Hmmm….you know that I’ve talked previously about becoming invisible as I age and to me, that is just part of the disconnect that I feel about society and how I fit into it..well, the great revelation was in the shower (I know, don’t put that image in your head) after I got back from the bike ride today. I don’t really know if it was a revelation so much as another crystallization of the vague feelings I’ve been having for quite a while of the new state of my life…that is that it all feels temporary, like I’m just marking time or idling; looking for work and hoping that there may be something for me here in Michigan. In an earlier life, there were the concrete foundations of family, job, and owning a home…that were then replaced by the great group of friends I had for a number of years that have largely gone away; most of them getting into their concrete lives that I had already done….so I feel like I’m starting over again…just like when the marriage crapped out…
This is part of the confusion that I mentioned in the first post to this page…and it is something that I am not having any luck figuring out…as time goes on, you’ll see how this fits with the posts on change….
Well…what a gorgeous morning to be out on the bike in the fog and haze…out before 8 and over 20 miles and now I’m already bored and it is only 10…oh, well…not much going on today..no Sunday Funday as far as I know…at least I haven’t heard from anyone yet.
Not much more to say right now so I’ll stop…more later..
Well..I’m starting to feel better from Wednesday…although, going out for beers last night didn’t help. Today has been quite busy so far…grocery shopping, working out, lunch with Teresa, and just got back from a ride. I know, quit bitching, most people would love to have my life and I kind of like it, too. No plans for the weekend so far, except watching Indy 500 qualifying tomorrow..kind of a tradition with me and I am looking forward to it.
I promise some outrage tomorrow or later today…just have to comment on Jay Ambrose in the GR Press..who thinks that Michelle Obama wanting to do something about childhood obesity is an indoctrination of children to be socialists..geez….
Well…feel quite a bit better than I should…this one is going to be short since I do need to work out and get a bike ride in to get rid of the toxins…more later..
Well…busy morning so far, had to go out for coffee of course, then a haircut, washed the car, worked out, and took a long ride. Not a lot else to do until it’s out to ADA later this aft…I feel like I’m going to win at pool again this week…don’t ask me why, I just think that. Having a hard time lately working up outrage about anything but I have to be able to write without it I guess. I do have some comments on the primary elections from Tuesday but they are just musing more than anything since I didn’t see anything that looked like a trend except incumbents had a hard time in some of them. More later….
Well..I was just guessing on how much the car was going to cost, remember, I said that it would be 200 bucks? It actually is only 199…yay! I hope you get the sarcasm. But since having a loud car is one thing I can’t stand, it’s a good deal to me. It was a good decision to put the bike on the carrier and ride home to wait for the car…got the chance to work out and I’ll have some lunch before I ride back to get it. Have had this weird taste for chili dogs for the last few days so that is what I’m going to have.
No other plans for today other than to clean again…did a bunch of stuff around here over the weekend that made quite a mess so I’ll have to get on it. Should make enough cash this week to get the new rear tire for the bike and buy a cable modem to get rid of this damn unreliable DSL. More later…
Been kind of a strange day today…well..like all of my days are strange, I guess. Did get the workout in and took a long bike ride but the damn wind was ugly..oh,well. Have to take the wreck in to the muffler shop again tomorrow..it seems like at least once a year, I have to have something replaced; another 200 bucks down the drain…I need to find a job so I can buy a new car.
The LC is still closed so I don’t know where Monday out is with G is going to be today..it has to be somewhere that has Keno since that is a large part of of our night and is fun when we win sometimes. Probably Florentine’s since it is half way between our places and they have keno…hmmmm…well, that’s about it for now…I’ll get to the GRP and columnist thing later or tomorrow…
Well…it is getting kind of irritating that I can depend on the DSL going out on Friday night and coming back on Sunday morning…but I did get a lot of stuff done yesterday do maybe there is a silver lining. Just watched the F-1 race from Monaco and I don’t like the idea that they moved it from Memorial Day weekend…it was always the coolest race weekend with Monaco, Indy, and the World 600 all on the same day…it used to be wash and wax the car day, too, listening to Indy on the radio..bygone days, I know.
Getting ready to take the bike out as soon as the temp gets up to around 60…going to take a nice long one today but I’m not sure if it’s Pink Floyd for the ride or maybe some Peter Gabriel “Secret World Live”….or Neil Young….hmmmm. More later….
Okay…I’ll get started on the whole change thing now…while I’m waiting for a Kubrick movie to start. In a novel that I wrote about 15 years ago, I presented the idea that there are times in life where an event happens and from that point forward, how you look at life and how your life unfolds is different than it was before. But that is not the only premise that I have to speak to, I’ll get to how change has a personal effect; in this case the effect on my life and how hard it has been throughout my life to adapt to change while others that I see around me can just take it all in stride and go on in a straight line…like there is only one path and no matter what happens, they will be on that path. I don’t know if there is a purpose to all of this, but change is something that has been troubling to me for about a year now and has occupied my thoughts to a great extent. So, this is going to be a multi-post subject that will probably unfold over a while….if you’re interested, come back…hope I don’t bore you too much.
Well…this is new for me, I don’t have a lot to say again for a second day…did have some manhattans last night so I got up feeling kind of crappy but did work out already and am going to get on the bike in a few minutes to beat the rain.