Well…running early today since I got up early and am already bored…and it looks like more and more cold and snow for the weekend…how can you not be depressed? Slept okay last night but I am still tired again today but that is the new normal…it was an okay day yesterday and I did get a few things done so that is something but not much…but today looks like it will be a little less boring with lunch with T and then out for pool…and the olympics have started but I am already tired of the personal interest stories that they feel compelled to interject all night…I don’t really need to know the personal stories of the participants, especially when it breaks up the flow of the events…after all, it is the performances that define the games, not the childhood of these people….not much to do today…need to do the grocery run and then get ready for the rest of the day…more later…

Well…it was just another long, boring day yesterday with nothing to comment on…but, I will anyway just to keep the string alive…didn’t do much but I did take some venison out of the freezer and marinated it in the dressing that I have been using for chicken, too…and it came out pretty good…and I really needed the protein with all of the carbs I’ve been having lately…and, I have another one for today so that will be good to see how the marinade works overnight…slept okay last night but I am beginning to think that the twitching in my right eye is caused by using earplugs to sleep at night…might have to test that theory tonight….my heel is finally healing and doesn’t hurt as much as yesterday so I have hope that I will be able to walk normally soon….I am getting a little excited that the olympics are starting soon but hockey is going to be on a channel that I don’t get and I hate NBC for that….oh, well…not much to do today…I do have to run some errands this morning and then get some work done around here but that is it….more later….

Well…as you can see, I didn’t come back for another one yesterday…went out to meet up with G for a couple at lunch and the day just got away from me….felt pretty crappy the rest of the day so I just hung out and vegged…I did have a weird dream in two stages last night…dreamed that I saw a plane crash and then helped the pilot get out of the wreckage…but, later in the dream a couple of days had passed and then I was talking about it to a different group of people…don’t remember having time passing in a dream in quite a while so that was fun…slept okay last night, too, so that was a pleasant surprise…nothing much happened the rest of the day…I did make up a crock pot meal out of leftovers that I had in the fridge that came out okay…and will give me something to eat the next couple of days…not much to do today…going to try to clean again today but haven’t has any success lately so maybe that won’t work this time either….more later…

Well…it was an okay day yesterday…not really, when did it become okay to be so frickin bored every day? Oh, well….didn’t get much done but really didn’t need to….slept okay but again no dreams so that was normal….It didn’t snow last night which is quite weird, too, since it has snowed almost every day since November….haven’t been feeling that hot and I cracked the skin on my right heel and now I have to kind of limp around here since it hurts so much…and that caused me to favor it which makes everything else hurt…yep, just feeling like I’m falling apart here but I know it will get better once I can get back on the bike…I am getting a little excited about the Olympics coming up later in the week and that will give me something to do…not much to do today…I am going to clean the bathroom today since it is on full spider alert and it just needs it….more later…

Well…sitting here waiting for the car to de-ice so I thought I’d get this one done while I wait…it was an okay day yesterday but a veg one…I did get the grout in my shower scrubbed so that was something…slept okay last night but I think it’s been a month since I had a dream and that is a little puzzling but not news….and the game was a total bust…pretty crappy but I did want Seattle to win so that was okay….need to get some more stuff done today but I’m not sure how much…don’t have much motivation so I think today will be a day of recovery and rest…and getting back to some real topics….more later…

Well…it has been one of those days where I have been fighting the guilt of not doing much…I did scrub the grout in my shower since it had started to look really, really bad and I couldn’t stand looking at it, so I got out the brushes and the bleach and went to work…looks okay now but still needs some work…and the major guilt was really driven by frying some food earlier for lunch…made some homemade fries that will be fueling the guilt and loathing for the next couple of days…and, it smells in here and I don’t like that, either….so, now I have to skip dinner today after adding over 250 calories of pure fat for lunch…have been drinking a lot of water, too, to try to flush out the poison…yeah, I know that’s a little harsh but I have done so well for the past 10 years in not eating that stuff that it is hard when I fall off the frying wagon….so, now it’s almost time for the big game so I’m going to go watch some of the pre-game and then have a cocktail or two for the game…

Well…it was an okay day yesterday but I did a total veg so today will have to be different…there are spiders in the bathroom again and it needs to be cleaned…so, I am going to try to get that done today….slept okay last night but still have a bug that is bothering me and I am tired of it…it seems I have been sick most of this winter…just low grade stuff but still annoying….I did get the chance to watch the movie “Flight” last night and I came away a little confused about what the point of it was…will still have to think about it…it looks like a good sports day today with Michigan, the Wings, and the super bowl on today…so, maybe I’ll clean the bathroom tomorrow? Not much to do today…going to have another cup of coffee and stare at the tv for a few the try to get on with the day…more later….

Well…a thought came to me last night but I thought I’d wait til today to get it down, especially since it was a cocktail night and sometimes those ideas aren’t quite as good as they appear at the time. With being broke and unemployed for so long, I think I have almost forgotten that there are other lives out there…and that other people are happy, successful, and smiling…I seem to have fallen into the trap of seeing everything through the lens of my situation..which is really not too happy right now. I have forgotten how to smile, I think, and to understand that there could be better times ahead…not sure if there are, but could be…and I have to explore and understand this fact, to see life through a new lens that puts unemployment and lack of money in the back for a while…not sure how it will go but there’s nothing to lose to try it…might even be fun…

Well…it was an okay day yesterday and I lost at pool but had fun so that was cool…and, it was a cocktail night last night so I feel a little crappy today but that’s okay…have already been out to get what groceries I needed and now I am hunkered down here for the day as the snow starts…supposed to get almost 8 inches today and I just don’t want to see it anymore…slept okay last night but I am sore almost everywhere and I can’t figure that out…both elbows especially so I guess I need to take something for it…not much to do today…I am going to clean today…maybe…but first I need to have my second cup of coffee and hit the couch for a while….more later…oh, I do have a second one for the day that came to me last night but I wanted to save it for this month…

Well…it was a long day yesterday but there wasn’t anything in particular that made it that way…maybe it just felt that way? Didn’t do much but clean a little and get rid of the papers and I think I’m finally over feeling guilty about it….slept okay last night but I know I’m down on calories for the day so I’m running a little low on energy…so, it’s a good thing that it’s Friday and I don’t have to work out today….it looks like another semi veg day today but there is pool so that will be something to look forward to…I think the clutch may be going hinky on the car again..felt a little weird going out for the papers this morning but maybe it’s just that it isn’t below zero…hope so…more later…