Well…okay, I came to the realization today that I’m boring most days and I’m not going to apologize for it…look, if you’ve lived as many years as I have you just run out of novel things to do or have happen…like today, yes I got the 2 bike rides in but after that I just screwed around and read…and what’s interesting about that? Not much to be honest…I did see two herds of deer on the rides this morning…one with 8 deer in it and one with 7…do those numbers make a herd? Who knows and who decides? If I call it a herd does that make it a herd? To me it does so herd it is….I had a flock of starlings hit my yard this afternoon to use the water container I put out for the animals and it was funny to watch them take turns splashing in it…I’ll have to remember to fill it tomorrow…you know how boring my day was? I think trimming my beard was an accomplishment…what did I have to eat today? Hmmm…it wasn’t memorable but I do remember a bowl of potato soup and two eggs and two slices of toast for dinner…okay, that doesn’t sound like much but I forgot the bagel with cream cheese I had before I got on the bike…so that makes it a little over 1K calories for the day…and yes, I know that’s not enough but I really can’t eat more than that…no popcorn tonight since last night’s didn’t taste as good as earlier in the weekend…okay, need to figure out what the heck to watch tonight…no more reading…crap, I still need to do the weight work…

Well…don’t really want to talk about my crappy sleep anymore so I won’t…okay, I did have a frustrating dream last night where I lost something and the entire dream was trying to find it…yeah, that sucks and it leaves me with discomfort right now…oh, well…we did get a bunch of rain yesterday and it was about time…the whole system set up and came at us from every direction as the day went on and the low moved through…it was our turn to get rain and it looks like there is more coming Wed and Thurs…glad I got the lawn mowed the other day…going to get out on the bike as soon as it gets light this morning which gives me 20 minutes or so to pour the coffee down and hope it works with how worn out I feel…need to toast a bagel this morning, too since I am in danger of not eating enough again even though I made popcorn again last night…feels like depression is coming again and I hope the bike rides will help that but I’m due for a bout since I’ve been good for such a long time…so today I’ll hunker down and sleep walk through the day until I know what’s going on….more later…

Well…while I didn’t accomplish much today, I get a couple of things done and that was enough…both bike rides were in the rain this morning and with the wind blowing 25 out of the east, I darn near gave up after one ride but I gutted it out and got both in…some asshole ran over a couple of geese at the boat launch downtown and I can’t figure out why…I mean geese are annoying but to just run over a couple sure looks like a sociopath is on the loose here…someone who would kill harmless animals just for the hell of it is the worst kind of asshole…I did get out to get the new weatherstripping for the doors today and when I got back here I installed them and it was pretty easy but I did have trouble getting the old ones out of the back door…my kitchen shears cut them easily and I even saved a couple of the old ones to use on the garage door…I did finally make a batch of potato soup today and I may have made too much so I’ll be eating 2 bowls a day to use it before it spoils…I did make popcorn with real butter that I could really taste last night and I can’t figure that out…but I may try it again tonight since I don’t think a bowl of soup and a chicken sandwich is enough…don’t want to fall back into the calorie trap again but I’m on the verge of it with being exhausted this afternoon…oh, well…I think I’ve gained 5 pounds since I started trying to eat enough…and that sucks…

Well…damn, I may be getting this sleeping thing down with not getting out of bed til 5:31 this morning after going to bed at 10 or so…feel okay even without the coffee working yet but I am still pouring it down so I can get out for a ride before I head to menards to get the new door seals this morning…it looks like we may get some rain today but it looked like that yesterday, too but we didn’t get a drop…radar was filled with it but not a damn thing…oh, well…I did get some work done yesterday and will get a little more done today…want to wash and wax the front door after I put the new seals in and then I’ll get to the garage door…but not if it rains, I’ll have to wait a couple of days til everything dries out…don’t have any leftover food left so I’ll have to figure something out…if it rains, I think I’ll make potato soup since I still have 10 pounds of potatoes to use and they don’t last like they do when it’s cooler…have about 10 minutes before I need to get on the bike so I have to get going….more later…

Well…it’s been a busy day today with getting the two rides in, mowing the lawn, applying the weed killer, and then tearing the front door apart, then prepping and painting it…and then running to the library since I ran out of books…got done around noon after starting at 6am and I am sore and exhausted…and I’ll be heading out to menards in the morning to get the new gaskets for the doors so I can get them replaced tomorrow…have to cut them to fit but I have the old ones to measure with so that should be easy…need to lubricate the parts that slide in to hold them with some dish soap so they’ll be easy to install…will probably take a 10 minutes per door and I’ll finally have them looking and working like new again…the old ones are really weathered and looked like crap and I’m glad I got off my butt and got them started…next project will be the garage door that needs to have the trim painted, too…but right now I need to think about dinner and using up the last of the leftovers…and then get to reading…

Well…slept a little better last night and didn’t get out of bed til after 5am and that sure as hell is better than 3:33…still had the damn lack of energy yesterday afternoon but it only lasted a little while and I’m hoping it doesn’t happen again today…I did look for new seals for the doors and they are really cheap…can get a set for 13 bucks at menards so it will be cheap to do both the front and back doors…and I’ll just remove them from the front so I don’t have to mask them off when I paint that trim…maybe today…I do need to mow the front of the lawn today but the rest of it can wait til next week…it’s supposed to rain tonight and into tomorrow with almost an inch forecast but again, I’ll believe that when I see it…the last rain didn’t do any good as far as I can see…damn, I’m running late this morning and should be suiting up to get on the bike right now but I haven’t had my bagel yet and I need the fuel to support everything I need to do today…I did see 24 deer on the first ride yesterday after not seeing any for a couple of days and that was pretty cool…and the full moon really lit things up so I could get out early…not going to happen today but I will be on the bike by 6:30 after I pour down another cup of coffee….more later…

Well…after not being out to the beach all week, I decided to go out there today but the water was too darn cold to swim so it was kind of a worthless trip…I know I’m whining about going to the beach and that’s pretty weird…it was still an hour and half of relaxing but I’m still having problems doing that…oh, well…when I got back here I washed the back door and used car wax to wax it so it would look nice like the trim does…and it does look nice so now I guess it’s time to do the trim on the door to the garage and then wash and wax that door, too… and the front door trim is showing it’s age, too so I should give that a once over…but it will be easier since I don’t have to do the raw wood on the inside of the door this time…it was so clear today that I could see the smokestack of the power plant in Grand Haven today from 12 miles away and it’s been a while since I could say that….going to have to hit the freezer for meals tomorrow or make the potato soup I’ve been talking about for weeks…not sure which yet…I’ll have another easy day tomorrow with nothing to do but the weights and bike rides and maybe out to the beach again…we’ll see…I could probably get the front door trim painted but it may rain tomorrow night so I’ll have to check the weather first…

Well…I still don’t understand how not sleeping at all night before last doesn’t mean I would sleep like a rock last night…I should have but nope…still tossing and turning all night and up again at 5am…and I worked my butt off all day so shouldn’t that have tired me out? Oh, well….today is going to be an easier one and I’ll try to get out to the beach this morning if it’s warm enough…it got down to 60 last night and that will make for nice rides today that I will get started as soon as the sun comes up…went out in the dark yesterday to get the rides in before the grocery run but I don’t have any schedule today…the trim painting came out okay even though I didn’t thin the paint down…maybe that will make it last longer than a few months…I do need to order new gaskets for the door since it’s southern exposure has destroyed them as they bake every day…and, depending how easy it is to replace them, I need to do the front door seals, too…damn, have almost 1,500 bucks going out next month for car insurance and property taxes so I may not get to my savings goal before the Italy trip…not sure why I have a goal at this point but goals are part of my life and don’t cause me any stress so I guess they’re okay….more later…

Well…damn, I was expecting getting up at 3:33 in the morning would basically lay me out for the day with how exhausted I’ve been feeling lately…but I was surprised that I still got the rides in, the grocery run done, and the back door trim prepped and painted…and I still feel okay at 4:50pm…so, what the hell does that mean? I think it means that eating a lot more the past few days has been the key but it’s been the key every time I’ve felt that lousy and yet I never learned…maybe this time? I did take a 15 minute nap while reading this afternoon because I just couldn’t keep it up…so it wasn’t the coffee but I’m sure I don’t want to continue to drink 12 cups a day like I had been doing to try to stop the exhaustion…so tomorrow I don’t have a lot to do but the bike rides so I may hit the beach in the morning just to get one more swim in before the water turns permanently cold…yeah, I know…there’s still all of August and it’s usually pretty hot next month so I guess we’ll see…but, right now it’s time to go back to reading….

Well…I think I’m doing some real damage from not sleeping and last night was the worst…up at 3:33 this morning and I am not looking forward to getting on the bike for the first time in a long time…eating more hasn’t done much and I’m still exhausted but that’s to be expected with loading not sleeping on top of it…have so much to do today with bikes, grocery run, and then prepping and painting the door trim which should take a couple of hours with wire brushing, sanding, and masking the gaskets off…the actual painting only takes about 20 minutes and I’ll get on that as soon as I get back from groceries…I may have to try better paint after this time since this glidden only lasts one year before it peels…going to get on the bike in the dark this morning to have 2 rides done before 8am…have to dig out some painting clothes from the closet that will make me look even shabbier than normal but hell, I’m getting old and shabby so I guess that fits…assholes in this neighborhood had campfires going all day yesterday so I had to close the house up to be able to breathe…who the hell does that? I mean, who stands around a fire when it’s 82 degrees? Morons and assholes that’s who…okay, need to stop being depressed and this isn’t helping….more later…and more coffee….