Well…running a little late this morning with getting out of be at 6:43 and then running out to get the paper…it looks like a bunch of the snow is going to melt today with the temp getting up to almost 40 today and I’m okay with that…I think I slept okay last night but I’m still pretty worn out and I’m not sure if I’m getting on the bike today…or if I’m going to just do one ride…not thinking that far in the future….the rides yesterday were a chore and way too much work so I’m not ready to decide yet….had an okay day yesterday and I did get my kitchen sinks cleaned and drain cleaner down the drains but that was about it….and today will be much the same with the motivation I feel right now….not too sore today other than my right thumb that the skin split the other day and that is strange with keeping them lotioned all the time….I guess that just getting old since my entire right palm is shiny from having it in soap and water when cleaning…not much to do today…I think I may take the day off today or just do one ride….after having 3 weeks off the bike, it was kind of nice to just do what I want instead of having a schedule….so I’m going to sit here and have one more cup of coffee before I decide anything….more later…

Well…after some big cups of coffee, I finally got moving and did get both rides in before 10….feeling a lot better about things today and even went out to participate on Mastodon for a while and got another 5 followers this morning and that always makes me smile a bit…I can’t believe how different Mastodon is from the rest of the social media world…I was on twitter for 15 years and ended up with 9 people following me…I’ve been on Mastodon since November 30th of last year and I have almost 200 followers and over 4,000 actions that I’ve taken like posting my own thoughts or boosting someone else or favoriting a post….lots of interaction and lots of nice people out there and I invariably laugh out loud a couple of times a day….I know I’ve been slacking a bit on the political stuff but I will try to get one of those out this afternoon if I can find a topic….more later….oh, my daughter is working hard to make me feel better about my health problems…texted me this morning about a friend of hers family member who had a PSA of over 40 and they were able to correct his problem and that was almost 20 years ago….so there is hope….

Well…running about on time today with waking up early but not getting out of bed til 7…just feel deflated today and I think it will be a struggle to get going…need to get two rides in before 10 when Man U plays but I have no motivation to do that right now…don’t even want to go out to Mastodon to talk to people so I won’t…didn’t get a lot done but ride the bike yesterday and that will be my day today…I did have to repair my earbuds yesterday since the vinyl coating on the outside of the wires had cracked near the switch and it looked like the wires were starting to fray…so I used some adhesive and it appears like it’s fixed…I did have to use a spare set for the second ride yesterday and they were not anywhere near as good as the ones I repaired…probably should buy a new pair before the UK trip…after the bad news yesterday, I talked to my daughter for an hour and a half and it was nice to catch up….damn, I have to get on the bike in 14 minutes if I’m going to get two rides in before 10…not sure if I can…not feeling it right now…and I need to read some news first…along with more coffee….more later…

Well…just got the results of my PSA test and it is even worse than the last time…even with being off the bike for 3 weeks…so, it looks like I have prostate cancer and that really sucks…so, I see the urologist on the 14th of this month to start treatment…crap….

Well…got 16 miles in on the bike today after getting my blood drawn this morning…but, it took them 4 tries to finally get the blood to flow…the back of both hands are going to be black and blue tomorrow…I am going to be sore from the waist down tomorrow but damn, it feels good to be back on the bike and sweating it out again…and now I can have two meals a day again but I’m still having coffee so lunch will wait a while…the phlebotomist put a bad thought into my head…what happens if I can’t ride at all anymore? That never even came into my head until this morning and it will really suck if I can’t ride without killing myself…crap…

Well..life begins again today with finally getting my blood drawn for the PSA test at 9 this morning and the right back on the bike as soon as I get back here…it’s only 9 degrees out there so I am going to fire the car up at 8:30 and let it run a bit before I take off….I really do need to tighten up the alternator belt since it has been squealing a bit in the cold…only got up once last night and then out of bed about 7 or so….feeling pretty worn out today and I’m sure it’s from keeping the calories down the past three weeks…not sure what I’m going to eat today but I need to do two meals….I have a leftover pork chop for one of them but didn’t take anything out of the freezer so it may have to be pasta….didn’t get much done yesterday and today is going to be just regaining my routines until I have the urologist appointment on the 14th and I find out if I’m dying or not….I should have the result of the PSA test by Monday and then I’ll know what is going on…not much to do today…just the doctor and then the bike rides are in the plans so far….it didn’t snow as much as they forecast overnight so no shoveling today so it appears I’ll be fighting boredom…more later….

Well…have spent a good part of the afternoon setting up another MyChart page for the upcoming urologist appointment I have on the 14th since it’s in the U of M system and not Spectrum Health…and I find that to be a little weird in this ultra connected age we live in…I wonder why they don’t just let us give access to our page that has our PCP and files in it?  That would seem to be a better solution than making a new file for every new provider…and no cross pollination from one file to another…I don’t know how they are going to get the information from my urology appointment back to my doctor…oh, well…I guess they’ll figure it out…

Well…another night of ups and downs that ended at 6:19 when I got out of bed…must have slept on my right shoulder since it hurts like crazy today…but it’s more than that, it even hurts down my side and I am getting tired of hurting myself sleeping….had an okay day yesterday but didn’t get a lot done other than the grocery run and laundry…and today looks even easier with only getting the time for my blood draw set up for tomorrow….will be back on the bike for at least one ride tomorrow but after three weeks off the bike, I know I’m going to have to work back to fitness…it’s going to be a strange roller coaster with the weather the next few days and the little weather widget at the bottom of my screen is going nuts saying warmer temps and then temps plummet…it is going to get really cold and then into the high 30’s and lower 40’s for a week or so…and that gets us a week closer to spring…the high tomorrow is only going to be 14 with a low of 8 tonight and 9 tomorrow night….ick….not much to do today…going to grill a couple of chops if I have the gas and probably roast a potato to go with it…tomorrow I get back to two meals a day and I am looking forward to that….not sure what those meals will be…maybe some pasta to go with the chops? More later…

Well…I finally got some stuff done today and it felt good…after the grocery run where I did get some pork chops on sale…yeah, I know…just finished up a pork shoulder today and then right back into pork again tomorrow? Probably should change it up but I only have chicken drumsticks or soup in the freezer and neither one of those really grabs me right now…I can finally go back to two meals starting Friday with getting my blood drawn at some point that day…got the laundry done today, too and did dishes…all the normal stuff…I did start watching “Babylon” last night but damn, it’s 3 hours and 9 minutes long and I just couldn’t get through it so I have about a half hour to watch when I start my night…I am going to see if I have enough gas in the grill to grill the chops tomorrow…if not, I have to take the tank out and see if it can be filled…if not, I have 60 bucks to spend on a new tank and a fill…but that will last me two years so I guess that’s not too bad and it will be my last grill anyway and it is better than any grill I can afford anyway…but that will be next week…now it’s time to wind down for the day….

Well…that was another whiplash inducing sleep with tossing and turning all night..woke up at 3 and 5:04 and the out of bed at 6:34 but I’m having trouble getting going…and I need to get going since I need to be out of here in an hour to do the grocery run with planning to hit the Sternberg road stores and DD…had an okay day yesterday but didn’t get anything done…I do need to do laundry today and Man U plays at 3 so I’ll need to be done by then..done with what, I don’t know…maybe some cleaning but I’m going to just wing it for a while….still don’t need to cook today but will use up the leftovers…I am getting some pork chops at Meijers today and I may see if I have enough gas in the grill to grill a couple of them tomorrow…it didn’t snow last night so that’s cool but I think there is more in the forecast and some pretty cold temps…then we get a warm up into the high 30’s for a week or so…and that gets us closer to March and spring…paid my gas bill yesterday and it was a bad one at 125 bucks but that should be the highest one I have this winter..I hope anyway…not much to do today…just the grocery run and then cleaning but I’m not too motivated to do that right now…maybe later in the day…more later….