Well…damn, I’m running so late this morning…woke up at 5:07 but went back to sleep til 6:13 and I won’t be out on the bike til almost 7 so I’ll be running all morning…need to hit the library this morning and mow the front of the yard…and make the stir fry for lunch…so I won’t have any time to relax until after noon…it is a little cool this morning and that’s okay…it’s getting down into the 50’s for a low tonight so I’ll have to close this place up…or put a blanket on the bed…I guess we’ll see…didn’t get anything done yesterday but I am going to clean today and put stuff away…the dining room table needs attention…damn, only have 15 minutes before 7am and I am struggling to get going….I am old after all and I wonder when it’s going to happen that I just can’t get going anymore? Not today…so I need to get off my butt and prep for the rides…so damn tired…more later….

Well…we didn’t get the inch of rain that was in the forecast but it did rain for about 20 minutes this afternoon…not enough to fix my lawn but it may limit the damage some…I am going to have to mow the front of the lawn tomorrow but not anything else since it is completely dormant…so, I didn’t do much today…even skipped dinner since I didn’t feel like cooking so I’ll make the stir fry tomorrow…just don’t have any appetite anymore and I wonder if that will ever change…I did get two rides in this morning and I’ll try to keep that up with how warm it stays overnight…it was 76 with 87% humidity when I want out and I still didn’t sweat much and I wonder if that is a part of the dehydration I’ve been feeling or if it’s from losing 30 pounds? Haven’t even sweated through my hat to get it dripping at all this year…hmmm…okay, need to finish a book before the USA plays in the Gold Cup final at 7…

Well…another morning up before 5am and I’m so damn tired and I wonder why I can’t take a nap in the afternoon like I used to be able to? And the weather forecast of rain is just frickin laughable since it never rains here…twice in 90 days? Didn’t sleep for crap last night and that is getting to be a pattern…I mean how long can you sleep only 5 hours a night before it starts to affect your health? I did make whole bean coffee for this morning and it really sucks that I can’t taste it anymore….and I have 6 more pounds in the drawer that I won’t be able to taste either…not sure what I’m going to cook today…have chicken thawed for a stir fry but then chicken tacos got into my head…maybe I’ll get more chicken and do the tacos later in the week….need to get on the bike to do two rides before 10 when the F1 race is on but I’m losing interest in it…like everything else…still have the feeling they are going to find liver cancer with the ultrasound  Wed and that will be the end of me…so I need to get my life in order over the next week or so…not much to do today..just the rides and races and reading…and trying to enjoy my last few days of no cancer…more later…

Well…damn, it got up to 92 degrees out here today so I really didn’t do much but the two rides early this morning and then sat in the shade of my fan all day and read…just finished the 4th of 5 books I picked up Wed…on more James Patterson to do and that will be tomorrow…but there are 3 races on, too, so that will fill some of the time…not sure when I’ll get the rides in tomorrow since it’s supposed to rain off and on but I’ll believe that when I see it…so it could be a wet ride if it’s not storming…didn’t eat much today but I did make a pork loin fillet along with some weird popcorn cauliflower that I got at DD for 99cents…so now all I have to do is finish the race that’s on now and then try to find a movie to watch on plex…tv time…

Well…it really sucks when you wake up at 4:23 and know you’re not getting back to sleep…so it’s a little after 5 and I’m pouring the coffee down to get the day started…it never got under 78 last night and it’s getting to over 90 today so it is going to be uncomfortable later…the humidity is almost 100% right now and I’m already sweating….I really do like the day after holidays when the crap that people do is over…I think that started with having to do everything for christmas when my kids were growing up and all of the traveling that came with it…and I’ve always said that my favorite day of the year is December 26th….didn’t even hear the fireworks before I went to bed last night and that is okay…it is so dry out here that I was expecting lots of fires from the fireworks the idiots were setting off but I didn’t have to put my lawn out so I guess that’s a bonus…just stumbled on the weirdest show on British tv…James May just reassembling an old record player….5 am tv is strange…need to get on the bike as soon as it gets light to get two rides in before 9:55 when F1 qualifying comes on but that gives me an hour to have coffee…not a lot to do today…should clean the bathroom but I don’t think I’m going to have the energy for it…I really miss naps…more later…

Well…I am damn tired of all the health crap you have to go through when you get old…I’m tired of the tests, biopsies, and ultrasounds and just want to live what’s left of my life…and I’m tired of busting my ass to stay healthy every day when it just doesn’t mean anything…but, I’ll be on the bike in a half hour to get the rides in before the rain comes in…and yes, it’s not going to rain even though there is a huge blob over in Wisconsin heading this way…man, I feel old…didn’t eat much yesterday and I’m finding it harder and harder to even try to eat when I can’t taste anything anymore…even coffee and that sucks…the air quality is poor again today and I’ll be coughing again after the rides…the rain is supposed to be here in three hours so that give me time to get the rides in before that…have a lot to do today to just keep this place a little presentable so I may skip the beach and get my ass in gear and clean…I’m sore and tired and old and depressed…and I have 13 minutes before I have to get on the bike…more later…

Well…I finally got the liver ultrasound scheduled but it is so damn early…I have to be there at 6:45am on the 9th and the only corewell facility that does it out here is in Grand Haven…only 13 miles from here but still, they should have a place here in Muskegon…oh, well…didn’t get a lot done today but the rides and going to the beach…the water is still really nice and I got a half hour swim in…but it’s supposed to get into the mid 90’s Sat but I won’t be at the beach any weekends…just too dam busy…I may go out for a bit tomorrow if I can get out there early before the crowds…there are air quality alerts on til Sunday and I can feel it in my lungs…have been coughing a bunch today and I know part of it is allergies…okay, want to get a little more reading in…

Well…I am so damn tired this morning and I need to get on the bike in 16 minutes but I sure don’t want to…need to schedule the liver ultrasound today on mychart and I really think it is going to be something serious like liver cancer that my mother died from…forgot to put sunscreen on for the 2nd ride yesterday and I got pretty scorched after just a little over an hour in the sun…skipped the beach yesterday since I didn’t have the energy to go out there and I’m not sure about today…it hasn’t been relaxing going out there lately and it should be…not sure what I’m going to eat today but I really don’t care either…hey, can you tell I’m depressed? Living in this 72 year body is getting to be too much work…all I want to do is lie on the couch and read all day but you know I won’t do that….after all, I’ve been on the bike for 630 days straight and that is going to end next May when I do the trip to Italy with my daughter…was shooting for 1,000 days in a row but does that matter? Not to anyone but me…not much to do today…need to assemble the potato salad this morning but I really don’t feel like eating at all…okay, this is depressing…so I’m going to stop and have one more cup of coffee and get on the bike….more later…

Well…damn, I am getting so tired of this body giving up on me…got a call about the blood work I had done yesterday and I have elevated billirubin levels and they want me to go in next week for a liver ultrasound…I am so damn tired of doctors appointments that I may just say no and just live out what little life I have left…if I have to give up the few cocktails I have every week, I’m going to scream…it could be caused by a lot of things like dehydration or gallstones and I know I have both of those…but it still sucks because it they find something, there will be more doctor appointments and more medicine, and more pain in the ass…and I don’t like that one bit…crap…

Well…no one should be up at 4:36…it’s just wrong and it is going to set me up for a low energy day that I’m feeling right now…slept okay but this damn humidity is going to kill me…there just is no relief at all and it’s wearing me out…need to get on the bike in less than 15 minutes and I don’t know if I can do it…the coffee hasn’t had time to work and every damn keystroke is too much effort…had an okay day yesterday but did way too much work and don’t want to repeat that today…but I do need to hit the library after the grocery run and a stop at Menards and I think I’m going to do a DD stop just for the heck of it…the results of the latest blood draw are on mychart but I think I’m going to follow my daughter’s advice and not look at it until my doctor calls me…it’s going to be hot and humid for the next week and I’m going to shift into survival mode to get through it…not much to do today…and that is a lie since I am going to be running all morning and I may hit the beach again…but the couch has a gravitational pull right now that is going to be hard to resist…need to get going…more later…