Well…running really, really late today with getting out on the bike before 7:30 and now just sitting back down here…I think I slept okay but don’t feel like it today…just darn worn out and I can’t figure it out…but, I’m not sore so I guess that’s something…didn’t do a second ride yesterday and that makes me feel a little guilty so I will get out for another one today before the napcar race is on…I have started to notice that my legs are getting definition from the almost 1k miles I’ve ridden since I moved out here and I think I’ve lost a little weight, too, so I guess that’s cool…I am still pretty depressed and I think part of it is that I have so much work to do around here and I’m not making much progress…I did finally get the light shut off downstairs and got the last of the plants planted so I need to get rid of the cups that had seeds that didn’t come up in them today and take the light down and pack it back up…not sure how much else I’ll get done today since I have been trying to take Sundays off and not feel guilty about it…and I haven’t been too successful with that…more later….

Well…hmmm…I guess that taking things with less urgency isn’t working today….I did get out on the bike before 8 and got a ride in before F1 qualifying…after that, I got the rest of the plants in the garden, got weed killer on the lawn where there were tree seeds that had sprouted all over it, and than had lunch and I am now thinking about getting the second ride in for the day…so, taking it easy is not working at all…but, I am going to try by watching Indy qualifying in a half hour or so….I need some rest…

Well…running late this morning with trying to not feel any urgency about the day and just letting it happen instead of forcing it…yeah, I know that sounds weird but I seem to be forcing everything lately and running when I don’t need to…you know, I am beginning to get cautiously optimistic about the noise here with having a Friday night where it was tolerable and I had all the windows open here…and they still are and it is quiet here at 7:38 in the morning…I did get out to the new bar that just opened down the street yesterday for a couple and it was a little strange being out and sitting there and sipping a beer…might get used to it after a while but is going to take some time….only did a ride and a half on the bike yesterday and I am trying to not feel bad about that…they were painting the railings out at the beach yesterday and I feel a little guilty that I’m retired and not helping the rest of the oldsters that were doing it…I mean, I could tell most of these folks didn’t do sanding and painting much since they stood there and looked at it more than working but they were doing something and I wasn’t and that made me feel bad….but, I’m not even working on my own house much so it’s hard to justify working on other stuff….not much to do today…I am going to just sit here and have coffee while I wait for F1 qualifying at 9…or maybe I should get off my butt and get a ride in before? Damn, more urgency…what to do?

Well…didn’t get up til after 6:30 this morning even with waking up a little before 6….can’t figure out why I’ve been so darn tired lately and I feel the same today…just worn out and that means I haven’t been getting much done around here and that feeds back into feeling depressed that makes me even more tired…okay, doing 30 miles a day on the bike probably has something to do with it…but, I did ride all the way out to the state park yesterday and that is a 16 mile round trip…the first time I tried it a few weeks ago, I felt like I wasn’t going to make it back without a rest but yesterday it was pretty easy so I guess I’m finally getting back into shape…but, I was suffering with pain by the time I got back here and my right elbow still hurts this morning from it so I think I’m going to try some ibuprofen before I get out today….I do have some errands to run this morning since I need more sunscreen so I have to hit the dollar store and Meijers to get my Mega tickets since the jackpot is over 500 mil…and I should hit depot to get some topsoil so I can start seeding the yard where I killed the weeds…and more potting soil so I can put the rest of the veggies in the garden…I did get some peppers to come up downstairs and should get them in the ground in the next couple of days so I can turn the light off….not much to do today…just the errands and two rides again today…I did check the temp of lake Michigan the other day and it looks like about another three weeks before I can swim…it’s still going to be cold but I want to give it a try soon….more later…

Well…this sucks a bit….I should be really happy sitting on my front porch with a coffee, the windows open, and the Doobies playing on the turntable and no other noise…but the depression came back last night and smacked me really hard this morning and I don’t know why…yeah, I know, there doesn’t have to be a trigger reason…it would be so much easier if there were…then I could just fix it and move on…I’m sure part of it is that I’m not making progress on the house after being here for almost 3 months…still no paint or repair on the stuff that needs it before I can paint…and windows still need to be cleaned and I need to cook….and the outside of the house needs to be cleaned, and I need to start reseeding the lawn…you get the picture…but, all I want to do is sit here….cripes, this sucks….

Well…running a little late this morning with not getting out of bed until 6:30…again…and I wonder what the heck is going on….but, I’ll take it if I can sleep more than 5 hours a night…still feel pretty worn out and will need the coffee if I’m going to get out on the bike before 8….one of these days I’m going to take a day off and just lie around here and not feel bad that I’m not making any progress on the house…but, not today…I need to cook and clean some to have food for the rest of the week…have some boneless skinless chicken to cook today so I’ll have leftovers to make some chicken burritos for the weekend….or some wraps, not sure which yet….I did get some beans and more tomato plants in the garden yesterday and it appears that most of them are going to survive but I’m not sure how they are going to cope with the crappy soil that I didn’t do enough to prepare…..next year I’m going to dig down about a foot or so and replace all the sand with some garden soil…if they don’t grow…not much to do today….need to get out on the bike after reading some news…and I need to look at HF’s website to see if I can find a puller to get the pedal arms off the old bike and then look for the special tool that is needed to get the crankset out….really need to get at the old bike and get it rebuilt…oh, and I did check the temp of Lake Michigan yesterday and it feels like about another month before I can go swimming…more later….

Well…don’t want to jinx it but I really do have to say it has been quiet up here for two days now after they cited the loud house for ignoring the law…and I sit here on my new couch right now listening to birds instead of the bang, boom, thump that had polluted the entire neighborhood…but, I am not so naive that I think that it will continue or that anyone up here has any courtesy for their neighbors…maybe enforcement of the law will change that behavior? I’m pretty sure they were surprised when the cops showed up at their place 4 times…and I will take even small victories…it was so nice working on planting more in the garden today in peace but I think I’m still feeling ptsd from having to call the dispatch all the time….and having to hear that crap all day long….but, right now, I have my porch windows open with a nice breeze blowing through here and need to just enjoy what is now versus what might happen….I just wonder why no one else appreciates the quiet? Or did anything about it before me? Oh, well….baby steps…

Well….running about on time for the new normal for me and being here at 6:45 is not too bad…and that’s even without any coffee….slept okay last night but I am a little sore today for some reason…I did do a ride and a  half yesterday into some pretty stiff wind but this is back pain that I noticed yesterday afternoon….oh, well….I did go after that damn animal that is still digging under my sidewalk yesterday using some bleach and ammonia to create poison gas down in the hole and then covered it with one of the covers from the totes I used to move to make sure the gas stayed in the hole…going to fill it again today and see I got him or not….really hate to do that but it’s undermining my sidewalk and I guess it’s better than any other way….it’s finally warm enough to go out on the bike right now if I want but I think I’ll have lots more coffee first…will still get out before 8 so I’ll get both rides in early and then have the afternoon to work around here…and I want to make some potato salad to use up the eggs that I have left…I still have 8 more tomato plants to put out as I wait for the peppers to get big enough to transplant and it looks like the ones I put out last weekend are going to survive…I hope, none of them have died yet and that usually happens in the first couple of days…not much to do today…just the rides and I may start cleaning the siding on the house along with cleaning the rest of the windows so I can open them with it being warm now….more later….

Well…running a little early today with getting out of bed before 6 and only sleeping so so but a little better than normal so I’ll take it….and I’m not too sore even with getting a ride and a half in yesterday…the half ride was late in the day to go out and see if the car show this week was better…and it was…got to talk to a bunch of folks and there were at least 20 cars there…and even a  Miata with a ford v-8 in it that was kind of cool…and a 62 Falcon Sprint 2 door with a 260 and a 4 speed that was really nice….and an assortment of other muscle cars….had so much fun that I rode back home and got my Miata and went back…got to talk to the owner of the distillery who put the show on and some other folks who grew up in Muskegon….one guy had a gorgeous Porsche 356 replica that was probably better than an original….and it was quiet when I got back here and stayed quiet all night…so, I think the call I made to the cops yesterday afternoon got the job done…I think they must have fined the idiots who were loud all weekend…this was the 4th call about these morons and I was able to open my windows yesterday without the incessant boom boom boom that came from their house….now, I’m sure this is not the end of the war but it was good to win one battle for a change…and I’m going to keep it up until it’s quiet for good….not much to do today…going to do the grocery run this morning and then get on the bike for an early ride so I can get two in before Man U plays at 3…it is going to be 80 Thursday and I may just take the car out to the beach and sit on the sand for a while and get a little color…put the sticker on the car so I can park for free and the beach is right in front of the parking so I only have to walk about 10 feet to be on the sand…can’t go swimming yet but I can test the water and see how cold it is….more later….

Well…sitting here on my new couch with the new couch smell wafting through the house and it’s pretty cool…it’s a little bit strange have a couch that doesn’t sag or have cushions that I constantly have to rearrange to be able to sit on it and that is nice…it is firmer than the old couch and sits a little higher but that is okay…I had gotten used to the old one and it’s gradual sagging over the 15 years or so since I bought it and had been making allowances for that…with looking at it today, it was time to replace it and change it into a porch couch that I can use when it gets warmer…the cloth on it was getting pretty frayed and faded and and there were even a couple of spots that had almost worn through on the cushions…and the new one is a cool dark grey with textured cloth that will go well with the grey walls when I paint and goes well with the rug my daughter bought me, too….think I may even try to take a nap on it right now….