Well..running a little early today with not sleeping too well last night…I’ve already been up an hour and a half but just now getting moving…hope it’s not that I’m getting older…I know I am but I don’t want that to be the reason….had an okay day yesterday but I didn’t get anything done…I did get a bike ride in but I’m not sure about that today…it’s cold out there and the wind is already almost 20 and I’m not sure I want another brutal ride…..not too sore today but my face got sandblasted on the bike yesterday and it hurts today…and I think I have a cold…my lungs have been iffy all morning and the coughing is back…okay…not going to bitch any more…need coffee and some news…more later….

Well…running a little late today but there is no reason for it….watching the MotoGP race and that is a good distraction to start the day…it’s the last day of the BPL season and Man U plays this morning some time so I’ll have to look that up…feel okay today but my system is in knots today since I had some peanuts over the past few days and that is never a good idea….not sure why I keep doing that when I know I’ll pay for it…my back hurts on both sides now and I’m not sure why that is…but the pain is not too bad so I guess I can live with it….have to decide if I want to get on the bike today or not…it’s raining right now and I’ll have to get out in the next half hour or so or wait until after Man U plays…I do need to clean today but I’m not sure if I will or not…just can’t get motivated….more later….

Well….still waiting for it to warm up enough to get out on the bike…and it’s the end of frickin May….that irritates the heck out of me…oh, I did win at pool yesterday….slept okay last night and I’m not too sore today so I think I’ll skip the ibuprofen and see how it feels…only got to put the top down on the way out with it raining after we were done….I do need to get under the car and lube the parking brake system since it froze up on me yesterday..l haven’t done that since I got the car and I probably should have…but, not today….not going to do much today except watch qualifying from Indy and clean…..more later….

Well…running late this morning and it is because I was watching “Wheeler Dealers”…they had a Miata that they were restoring and it kind of sucked me in….my back is better and I’m not sure why that is….haven’t been able to get it to crack so it should still hurt…weird…did get a nice bike ride in yesterday but the wind was brutal…and today is too darn cold to go out until later so I think I’ll just take it easy this morning and ease into the day…just got the first cup of coffee and I am sure I’ll need more than that….feeling a little slow this morning….I did start to clean a little yesterday but I don’t think I’ll do much today with pool this aft….more later….

Well….running a little late today and you know why…it’s grocery day and I tried to not spend much this week..and I think I was successful…slept okay last night but a damn spider woke me up at 2 am and I had a hard time getting back to sleep…but, I did get the top down over and back to the grocery store this morning so I guess that checks the crappy sleep….my back seems to be better this morning…that really started yesterday and it was okay on the bike even so I am happy with that…I can’t believe how dirty my car is even after the rains so I think I’ll have to wash it in the morning…can barely see out of the windows and I just hate that…. going to clean some today since I really don’t have a lot else to do….more later…..

Well….running a little early again today….haven’t been sleeping well…and have been up since 4:30…so, I guess I should have been here even earlier…..what the heck did I do for 3 hours? Had an okay day yesterday but didn’t get much done other than get resumes out and read the news….that may have been one of the reasons I was up so early…just way too much news….I did get a nice bike ride in and had little pain…but I did take something before I went out and that helped….think I’ll do that today, too….I’ll have to get out on the bike soon, though…the wind is supposed to get up to about 30 later and that is just too brutal to ride in…..I do need to clean today and that will be part of the day for me….the cobwebs are back and need to be gone…more later…..

Well….up early again today and I would like to sleep in just once…oh, well….I can’t believe it’s going to be 86 degrees today…I am going to get the bike ride in early today if it doesn’t rain…looks like the storms are going past to the north…we did get a little one last night but only a few flashes of lightning so I was a little disappointed…still hurt some today and my back is still caught and I’m not sure how to fix it….this is the longest time in quite a while that it’s hurt….it might be my hip, too, since I have been abusing it when I write on the couch….more later….

Well….haven’t been feeling like myself lately and just today made the connection why that is….from the lack of energy to the uneasy feelings to the paralysis in my head…depression has reared it’s ugly little head again…I almost didn’t recognize it…it has been a long time since I’ve seen more than one of the symptoms at a time….they usually just flick in and out for a day or so at a time but this one feels more like it did 20 years ago when I was on medication for it…just like almost everyone I knew back then…the heyday of Prozac. I’m not sure what the heck I can do about this one right now…but when the realization came to me out on the bike today, things became clearer….and today was a better day…I’m no longer paralyzed by it and I got a bunch of resumes out…and even listened to some music today….maybe tomorrow will be better…..

Well…up way too early again today and that is getting old…I think I slept okay last night but still no dreams…darn….didn’t get a lot done yesterday but I will need to do more today….I am going to clean some today but not too much…the kitchen needs work and I’m not sure when they are bringing the new appliances so I wonder if I should clean before they do…..nope, I think I’ll wait until they make their mess then clean…..man, I am tired this morning and this one is not going too well….so, I think I’ll just get more coffee and start to think what I want to do today…..more later….

Well….have been sitting here doing some reading today and there have been some surprising articles that have come up on the supposedly innocuous subject of Mother’s day….now, I’ve never thought that this day would have so much weight to so many people…and that so many people just hate the day. Now, I can understand some of it….if you’ve lost a child or never had one…or never had a good relationship with your mother….but the sorrow and pain that has come through today has really taken me aback….some of the commenters even go so far to just hibernate for days until the day passes….and others lash out at people wishing them “Happy Mother’s day”….not sure what to make of it….makes you think anyway…