Well…yeah, that title is accurate…I’ve been up since 4:09, lying in bed with my emotions running wild and that happens more and more as I get older and older…had “The Southern Cross” by CSN running through my head and it is so cool that I can just talk to my phone and it will play…and I followed that up with “The Lee Shore” and”Triad” from “4 Way Street” and realized that it was 55 years ago when I first heard that album and it turned out to be a really important thing to me….as a lot of music is….yeah, I’m rambling at 4:53 and I think there is something important to say but I don’t know what it is right now….it feels like my time is getting short and I don’t know what to do about it…maybe go back to bed and try to sleep….feel just so damn worn out and I am tired of having to “get going” every damn day….but I’ll keep doing that as long as I can….what else is there to do?

Well…damn, it was a weird, weird day today and I started it out with an outdoor ride as soon as the sun came up but he wind came up to 20-30 by the time I got back so the bike went back in the garage and I rode indoors…then my eye really got bad so I called the doctor and they got me in but didn’t have the equipment to even try to diagnose what was going on so they made an appointment for an eye doctor that I had to be at at 3:10…one good thing was it was warm enough to put the top down one the car so that was cool…so after being at the eye doctor for an hour and a half, while they did a full exam and found no cataracts or glaucoma and that my vision is still pretty good, they did find some inflammation in my eyelids and eyes so they gave me a prescription for steroid eye drops to help get the inflammation down and also gave a me instructions where I have to wash my eyelids with baby shampoo twice a day to get the pores cleaned out and then put a warm compress on for five minutes on my eyes after that…again, twice a day…and that just adds to the daily maintenance this old body needs and now it’s 6:30pm and I am tired of going all day…so now I start the last book until tv starts at 7pm…

Well…up at 4:40 this morning but I was able to lie back down til a little after 6 and I guess I’ll have to take it…I really tried to eat more yesterday but I’m not sure if I was successful or not…stir fry chicken and rice for lunch and then a chicken thigh and cooked cabbage for dinner…I know dinner was only 250 calories and I know that the stir fry was not 750 calories so I was under 1,000 for the day and I can’t keep that up…so, I think I’ll make some peanut butter toast this morning….going to do three outdoor rides today for the first time this year since it is already 40 out there and that’s plenty warm to go out…but that means waiting until it gets light at around 8am and that is harder than it looks…I did get two loads of laundry done yesterday but today looks easier with only having to put the grocery list together and a little cleaning…and I’m really enjoying the David Baldacci novel I’m reading and it’s nice to add another author to the list…will probably head to the library later in the week for 4 more books…I don’t think I’ve ever read as much as I’m doing now and want to keep that up as long as I can but I’m running out of authors…these people have to get off their butts and write some more…not much to do today…I do need to figure out how to use the two bags of potatoes I still have so there may be some soup made this week….more later…

Well…another 33 mile day but it was a lot of work when my legs went completely flat at the start of the 2nd outdoor ride…then I remembered that I really didn’t eat much yesterday and that’s probably it…oh, and yesterday, coming down the hill from the beach, a turkey was standing in the middle of the trail looking right at me and didn’t move until I was about a foot away and then it just barely moved enough for me to get by….and the funny thing is that he was standing in a traffic lane in the same area and wouldn’t move for cars that were backed up and honking their horns at him..so one guy got out of the car and tried to shoo him over to the side but all the turkey did was stand there and make turkey noises at him…the cars then drove around him in the other lane…funniest damn thing I’ve seen in quite a while…didn’t do much else today but read and 2 loads of laundry and I need to make the bed since I washed the bedding today…then on to more reading…

Well…my eye is better this morning so I don’t think I’ll need to call the doctor today…but we’ll see later…up at 6:17 today but that is actually 5:17 and I do need to stop doing conversions in my head….I did sleep okay last night but feel pretty worn out so I’ll wait a bit to get on the bike…going to do the three ride thing again today but don’t need to start until 7:30 so that gives me some time to sit here and have coffee…I do need to do laundry today but that will wait until after the rides so I can get everything clean…and I need to start planning meals for the week and I have no clue what they are going to be…have too many potatoes so that will be part of it but how I’ll use them is in question…maybe some potato salad? Or mashed? Who knows? I’ll probably get more cabbage this week since Meijers has it on sale for 59 cents a pound but I’ll need to up the seasoning since the last batch was pretty bland…but I still have a 2 quart container that I made last time and that will last most of the week…not much to do today…just going to think about the rides and try to get going in 30 minutes…more later…

Well…I did gt three rides in today for a total of 33 miles for the first time this year and I know I need to eat more than I have been since my legs went flat at the start of the third ride…but it was still nice to be outdoors…a few swans, ducks, and loons are already on Muskegon lake as the creek has started to open up the water and melt the ice…the bike is working great after getting it cleaned up after getting it so muddy last week and I’m going to wear out the driveline completely before I throw new parts at it…my damn eye is still giving me fits so I’ll be on the phone tomorrow morning to see if I can get in to the doctor and figure out what’s wrong…haven’t had problems like this in a long time…going to make some chicken thighs for dinner to go with the tons of cabbage I have leftover from yesterday…okay, time to look for a political one for later…

Well…damn, my right eye is still hurting every time I blink so I will have to call my doctor tomorrow and that means another day of pain like I can’t remember…and let’s stack the time change on top of that so this is going to be a miserable day….I did sleep okay so that may help a bit but it’s already 7:28 and I need to get on the bike a half hour ago…oh, well…it’s already warmer than when I went out on the bike yesterday so there will be two outdoor rides today…and that will have to happen before 12:30 when Man U plays so I’ll have to be on the indoor bike for one by 8am and then straight on the outdoor bike for two…and that will give me the first 30+ mile day of the year…I do need to bake some chicken today to go with the leftover cabbage but that will be it since I still have stir fry for the second meal and I really do need to remember that doing 30 miles is enough to pay for two meals and I need to have the fuel to keep it up…I am contemplating doing another 30 day free trial of prime so I can buy some more coffee beans since they are not included in the free shipping at 35 bucks but no Colombian beans are affordable…I wonder if the regular beans are as good…who knows? Don’t have a lot to do today other than the rides and I do need to carve out some time to read later since I didn’t read much with the eye pain yesterday…more coffee and on the bike…more later…

Well…damn, I think I have a sty forming in my right eyelid since it hurts like I have a grain of sand in it…and that has been going on all day and that sucks…if it keeps up tomorrow I think I’ll call my doctor Monday and see if they can get me in…the last one I had left a permanent scar on that same eyelid and I don’t want that to happen again…I did get an outdoor ride in today and the bike shocks felt a little stiff with it being only 31 when I went out but it shifted fine so that was okay…and the trail was clear all the way out to Lake Michigan except for all the sand on it right out at the beach so I only had to walk about 50 yards to get past it…and with the two rides indoors, I got to 29 miles for the day…and tomorrow I’m shooting for one indoors and two outdoors for 33 miles…and I’ll be able to just ride outdoors all week and will be in shorts Wed-Fri when it’s going to be over 60…probably should find and wash my baseball hat that I wear in the summer…the cabbage and steak was really good for lunch but way too many calories in the steak so I’m skipping the second meal again today…although doing 30 miles should be enough to support two….just not hungry I guess…time to read…