Well…it was an okay day yesterday but busy…which I don’t really like too much…slept okay but feel crappy again today and I think I’ll be happy when this “week of Me” is over tomorrow…just too darn hard on me…I did get the new walkman yesterday but it didn’t work so I need to send it back in the next couple of days…and I went out and bought a new one…only 20 bucks more that the used one and the new one works and doesn’t have any scratches…and it sounds quite a bit better than than the old so that is cool…it will be nice to have music on the ride again as it is to have it in the car again….not much to do today…I do have a political one for later but that will come after the workout and bike ride…more later….

Well…it was a total veg day yesterday other than the new bike record and I don’t feel bad about that…okay, a little but I am fighting it..slept okay and got up early today so I am running on time as I wait for the storms to come….it is pretty dark in here even with the lights on and I can hear the rumbling coming in from the west…hope it’s not a dud as the last few have been….and that will push me back on the bike ride for today until the aft but that’s okay…I do need to work out first even though it’s the “week of Me”…that’s not working out that well…I think I’m going to give up on that except for the cocktails…the eating part is just not working and there is just not anything that I want to do out of the ordinary right now….not much to do today…just going to wing it today and I may take the day off the bike to rest the legs since they do hurt today and I am going to try to break the record again on Wed…more later…

Well…have been prepping a couple of weeks to try to break my time record of 56:42 for 15 miles on the bike and today I felt pretty good so I did a simulated run and broke the record…this was supposed to happen Wednesday…so the 55:10 I did today has given me some incentive and hope that I may have to set the next goal at 50 flat since I left a lot out on the trail today and the wind was blowing…so, it looks like another try Wed if the weather looks good and I can drink enough coffee….

Well…it was an okay day yesterday and I made a little cash so that was cool…slept okay last night, too, but no dreams to speak of and that is disappointing…didn’t get anything done but the bike ride and some cooking and I don’t feel guilty about it….have been having problems with the rear brakes on the bike and I am looking forward to taking it out today to see if I fixed it…if not, I will have to switch the pads front to back again…just can’t take the little squeal they make after I fixed all of the other noises the thing was making…still waiting for my new mp-3 player to come and I hope it gets here soon…Sundays are supposed to be Pink Floyd days and I miss that…not much to do today…just the bike ride and then hang out…nope, nothing else…more later…

Well…into the third day of “the week of Me” and have found a few things I find interesting…you might not, but it is interesting to me. First, it has been quite easy to break the rules on my cocktail times…well…if starting a half hour earlier is really breaking the rules…but the rest of it has been about the same and I’m not sure why…the eating thing has been much tougher to change…I still only have so much capacity in my stomach and once I have one of my two meals a day, I am just not hungry for hours and food has no appeal…now I’m beginning to wonder if the rules were just observations and not something that I really had to formulate to maintain my weight. I do know one thing, it is a lot more work not doing my routines…I have to think to try to break the ingrained rules and habits and that takes time that I usually just use to think….kind of weird when you think of it….just like changing the route on the bike makes me have to think what I’m doing instead of just zoning out like I normally do….so, this far I haven’t been too successful in letting the rules go…going to have to think about why….

Well…it was an okay day yesterday and I won at pool so that was cool…but, it was a long night last night and “the week of Me” is starting to wear on me some…I’ll update that later in the day….had a nice drive out and back to pool and I put the top down this morning going out for groceries since the morning is so nice…going to make for a nice bike ride in a few minutes but I am a little chagrined that my new music player is not here yet…yesterday was the first day it could have arrived and I think it should have…oh, well…I’m not really sore today so the ride is going to be a fast one…not sure if it’s a record day or not but the wind is not blowing so it could be…don’t have enough coffee, though, and I think I’ll plan it for later in the week…not much to do today…going to grill some chicken and make some potato salad but that is about it….going to be a veg day unless I start feeling better….more later…

Well…it was an okay day yesterday and, by plan, I didn’t get anything done…slept okay but with “the week of Me”, I feel pretty crappy this morning…or, I did but the coffee is working…I had dreams last night but didn’t focus on remembering them so I don’t…but, I know it was two nights in a row and that is progress…my glued up coffee mug is making it through a second day but I’m not sure it will make it through the dishwasher…I did have to work on the bike yesterday just to get rid of the squeaks…tried some wheel bearing grease this time and I can’t wait to see if it is better than the wd-40…..I am used to riding without music but the new player is scheduled to be here today and I can’t wait…it’s just inconvenient without it and I am already over playing cd’s in the car…not much to do today…going to take a meandering ride on the bike today and then grill some chicken….nope…might do that tomorrow…have enough leftovers to get through…and then pool…looking forward to getting out of here for a while…more later…

Well…if you were here yesterday, you saw that I am doing a “week of Me” this week leading up to my birthday next week…and that will mean not counting calories, and doing what I want without the normal rules that I use for control…hmmmm…now, you would think that it would be pretty easy to drink as much as I want and eat as much as I want and do whatever I want….nope…just isn’t working yet…had a bowl of chili for lunch and that was it…and, who can drink in the afternoon? But, does that fall under doing what I want? I guess the habits I’ve built over the past few years are stronger than I thought and may be harder to break than I thought…crap…oh, well…I guess I’ll just keep trying…think I’ll do an update every day just to see the progress…

Well…running really late today with the grocery run and having to wait for the deli to open so I could buy some bad food that fits with the ‘week of Me” that started this morning…slept okay last night and had some dreams that I should have gotten down here before I forgot them…darn…they were good ones, too……feel okay this morning and the coffee is working quite well…I fixed my other coffee cup this morning with some new super glue that is supposed to be water resistant but I’m not sure about that…and handling hot liquid with a glued on handle is not the most confidence inspiring thing….so far, so good, though, and I am going to have another cup here in a minute….it was kind of weird not rushing through the store this morning with my normal drive but it was kind of relaxing, too….I did talk to Roger and found out his dog died yesterday…I could tell that hurt some and I feel bad about that…but, he had a good attitude so that is something…not much to do today….going to make chili for lunch and then just do whatever I want the rest of the day…I did get the fridge and kitchen cleaned yesterday so I might vacuum today…but I might not…just going to let the day flow…more later…

Well….have been looking for some political stuff to do today with not much luck so I thought I’d just do this one about the “week of Me” that starts tomorrow. Now, as you know, I have been looking for work for a long time now and it is spirit crushing to continue to do so day in and day out with no responses….and to try to control what I eat to not gain weight along with limiting my cocktail nights just to give my liver a rest periodically….but, this year, I came up with a new concept, kind of based on what K does for her birthday but shorter…”the week of Me” where I eat whatever I want, drink as much as I want, and not look for work…basically only doing what I want to do while keeping the guilt tamped down for not doing what I should. I think it’s necessary once in a while to just stop being so controlling and counting every calorie…or drink, or amount of exercise….so, I declare the next week “the week of Me”, starting tomorrow I will do whatever I want culminating in my birthday next Wednesday…by that time I think I’ll probably be pretty worn out and will need a rest….