Well…into the third day of “the week of Me” and have found a few things I find interesting…you might not, but it is interesting to me. First, it has been quite easy to break the rules on my cocktail times…well…if starting a half hour earlier is really breaking the rules…but the rest of it has been about the same and I’m not sure why…the eating thing has been much tougher to change…I still only have so much capacity in my stomach and once I have one of my two meals a day, I am just not hungry for hours and food has no appeal…now I’m beginning to wonder if the rules were just observations and not something that I really had to formulate to maintain my weight. I do know one thing, it is a lot more work not doing my routines…I have to think to try to break the ingrained rules and habits and that takes time that I usually just use to think….kind of weird when you think of it….just like changing the route on the bike makes me have to think what I’m doing instead of just zoning out like I normally do….so, this far I haven’t been too successful in letting the rules go…going to have to think about why….

Well…it was an okay day yesterday and I won at pool so that was cool…but, it was a long night last night and “the week of Me” is starting to wear on me some…I’ll update that later in the day….had a nice drive out and back to pool and I put the top down this morning going out for groceries since the morning is so nice…going to make for a nice bike ride in a few minutes but I am a little chagrined that my new music player is not here yet…yesterday was the first day it could have arrived and I think it should have…oh, well…I’m not really sore today so the ride is going to be a fast one…not sure if it’s a record day or not but the wind is not blowing so it could be…don’t have enough coffee, though, and I think I’ll plan it for later in the week…not much to do today…going to grill some chicken and make some potato salad but that is about it….going to be a veg day unless I start feeling better….more later…

Well…it was an okay day yesterday and, by plan, I didn’t get anything done…slept okay but with “the week of Me”, I feel pretty crappy this morning…or, I did but the coffee is working…I had dreams last night but didn’t focus on remembering them so I don’t…but, I know it was two nights in a row and that is progress…my glued up coffee mug is making it through a second day but I’m not sure it will make it through the dishwasher…I did have to work on the bike yesterday just to get rid of the squeaks…tried some wheel bearing grease this time and I can’t wait to see if it is better than the wd-40…..I am used to riding without music but the new player is scheduled to be here today and I can’t wait…it’s just inconvenient without it and I am already over playing cd’s in the car…not much to do today…going to take a meandering ride on the bike today and then grill some chicken….nope…might do that tomorrow…have enough leftovers to get through…and then pool…looking forward to getting out of here for a while…more later…

Well…if you were here yesterday, you saw that I am doing a “week of Me” this week leading up to my birthday next week…and that will mean not counting calories, and doing what I want without the normal rules that I use for control…hmmmm…now, you would think that it would be pretty easy to drink as much as I want and eat as much as I want and do whatever I want….nope…just isn’t working yet…had a bowl of chili for lunch and that was it…and, who can drink in the afternoon? But, does that fall under doing what I want? I guess the habits I’ve built over the past few years are stronger than I thought and may be harder to break than I thought…crap…oh, well…I guess I’ll just keep trying…think I’ll do an update every day just to see the progress…

Well…running really late today with the grocery run and having to wait for the deli to open so I could buy some bad food that fits with the ‘week of Me” that started this morning…slept okay last night and had some dreams that I should have gotten down here before I forgot them…darn…they were good ones, too……feel okay this morning and the coffee is working quite well…I fixed my other coffee cup this morning with some new super glue that is supposed to be water resistant but I’m not sure about that…and handling hot liquid with a glued on handle is not the most confidence inspiring thing….so far, so good, though, and I am going to have another cup here in a minute….it was kind of weird not rushing through the store this morning with my normal drive but it was kind of relaxing, too….I did talk to Roger and found out his dog died yesterday…I could tell that hurt some and I feel bad about that…but, he had a good attitude so that is something…not much to do today….going to make chili for lunch and then just do whatever I want the rest of the day…I did get the fridge and kitchen cleaned yesterday so I might vacuum today…but I might not…just going to let the day flow…more later…

Well….have been looking for some political stuff to do today with not much luck so I thought I’d just do this one about the “week of Me” that starts tomorrow. Now, as you know, I have been looking for work for a long time now and it is spirit crushing to continue to do so day in and day out with no responses….and to try to control what I eat to not gain weight along with limiting my cocktail nights just to give my liver a rest periodically….but, this year, I came up with a new concept, kind of based on what K does for her birthday but shorter…”the week of Me” where I eat whatever I want, drink as much as I want, and not look for work…basically only doing what I want to do while keeping the guilt tamped down for not doing what I should. I think it’s necessary once in a while to just stop being so controlling and counting every calorie…or drink, or amount of exercise….so, I declare the next week “the week of Me”, starting tomorrow I will do whatever I want culminating in my birthday next Wednesday…by that time I think I’ll probably be pretty worn out and will need a rest….

Well….it was an okay day yesterday and I was good for the second day in a row so I feel okay today….slept crappy after staying up late to see the US men’s team win it’s first game in the Gold Cup…even with hitting the sack at 11:30, I didn’t really get to sleep until after 1 and then it was up and down all night…oh, well….I did get the bathroom de-spidered and cleaned yesterday along with tearing the couch apart and washing the cushion covers…today is going to be clean the fridge and kitchen day, then dust the whole place tomorrow….have to get ready for the “week of me” leading up to my birthday next week where I will do nothing but what I want for an entire week…and that means eating and drinking whatever I want, too, without any guilt….I do want to try to get the new speed record in, too, but I am waiting for the new Walkman to come so I can use the music to help…not much to do today…fridge and kitchen but that is about it…more later….

Well…it was an okay day yesterday and I got a few things done so that was cool….slept okay and feel okay this morning but there was a lot of tossing and turning so there were not a lot of uninterrupted hours in there….it is kind of cool to sit here right now with it being dark and raining and I love the smell of the rain in the morning…as I said yesterday, I found my sunglasses….and I put a new burner in the grill and used it already….only 14 bucks and that is cheaper than replacing the grill…..I’m not as sore this morning and that is a good thing and I think I’ll try to do the day with no ibuprofen….I do need to get some cleaning done since it looks like no bike ride until later..but, I do need to get the workout in here in a few minutes first…just not too motivated right now…just want to “sit and stare at the rain”….if you know that lyric, you ARE a Joe Walsh fan…not much to do today…back to the normal routine of saying I’m going to clean and then not do it…more later…

Well…when I was picking berries yesterday, I lost my sunglasses somewhere in the patch….after looking for them for a half hour or so, I just gave up and finished my ride. So, today….I go out and take the bike ride and decide I’ll give it one more shot to try to find them….so, I pull up to the patch and there they are, just sitting in the grass where I must have passed them four or five times…I’m still shaking my head at that one…it was cool to find them but I know I looked where I found them yesterday…weird…

Well…it was an okay day yesterday and I did get a few things done…but not enough…I have a bunch of huge spiders in the bathroom and they are going to go today…slept okay last night and feel okay today…I think the coffee is starting to work and I will need that on the bike ride today…I am getting used to not having music on the bike and it is not that bad anymore…I did get a bunch more berries yesterday and I am still splurging on calories with the ice cream since it just tastes good….I am sore today, again, but it is better than yesterday so that is progress…I did get out to see the twins yesterday and that was fun and the mex place has such cheap beer that I should go there all the time…I mean 2 bucks for a 20 oz draft? Even I can afford that…..not much to do today…I may try to repair the grill today since new burners are on sale for 14 bucks at Meijers and the one I looked at this morning looks like it will fit…need to take it apart after the bike ride to make sure….more later…