain in the butt as soon as the trees bloom…ha, the little widget on the lower banner just changed to “high pollen” and I thought to myself “no shit” as I read it…did get a bike ride in indoors this morning but didn’t do two…just didn’t have the motivation to go back down there…even though I have my garden covered, I think I may lose most of it and if I do, that’s it for the year and I’ll just let it go til next year…I do have some extra plants in the kitchen that should go under the light and I’ll do that in a minute….I did get some good news today when my daughter told me she is sending me a stainless steel, roll around prep table for my kitchen since I don’t have enough counter space to use it for that…and it’s going to be here Friday…now I’ll be able to do food prep in the kitchen instead of the dining room…
Cut, cut, cut…
Well…as we approach the chaos that will be defaulting on the debts of the US by the repub led House, there is no plan by the somewhat speaker to do anything about it but to propose cuts to everything…and the place he wants to cut the most is to food assistance for the poor that will throw 41 million Americans to the wolves…but he is also trying to cut Medicaid, Medicare, and SS just to make the cuts hurt the most people…and the thing I don’t understand is why poor old white people keep voting for repubs when they constantly try to hurt or even starve them to death. As they start to realize that the repubs are really going to crash the world economy so they can get rid of every social program, economists are starting to run around with their hair on fire and have started to pressure repubs to not be stupid…but when you have repubs like MTG in the House, they can only be stupid because they are stupid….even senate repubs have stated they won’t support the plan that mccarthy has floated so why the hell is he still trying and trying to get support for it…cripes, I don’t even think he can get enough votes in the house but he is just too damn dense to realize it…this is the problem when you put morons in charge of the House…geez…
Space X launch…
Well…just a short one on the SpaceX launch of the Falcon super heavy and Starship that is happening in 36 minutes…as much as I hate elon musk, I do still like that there is progress on rockets and space ships…not sure how much it will do to lift my mood…don’t think there is anything that will help with that…oh, and it is snowing here…in the middle of frickin April…
April 17th
Well…crap…I noticed when I was out for lunch last week that I’m losing my sense of taste…can’t taste the coffee I’m having right now and couldn’t taste anything I ate yesterday…even poured hot sauce on some refried beans yesterday just to see if that would work but couldn’t taste it at all…so, I wonder what the hell caused this? It’s snowing outside and I’m glad I covered the garden but I think I’m going to just let it go…have no desire to do anything and getting it going this year has been a huge pain….I’ve had this taste thing happen before a couple of years ago where everything tasted like ash but with the mild depression I’m feeling, it’s a little overwhelming to have something else go wrong….didn’t get much done but run an errand yesterday but I have to drag myself downstairs and get a ride in today….I’ve lost the flow to my days and it’s disconcerting….I guess I can shift into survival mode but that even seems like too much work right now….not sure what I’m going to get done today but I know I need to cook something and it will be some chicken breasts that I got Friday…but I won’t be able to taste them so why bother? Maybe super spice them so a little taste will come through? Who knows? More later….
A little depressed today…
Well…as depressions go, this is a mild one but it’s still here and it sucks…with the rain out here today, I didn’t get any bike rides in and tomorrow looks like it will be indoor rides with more rain in the forecast…I did figure out how to build a tent over the garden today with a 9×12 clear drop cloth and that has to be done tomorrow afternoon since the temp at night is going to be around 30 Monday and Tuesday night….it’s already down to 42 out there right now and it’s going down to 36 tonight…crap…I am really starting to think about selling this house and trying to find one out in the country…just so damn tired of how hard I have to work to just live here with all of the calls to the police for the noise complaints and making sure that everything is locked up all the time…I mean, I can’t even leave my garage door open when I mow my lawn…and I really want to just live for a while without having PTSD from all of the thumpy assed bullshit music….one of the first neighbors I met when I bought my house moved out today and it looks like they just abandoned a 200K house…the garage door was left open and there is nothing in it anymore…I wondered why I haven’t seen them in weeks…oh, well…
The party of freedom?
Well…you would think that at least one repub would have a bout of clarity about their hypocrisy touting that they are the party of “freedom”…freedom for who? Surely not for young people trying to learn the true history of this country….surely not for half of the country who are women and are having their rights taken away by the repubs ever damn day…certainly not the Florida lawmaker who gave her phone number out on the House floor and told women and girls to call her so she can help them with abortion care and the evil desantis had her arrested…certainly not our friends in the LGBTQ community who are fleeing red states to keep from being attacked an murdered just for being who they are…and certainly not the young athletes who now have to have their genitals “inspected” before they can participate in sports in Idaho….this sure as hell is not “freedom” and it is clear by comparison to blue states that it is the repubs in red states doing all of this….taking away people’s rights and exposing them to hate is not freedom for them…I guess it is freedom for the repub haters who are passing all these fascist laws…geez…