Well…it looks like I’m going to be forced into easing into the day today with rain that is about a half hour away so I won’t be getting on the bike until after I run errands around 8:30 or so…and I probably need that with feeling so worn out lately….I did get out to the beach yesterday but even that is feeling like a task to be accomplished lately….just like everything else and I need to figure out how to enjoy things again…I am going to make a pizza tomorrow and I know I’m going to enjoy that…haven’t made one since I’ve lived here and I don’t know why….I make a pretty good crust but I need to find the recipe in one of my notebooks….but I need a new mixing bowl and that means a run to the dollar store today, too….and they don’t open til 9 so I can just take it easy this morning….I will probably have to put the top up on the car this morning…can’t remember the last time I’ve had to do that with the lack of rain out here….it will probably be a bit of a pain since the tops shrinks when I don’t latch it…not much to do today….just the errands and one ride today and then working on the door frame on the garage so I can get paint next week and get the 5 of them painted….will still probably need to water the lawn today, too, with the small amount of rain that is coming….more later….

Well…another 6:40 morning today and I am still waiting for a real day of sleeping in…I seem to be fatigued all the time lately and I’m not sure why that would be other than I’m getting old…I do feel good that my elbow seems to be able to heal after I abuse it and it only has a little pain this morning…and my right foot is almost back to normal size after a year of swelling….yeah, I do sound pretty creaky….going to get out on the bike here in a minute but I’m not sure if I’m going to do two rides today since I want to go out to the beach for a swim and doing two would put me out there when it’s a little busy but we’ll see…didn’t get much done yesterday and today will be the same if I go out to the beach but I’m running out of summer and need to get busy on the outside of the house and I need to get my winter wheels cleaned up and painted so I can buy new snow tires for the Miata…will probably need to start planning my projects again so they will all get done…but I’ve had to plan everything my whole life and I thought being retired I could stop that….not much to do today…it’s 7:27 and I’m already getting anxious about getting started and that seems to be a little sick…I’m retired damn it….I need to figure out how to just live and I don’t know how….more later…

Well…after getting the grocery runs in this morning, I got on the bike and did the first ride and my legs were okay but very painful and the second ride was about the same…taking a couple of days to only ride once after working around here was probably a good idea…I know I have to tamp down the guilts when I only ride once, especially when I work outside in the heat and humidity…but my elbow is so stiff I can barely move it but it doesn’t hurt too bad so I can live with it…and it should get better until I get back to cleaning the house siding but I’ll probably wait on that til next week…or Friday if I get out to the beach tomorrow…need to get out there more and I need to clean my car…it is very dusty out here and the interior is full of it so that could be something to do this weekend even though I like to take the weekends off…we’ll see…I did get the lawn watered today but just the little watering I do has driven my water bill up by more than 50% to 38 bucks last month…I can afford it and I know I have to keep doing it if I want to have any lawn at all with how little it rains out here….and I have made improvements to it that I don’t want to have to start over with….okay, that’s it….going to take the rest of the day off and just veg a while…still didn’t get my mixing bowl yet since my dollar store didn’t have one today…will have to check at the one on the other side of the city Friday…..no more later…

Well…running a bit late today with staying in bed til almost 7 but I don’t feel like I slept at all….doing the front steps yesterday really hurt and my elbow is the worst it’s been in a long while….I really hate getting old…..had some computer problems yesterday that I fixed on my own but I thought I was going to have to get a new one…this one is getting pretty old and I guess I’ll have to start planning for the day when I will have to buy a new one…along with getting a new phone that I should have gotten a couple of weeks ago…have a lot to do today with the grocery runs and hitting the dollar store to get a new mixing bowl and measuring cups so I can make a pizza later in the week….but my green peppers have stalled in their growth so I may have to wait until next week…my garden is a disappointment and I do need to figure out what went wrong so I can fix it next year….a little consolation is that the flower seeds that I planted along the back of the house have come up and have added some color to the yard…I do need to remember to water them when I plant next spring….not much to do today…I really should clean my car in the next couple of days since the interior is pretty dusty and the floor mats need to be vacuumed but I’m still not too motivated….just damn tired and could use a day off….more later…

Well…I really did think that a gallon of Thompson’s water seal would be enough to do my front steps but I was wrong…still have about 1/4th of it to do after using the gallon so I guess I’ll have to buy more next week…it does look better with it treated but my elbow is shot after using a paint brush to do the detail work and the pain is pretty intense…and it took forever with getting to take a tour of the house that is being rehabbed across the street when Dan, who is working on the house, came over to chat…they used the color scheme that I am going to use on this place with differing shades of grey…looked very cool and modern and I hope it will do the same here….needless to say, that not getting done until almost 2 will keep me off the bike for the second ride and I’m okay with that….I’m sore everywhere and need to rest a bit….

Well…another 6:42 morning today and I feel pretty damn tired…and that comes with skipping the second bike ride yesterday trying to be smart to not trigger another dehydration episode with mowing the lawn and doing the edging out front….screwed up my elbow again but it seems to be healing faster this time and barely hurts this morning…but the front looks good so it’s worth it…I am going out to get some wood sealer to do the front steps today since the wood looks so dry after I cleaned it and you do need to treat wood to keep it from deteriorating….so that may keep me off the bike again this afternoon but we’ll see…I’m slowly getting the outside done and should have it ready for fall and winter…I’m still disappointed in my tomato yield and probably won’t even have enough to make salsa and that sucks….but I like the pickles I’ve made and need to make another couple of jars…and I do have flowers that have come up along the back of the house so that is cool….never thought they would with the lack of rain but I guess watering for the sunflowers has helped that….I think I’m going to the beach Thursday so this week may be one of only one ride a day and I can live with that….running out of summer and want to have a few days to take it easy….not much to do today….going to get on the bike here in a minute but need to read some news and have coffee first…I am a little excited about doing the front steps today and seeing how that will look….little things still make me happy and I want to finish the outside by the end of the month to be able to relax during the fall….more later….

Well…I wonder if you know how disappointing it is when you wake up and think you’ve slept in and it’s only 6:42? Then you realize you didn’t load up the coffee machine either? Not a good way to start the day…..and I forgot about the US vs Mexico in the gold cup last night and that sucks….so I’m depressed this morning and that is getting to be the new normal and that sucks, too….didn’t get anything done yesterday and that is depressing, too….crap…everything seems to be depressing…..one good thing is that my right foot is much less swollen than it has been the past year and I’m not sure what is going on….but it feels good so I’ll take it….I do need to mow the lawn today and do some trimming on the front so that will mean only one ride today if I’m smart…and I need to get out on the bike here in a minute but it’s only 56 right now and that is too cool to go out in a t-shirt so I’ll have to dig out a long sleeve shirt to wear…and I have to get started on prepping the door frame on the garage so I can paint it later in the week….but I’m just not motivated right now and want to sit on the couch…but I know that can’t happen….more later….

Well…how the heck can I be running late getting up at 5:30? But, I am and need to get this done in 15 minutes so I can get out on the bike before the F1 race at 8:55…tossed and turned all night last night and I’m not sure why….had an okay day with no stress at all so that is a little confusing…but, with how I normally sleep, this is par for the course….I did get a little work done yesterday but just mowing the front of the house and watering the lawn so I don’t have much to do today other than riding….I am still waiting for my green peppers to grow so I can make a pizza and I think that will happen later in the week…have a few on the plants this year and I wonder if I can freeze some to have over the winter? Will probably have to blanch them first…will have to look that up….my elbow is getting better but now my forearm is hurting but that is the normal pattern with the pain that I have…it normally moves around but has landed in that elbow all summer…still hurts some but I can pour coffee so that is okay….not much to do today….going to get on the bike right now and then just watch olympics and racing today…don’t feel like doing anything else….more later…

Well….was going to work on the siding on the house today but just thought I’d take the weekend off and just do easy stuff like mowing the front of the house, killing more ants, and now I’m watering the lawn…I did get two rides in and ran across a gathering of Impala owners…the last of the big, rear wheel drive ones and there must have been 50 of them in a parking lot over by the marina…weird…and my right thigh hurt from the start of the first ride and I think that is trying to tell me to take it a little easier and to really do skip the sprints like I know I need to do….the bike has been working perfectly the past few days and haven’t had to adjust it at all so I’m going to keep my fingers crossed that it will continue…and that it will rain later today like it’s supposed to…ha, ha, ha….yeah, that made me laugh…it just isn’t raining out here this year and I can’t figure it out…we’re more than 9 inches of rain under normal even with the inch we had about a  week ago…okay, that’s it…going to take the rest of the day off….

Well….dang, it’s only 52 degrees out here right now and that means I’ll need a fleece to get on the bike for the first ride and it’s still July? Or I guess I could wait til after F1 qualifying and go out at 10 but that would put me late for the second ride….slept okay last night but I’m feeling pretty slow right now and I could go back to bed in a minute…just feeling pretty worn out but I didn’t do anything to do that….I do need to get off my butt and get things done around here and I think I’m going to try some stripper on the floor in the spare bedroom today just to see if it will take the adhesive off  and make a good surface to maybe refinish….I am so disappointed with how many tomatoes I’m going to get off my plants this year…they are really small and very few and I will need to do a lot of work on the soil to make it better…oh, well…I did make some bread and butter pickles yesterday and they came out pretty good so I’ll probably be making more of those soon…pickles are the only way I like cukes and I already have three types in the fridge and lots more jars to put them in…I really wanted to make some tomato sauce but there are not enough tomatoes for that…I am going to make a pizza next week with my green peppers on it…I think I’ll do some herbs in the garden next year, too, so I’ll have to plan that over the winter….not much to do today…I’ll have to tamp down my guilt if I’m going to take the weekend off and just enjoy my life…that’s harder than I ever expected…especially with how much work I have to do around here….hmmmm…more later…