I’m exhausted and I don’t know why…

Well…damn, I am exhausted and I can’t figure out why…I mean I’ve been good for almost a month now with no cocktails and I’ve been sleeping okay, and I only did three doors today…I know it took me three hours but I haven’t been this worn out since I started being good…I know I only had some beef stir fry that was mostly veggies for lunch yesterday which was about 500 calories or so and then just a boneless skinless chicken breast for dinner with nothing else other than a glass of milk and that is about 300 cals so maybe it’s just from not eating enough? I didn’t really do anything yesterday so I didn’t need to eat much so 800 calories should have been enough…yeah, I know…a normal person is supposed to take in at least 2K calories a day but how do you eat that much? I’ve never been able to…okay, going to stop bitching about it…you know I have an eating disorder and it’s the only way I don’t weigh 300 pounds…hmmm…I did get a bike ride in this morning so maybe that is it? I’m tired of thinking about it but I’m still only going to have another chicken breast and some steamed broccoli for dinner…all I know is that I’m damn tired…and this is the last one for my record breaking month….124 of these? That’s an average of 4 a day and I feel pretty good about that…no more later…unless I read something that I need to talk about…

Have to adjust my schedule…

Well…after starting on the doors this morning and spending 3 hours working on them, I am going to have to adjust my schedule since there is no way I’m going to get them ready for paint in three days…only got three sanded and filled in three hours and, with 11 to do, that makes at least the rest of the week for sanding and filling and I won’t get to painting until this weekend or next week…and my hands are right back where they were with stiffness and pain and I split my left thumb open…okay, nope…it’s a damn splinter from working on the doors and it hurts like crazy….and my right thumb is about done from sanding and it’s going to hurt for the rest of the week if I keep going….but, I have to so there is no if about it…just have to resign myself to being in pain for the next two weeks…okay, just pulled a half inch splinter out of my thumb that went straight in so you could only see a tiny part of the end of it but I was finally able to get hold of it with my tweezers and I was really surprised when it just kept coming out as I pulled on it…at least that’s one less pain to deal with…need to hit it with neosporin…

Is this enough to arrest him?

Well..after his Nazi rally over the weekend where the idiot trump threatened the prosecutors across the country who are investigating him and then following it up with a written admission that he was behind the January 6th attacks and trying to overturn the election…my only question is: Isn’t this enough to arrest him? I mean, with his admissions and all of the evidence that show his criminal behaviors, why the hell isn’t he sitting in a jail cell right now? If you or I threatened a DA who was investigating us, you can bet your ass we’d been in the klink awaiting trial so why is Garland letting him run free to try to incite riots if he is indicted? I think it’s bullshit that there is any political calculation here…there are crimes that idiot boy needs to be held responsible for and politics has nothing to do with it…did they think of the political considerations when they arrested John Gotti or any other criminal? Garland is destroying the rule of law in this country by letting trump dare the justice department to come after him while he sits on his hands and nothing happens…and it all traces back to him…if he doesn’t have the guts to go after idiot boy, then he should resign and let someone take over who will uphold the law no matter who the lawbreaker is…and it needs to happen now…it’s already been over a year since January 6th 2020 and that’s too long to let these crimes fester in the body politic…geez…

January 31st

Well…here we go into the last day of the month and I am hoping that the winter ends after the next month so I can get back outside on the bike…but, I’ll have to have the kitchen done before then so I need to get my butt in gear to have that happen…slept okay last night but had dreams about horse racing for the second time in a week and that is strange since I’ve never been to one and have never bet on a horse race…I did sleep okay and feel good with getting to a full month of no cocktails other than the one night out but I’m starting to eat more and need to have more discipline if I’m going to maintain or lose weight this winter….didn’t do a thing yesterday and my hands are thanking me for it…they are much less stiff and most of the pain is gone and the cut on my right index finger is almost healed but I am going to start abusing them this morning with getting started on the cabinet doors after I get on the bike…not sure how long they are going to take but I know I have 11 of them and a filler plate to sand fill and paint and I need to work out how to do that efficiently since I want to do all the insides at one time and all of the faces at one time to save money on roller covers since I am going to roll the flat parts for the finish…if I work my butt off, I may be able to get all of the first sanding and filling done today and then on to the finish sanding tomorrow with painting starting Wed…if I can do that schedule, I can start hanging doors Friday and have them done over the weekend…I hope that I’ve had enough curing time for the shelves in the cupboards so I can start putting things back into them but I need to get the wall patch sanded first so I can clean up the dust that will go everywhere…at least with the doors on, the dust will stay outside the cabinets and make the cleanup easier….more later…

Ordered the kitchen blinds…

Well…haven’t done much today but sand some drips off the bottom of the cabinet that the range hood is going to mount to so it will be level…and then I painted the places I sanded so there will be good coverage under the hood…not the bare grease soaked boards that were there before I cleaned and painted it….and I ordered the last blind for the single kitchen window and that will be here next week just in time to hang it to complete the kitchen…should have the doors for the cabinets done and hung by then and will be working on the baseboards, walls, and ceiling…will probably do the door frames after everything else but I do need to sand the sides of them so I won’t mess up the grey paint on the walls…and I found out that I can get the range hood cheaper in store at depot than I can get it on Amazon so I can just go in and buy one when I’m ready for it…and that should be by the end of next week and I didn’t fill the mounting holes from the last one since it was a Broan like the black one I’m getting so I hope I just have to put screws in and hang it….but now, I’m done for the day and am going to watch football for a while and then I have the new Boba Fett Star Wars series out on plex to watch for the night…

Made some beef stir fry…

Well…it looks like I went overboard buying protein this week with getting almost 5 pounds of boneless skinless chicken along with 5 pounds of seasoned ranch steak along with a pound roll of breakfast sausage…and the weird thing is that the beef was cheaper than the chicken…and I bought that to make some beef/broccoli stir fry but I added a bag of stir fry veggies to it since I like lots of veggies in my stir fry…I was a little concerned that the seasonings and tenderizer in the beef wouldn’t go with the stir fry sauce I bought but it came out great… and I put 2 1/2 pounds in the freezer and will do the same with the 5 chicken breasts I have left over from cooking three of them Thursday….oh, and I bought some big pork ribs that were 40% off at Meijers since they were at their sell by date…I am going to try some of the seasoned ranch steaks tomorrow to see how they taste by themselves…the sauce they are in is pretty spicy and I like it…they might make a good sandwich and I may try that….it’s weird to have too much protein but it was nice to get the beef at 1.79 a pound…

A good idea…

Well…as you know, I have been abusing my hands for the past few weeks as I work on my kitchen and they are covered with cuts and bruises along with the damage to my right thumb that hurts constantly now…but, I took the day off working on the house yesterday and purposely tried to do the littlest amount I could do with my hands…and, other than my guilt from not working, it appears that it was a good idea…the nasty cut on my right index finger that has felt like a supercharged paper cut is starting to heal and it doesn’t hurt much to do this when it was so damn painful Friday that I almost stopped doing these…and the overall stiffness has improved, too, and I can move them much easier today and I hope taking today off will continue to help them improve….I have to remember that I’m not young anymore and I can’t just keep abusing my body like I could when I was younger…and I really don’t have a schedule like I had when I was younger, either…back then I had to juggle work, school, and home maintenance but now I just have this place to work on and I can look forward to taking a couple of weeks off after I finish the kitchen in a few weeks….that doesn’t help with the guilt of taking time off but I’m working on that….

The ERA has been ratified…

Well…not sure what is going on but I’ve only read one article on what I think is a big damn deal…this week, the Equal rights Amendment to the Constitution was deemed to be ratified by the Office of Legal Counsel of the department of justice which makes it the 28th amendment to the constitution….and the decades of trying to enshrine the rights of women to be equal to those of men has finally been started by this adoption…it has been a long and hard fight that has been pressed by generations of women across this country and has been fought at every step by white men who think that women are things to be owned and controlled and inherently have no rights other than those given to them by these men….and this crap goes on here in 2022 with laws written by men that limit the control that women have over their own bodies and that are exploding in repub controlled states across the country….and when the repubs take over states that have ratified the amendment, the first thing they do is try to de-ratify it…just like they did to the 14th and 15th amendments that were ratified just after the Civil war and that the supreme court has rejected time after time…imagine that, this same party has not grown past the 1870′s where they objected to the 14th amendment that grants equal protection under the law…and the repubs didn’t want equality then and they sure don’t want women to be equal to them now. I will be interested to see how the repubs fight now to keep this amendment from being implemented…I’m sure it will go all the way to the supreme court and with the right wing assholes that sit on the court and ignore precedent in their ongoing efforts to push their right wing ideology, it is still going to be a hard fight since these idiots don’t think that anyone should have rights except repubs…geez…

January 30th

Well…it was a 5:44 morning this morning and I just laid in bed enjoying that comfortable place between being asleep and awake until around 6:30 and that was cool….slept quite well last night and feel pretty good this morning but the lock on my garage door was frozen when I went out to get the paper…luckily, a little shot of wd thawed it and I didn’t have to get my propane torch out to melt it like I did a few weeks ago….I probably should do the car locks, too since I haven’t done them yet this winter and they are feeling a little stiff…and I should do all the door hinges, too, since they seem stiff and squeaked a little today…I did get a  new set of Michelin wiper blades last week but the ones on the car are still okay and I may just wait til spring to put them on…I did take the day off working on the house yesterday to rest my hands and it seems to have helped some but I still feel guilty about doing it with Sunday being my normal day off…it is cool to know I’m not getting on the bike today and can just ease into the day with lots of coffee and the 24 hours of Daytona on in the background….I do need to write about 700 bucks in bills today and that stings a little but that’s part of owning a house and I’ve got the cash so no big deal….I think I’m going to order the blinds and range hood for the kitchen today so I will have them here when I get all the painting done…and I really do want to get the newspaper off the window so I can see out of the one over the sink….not much to do today…just going to clean up the dining room some and get my tools organized for the final push in the kitchen…hoping to have that done in the next two weeks but I think the Olympics are going to interfere with that a little….more later…

A new record…

Well…as you can see, I have been writing a bunch more than has been normal over the years and this month I’ve made a new record for the number of posts in a month with this one being number 115 and I don’t think I’ve ever gotten to 100 before….but, I do feel a lot of it is cheating with so many posts on progress with the house that I started this month…and I wonder if not having cocktails all month has something to do with it? I do seem to have the desire to write more when I’m feeling better and my brain seems to work better, too…I do need to do more of these on politics and other relevant topics and I may even do that today….that would make 5 for the day and that is just so unusual when my normal daily output used to be two a day…but I am going to write when I feel like it..it feels good to not have to force it and to have something to choose from when I come here…and there are two more days in the month so I could get to 120 for before it’s done….and that is just too weird….in a good way…