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July 4th

Well…I am damn tired of all the health crap you have to go through when you get old…I’m tired of the tests, biopsies, and ultrasounds and just want to live what’s left of my life…and I’m tired of busting my ass to stay healthy every day when it just doesn’t mean anything…but, I’ll be on the bike in a half hour to get the rides in before the rain comes in…and yes, it’s not going to rain even though there is a huge blob over in Wisconsin heading this way…man, I feel old…didn’t eat much yesterday and I’m finding it harder and harder to even try to eat when I can’t taste anything anymore…even coffee and that sucks…the air quality is poor again today and I’ll be coughing again after the rides…the rain is supposed to be here in three hours so that give me time to get the rides in before that…have a lot to do today to just keep this place a little presentable so I may skip the beach and get my ass in gear and clean…I’m sore and tired and old and depressed…and I have 13 minutes before I have to get on the bike…more later…

Have the ultrasound scheduled…

Well…I finally got the liver ultrasound scheduled but it is so damn early…I have to be there at 6:45am on the 9th and the only corewell facility that does it out here is in Grand Haven…only 13 miles from here but still, they should have a place here in Muskegon…oh, well…didn’t get a lot done today but the rides and going to the beach…the water is still really nice and I got a half hour swim in…but it’s supposed to get into the mid 90′s Sat but I won’t be at the beach any weekends…just too dam busy…I may go out for a bit tomorrow if I can get out there early before the crowds…there are air quality alerts on til Sunday and I can feel it in my lungs…have been coughing a bunch today and I know part of it is allergies…okay, want to get a little more reading in…

July 3rd

Well…I am so damn tired this morning and I need to get on the bike in 16 minutes but I sure don’t want to…need to schedule the liver ultrasound today on mychart and I really think it is going to be something serious like liver cancer that my mother died from…forgot to put sunscreen on for the 2nd ride yesterday and I got pretty scorched after just a little over an hour in the sun…skipped the beach yesterday since I didn’t have the energy to go out there and I’m not sure about today…it hasn’t been relaxing going out there lately and it should be…not sure what I’m going to eat today but I really don’t care either…hey, can you tell I’m depressed? Living in this 72 year body is getting to be too much work…all I want to do is lie on the couch and read all day but you know I won’t do that….after all, I’ve been on the bike for 630 days straight and that is going to end next May when I do the trip to Italy with my daughter…was shooting for 1,000 days in a row but does that matter? Not to anyone but me…not much to do today…need to assemble the potato salad this morning but I really don’t feel like eating at all…okay, this is depressing…so I’m going to stop and have one more cup of coffee and get on the bike….more later…

A tiring day…

Well…damn, I am getting so tired of this body giving up on me…got a call about the blood work I had done yesterday and I have elevated billirubin levels and they want me to go in next week for a liver ultrasound…I am so damn tired of doctors appointments that I may just say no and just live out what little life I have left…if I have to give up the few cocktails I have every week, I’m going to scream…it could be caused by a lot of things like dehydration or gallstones and I know I have both of those…but it still sucks because it they find something, there will be more doctor appointments and more medicine, and more pain in the ass…and I don’t like that one bit…crap…

July 2nd

Well…no one should be up at 4:36…it’s just wrong and it is going to set me up for a low energy day that I’m feeling right now…slept okay but this damn humidity is going to kill me…there just is no relief at all and it’s wearing me out…need to get on the bike in less than 15 minutes and I don’t know if I can do it…the coffee hasn’t had time to work and every damn keystroke is too much effort…had an okay day yesterday but did way too much work and don’t want to repeat that today…but I do need to hit the library after the grocery run and a stop at Menards and I think I’m going to do a DD stop just for the heck of it…the results of the latest blood draw are on mychart but I think I’m going to follow my daughter’s advice and not look at it until my doctor calls me…it’s going to be hot and humid for the next week and I’m going to shift into survival mode to get through it…not much to do today…and that is a lie since I am going to be running all morning and I may hit the beach again…but the couch has a gravitational pull right now that is going to be hard to resist…need to get going…more later…

A nice surprise…

Well…got a call from my doctor’s office today and what they removed from my forehead was NOT a melanoma…how it got from melanoma on mychart to the good news of no cancer I don’t know…and the kicker was no more treatment needed…so that was  a nice surprise and makes me feel better about my health that I haven’t had two kinds of cancer in two years…yay! It was kind of  a busy day with getting out on the bike for two rides before I could break the fast I was on for the blood draw…my legs gave up on the 2nd ride and I know it was from no food for 14 hours and I’ve been struggling to make up for that the rest of the day…had another good phlebotomist at the lab and she hit it with one poke, no bruising, so no big deal..okay, a little bruise bit it’s the size of a rice grain and I’ll take that anytime…when I got back from the lab, I vacuumed and washed the car and I used the car wash I bought and the new mitt…used way too much soap and I’ll fix that next time…and then I went out to the beach for a swim, getting back here about 12:45 then I did the laundry and cooked the ingredients for another batch of potato salad…after that, all I did was read and I’m going back to that right now..

July 1st

Well…another month starts and more health bullshit with needing to go out and have blood drawn after the rides this morning…I think they are looking for vitamin deficiencies and it’s possible I have some with how I eat…last ate at 5pm yesterday so I’ll hit the 12 hours of fasting needed for these tests…feel a lot better than I did yesterday and the black and blue left big toe doesn’t really hurt anymore…still can’t figure out what I stubbed it on and I can’t remember a worse one since I moved out here…have a lot to get done today with going straight into cleaning the car to get the sand out of the interior and then washing it since it is really dusty out here when it never rains…and it’s not supposed to rain til Sunday…I am not looking forward to the 4th of July and and the war zone that this place turns into…and I still can’t figure out how people in these run down houses can afford the thousands of dollars they spend on fireworks every year…think I’ll be heading to the library tomorrow since I’m on the last book that I should have finished today…going to try to get to the beach after I clean the car up but I do need to load up on food for lunch so avoid feeling like I did yesterday…and it will be 17 hours of not eating anything…have a half hour before I get on the bike at 6:30 so I think I’ll pour another cup of coffee and get a post out on Mastodon…more later…

A no energy day…

Well…damn today was probably one of the lowest energy days I’ve had in quite a while…only did two rides an then some yard work and I was so exhausted that I even skipped the weight work today…and you know it’s probably from not eating enough but I can fix that since I’m having blood drawn tomorrow for them to check to see if I have any vitamin deficiencies and need to fast for 12 hours before I get that done…so no cocktails tonight, either but I can use a night off…ha, I’m laughing again when the forecast says rain later tonight and that’s not going to happen and there is none in the forecast until Sunday so I guess I can wash the car tomorrow and maybe go to the beach since I skipped that today, too…I am getting tired of the heat and humidity out here but it looks like we’ll be in it for most of July and then we have wonderful August that will be even worse…oh, well…tv time…

June 30th

Well…I’m feeling every damn minute of my age this morning and I don’t like it one bit…and my left big toe hurts like I bashed it last night and I don’t remember doing that…crap…it’s already 6:30 and I am so far from getting going that I don’t think I can see it from here…didn’t get anything done yesterday other than cooking the Masala and this heat is just wearing me out…it’s not bad right now but it’s going to be in the high 80′s again with no rain so I won’t be mowing my lawn anytime soon…I really should clean this joint up but I’m pondering going to the beach…and I need to have blood drawn to see if I have a vitamin deficiency tomorrow…man, it’s a lot of work getting old…have started to think about about my mortality with the cancer diagnosis last week and that sucks…I may not make it to 80…oh, well…need to get moving soon but that seems like a lot of work right now….damn, I’m feeling old…more later…

Two kinds of cancer in two years…

Well…after the diagnosis of melanoma from the freckle I had removed last week, it dawned on me that I’ve had two different kinds of cancer in two years…now the prostate cancer was removed on July 27, 2023 and less than two years later melanoma…and I’m not sure how to think about that…I need to follow up with my doctor to see if more treatment is necessary…I would have thought they would have called me when the diagnosis hit the charts and said melanoma…and they took a look at the freckle in the office and said it didn’t look like a melanoma but they would remove it if I wanted them to…so I’m glad I had them do it since getting at melanoma early is the key to survival…so, should I feel fortunate or concerned? Not sure yet but I really don’t see this killing me…yet…