July 31st

Well…I feel much better today and I will try…that is, try to get a couple of these out today…not a lot to do today but get the bike ride in and then over to take care of C’s house..had a really fun lunch with T yesterday and got a bag full of new books to read,,yay…so that will be on the agenda for today…got a copy of the hot new series “The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo” from her and I will update you what I think of it…not much else for now…but I will have more later…

July 30th

Well…that was a long night out (for me anyway) and I am worn out today…so, this one is going to be short until my brain clears out a little…looking forward to lunch with T today but I think that will be all I’ll do until later….I’m amazed at times at what I can do to myself and still survive it….water really tastes good this morning….more later…

Observations and musings….

Well…the cliff has seemed to have receded somewhat and that is a good thing, I think…there have been some things that I have noticed for a while that I thought I’d share…some of them may even be amusing…first, why is it that there are so many women running these days? When I’m out on the trail, the runners that I see are mostly women but the bikers are mostly men…I know I stopped running because it hurts like crazy and I was always fighting an injury of some sort ranging from achilles tendon swelling to shin splints…I also know that I love the mechanics of the bike; the shifting, coasting, leaning, and sprinting…and all of that without pain…I know, what does this have to do with anything? Well…nothing, really, just an observation…I thought you might like to read something that has no outrage, that shows that I’m not really that pissed all the time..or maybe you don’t care..that’s okay, too…

Oh….the attack bunnies are out again…I think they are trying to distract me; have me fall off the bike so they can then swarm over me and do who knows what….it almost worked today…they’ve gotten smarter and have started to run 3 or more at a time so I can barely miss them…I almost want to stay home since the danger is so great….see….made you smile for a change…

One last thing…saw two Segways out on the trail today….kind of a weirdness to me but maybe not to you…

Don’t shop at Target….

Well…with the recent supreme court ruling that corporations can freely contribute to political campaigns, some of them have started to do just that…and with predictable results; they are donating to predominately repub candidates who they can rely on to favor businesses over the people. Target is one of those companies and I will not have profits that I have helped them make go to political causes and politicians who want to go back to the days of Bush..to the days when de-regulation of business led to the biggest meltdown since the great depression. We progressives need to become more aware of what is going on in our country and use both our political and economic power to make sure we don’t go backward, to make sure that the small steps in leveling the playing field that have happened in the last two years are not lost. So…I will never set foot in Target again and I hope that some of the rest of us will do the same….after all, profit and power is all they understand and it is up to us to take some of that profit and power away…

July 29th

Well…out to Ada again yesterday..won the night in pool and feel like crap today..oh, well…I knew that was going to happen so I’ll live with it…not too much to do today and that is probably good…just not too motivated to even do this right now but I know it will get better as the day goes on…more later…

Phyllis Schlafly is still in the 50′s…..

This is a placeholder until I get done working out…I have to comment on some statements that Phyllis Schlafly made this weekend campaigning for a repub here in Michigan.

Well…I’m back…decided to get a bike ride in, too, before I came back to this. I’m not going to bury the lead this time….just going to give you Sclafly’s (who is the head of the anti-feminist Eagle Forum) quotes at a fundraiser for republican Rocky Raczkowski who is running for congress from Michigan. She started out by saying “obviously the blacks voted for Obama…but, do you all know what group was the second biggest? Unmarried women, 70% of unmarried women voted for Obama, and this is because when you kick your husband out, you’ve got to have big brother government to be your provider.”

I am just stunned by these comments; that this kind of attitude is still in the mainstream of the republican party and is a harbinger of what you will see if you vote these troglodytes into office. Oh, ole Rocky did the republican dance of condemning the comments but that is just diving for cover when one of their own speaks what is really in their minds. That whole party is still mired in the 50′s when Phyllis was flitting from country club to country club; when you could have one income families make enough money that they could have a good life…but the repubs and their cronies made sure that ended.

Phyllis, I can give you many good reasons why unmarried women voted for Obama that you can’t understand…they are tired of the invisible discrimination that goes on in the good old boy networks that still dominate American business life..they are tired of having the choices in their lives limited by a repub party dominated by men…they are tired of being second class citizens that the Christian Taliban would have stay home barefoot and pregnant….to me, that shows a lack of respect for more than 50% of our population; a resource that we need to make this country a better place…my life is better for the strong women that have been in it (that includes my daughter and, of course, G, K, and T) and to dismiss them as needing to be dependent on anyone is a slap in the face that is all too common coming from the repubs…geez….

July 28th

Well…up at 5:30 this morning but no booze last night…don’t feel a whole lot better but I hope that will change as the day goes on. Need to go grocery shopping today since I am getting really tired of chicken all the time..but the fresh veggies form C have been a welcome change. Still not much closer to the cliff today so far but you never know…it will be nice to get the hell out of here for a while today to go out to shoot pool…more later….

July 27th part two…

Well…it has not been the easiest of days…I did get the car cleaned but it was so much effort to do anything today that I am exhausted…so this will probably be the last post today…doing this usually makes me feel better but it has seemed like work today and any writer will tell you that when that happens, you need to just walk away for a while…at least a couple of hours anyway. It seems like the cliff edge is coming closer again but I’m not sure…it will probably be clearer tomorrow…

Whew…

Well…it’s later in the day and reason has substituted for pain….so I’m glad I’ve waited this long to come back today, or I would have had to delete any post that I would have written. It’s been a tough couple of days emotionally for me but I don’t want to get into that as yet…I will later, but it gets back to the change thing that I struggle with all the time and how it relates to friendship. I see mine dying all the time and I really don’t know what to do about it…I usually attribute it to the changes that come with differing stages of life; stages that I’ve already gone through but is that it? That’s the problem, I don’t know. I also don’t know if I have the energy or desire to try to construct new ones…just to have them die and end up back here thinking about it again.

I do know one thing…that I have depended on these relationships too much; have given them more value than I should have; even defined myself by them…but that is just me..basically all or nothing when it comes to everything…you get a huge high when it is working but I don’t know if the inevitable low and pain is worth it….more later….

Oh…I would like to claim that first line as my own…but, it is borrowed from the song “Live My Life Again” by Jim Fox…

July 27th

Well…did go out with G last night but again, it had the feel of an ending…like we were just going through the motions because we’re supposed to not because we want to….hmmm….not much to do today…might go out and hit a bucket of balls for something to do. Or, I was going to clean up the car since it hasn’t been washed in a couple of months….and the windows are starting to get that film on them that I hate…at this point, I don’t really know…more later…