Well…it has been a rough day today with going into GR to see my brother at the hospital after his fall yesterday…and they have had to give him blood since his platelet level was really low…and that means he’s bleeding internally and they have to scope him to try to find it and stop it…he didn’t look or sound too good today and I think we all need to get ready for him to pass…and that sucks…this will be the third brother I’ve lost an then there will only be two of us left…along with my 4 sisters…I guess it’s time for this crap to start happening…we are getting old…

Well..damn, up at 5 or so today and it’s not going to be a good day…my oldest brother is in the hospital after collapsing in his living room yesterday…he is in treatment for cancer and I think he is in the start of the end of life and that sucks…he has always introduced me as his “twin” as we were born on the same day 13 years apart….so my next oldest brother is picking me up at 10 to run into GR to visit him…it is so hard to see his decline and know that it is my fate, too…life is hard at times…so the mundane talking about my life seems to be unimportant right now….so I’m going to cut this one short to think a bit…more later…

Well…it was kind of  a busy day today with getting out early to do the grocery run and having a little problem at Meijers since I forgot that I need to use goodrx to get a deal on the sildenafil that I have to take for rehab from the surgery…they wanted to charge me 211 dollars for the same prescription that cost me 23 bucks last time…so I bitched and they gave it to me for 14 bucks…weird…almost took the day off the bike but didn’t and then I had to go out and shovel the snow again so I could drag my trash bin back to the landing pad…and then the normal cleaning the place up work and now I’m done for the day….want to finish up the book I have going but need to do my teeth first…

Well…damn, having a hard time getting going today…it’s 7:31 and I just poured my first cup of coffee so it looks like no ride before I head out for the grocery run…and the little widget on the bottom of the screen says ‘near record low temps” and that sucks…the weather has been weird out here so far this winter with more snow last night but I am going to head out for the grocery run today…okay, the widget just changed to “high winds soon” and it’s only 22 degrees out there and that is just depressing…can’t wait to get the errands done and get back here in my comfy clothes….ha, the “Car SOS” episode that is on right now is from Manchester and I recognized the buildings they are showing…pretty cool…didn’t get a lot done yesterday and today will be the same since I don’t have a lot to do here at the house…I am going to break in the new puffy coat this morning so I’ll look pretty European with my Harris tweed flat hat…have to pick up a prescription at the close Meijers after I go over to Sternberg road for the rest of the shopping so I can get going earlier…more later…

Well…it was a pretty easy day today but I did get a few things done so that is cool…got the two rides in this morning but then took most of the afternoon off to just read…I did have to put the leaf bags and trash out for pick up tomorrow…my damn right thumb has been just aching on the bike for the past few days so I guess I’ll have to use some voltaren on it before I get on it tomorrow…it was damn cold here all day and the high never got above 25 degrees and tomorrow is going to be the same…so I’m going to do the grocery run tomorrow before it gets warm enough to melt the streets around here…they never salt them so it should be okay to take the car out without washing it after and before it warms up starting Wed….have some ribs in the freezer that have been there a few months that I am going to take out and grill later in the week…will need to make a rub for them and will find a recipe tomorrow…will probably do them in foil and then just finish them without it to get them browned…yummy

Well…it sure is a pain to be disciplined all the time…I sure would like to eat what I want and do what I want at least one day a month…pretty tired this morning with getting out of bed before 6 but I slept okay and don’t have a lot of pain this morning so I guess that’s as good as I can expect…it’s only 27 degrees out there and I can hear the cars crunching on the snow since they don’t ever plow the streets up here…sure not ready for winter yet but after 69 of them here in Michigan it should be easy…really trying to enjoy my 5 weeks off of doctor’s appointments but haven’t figured that out yet…oh, goody…a high wind warning has just popped up on the lower banner of my screen…and it is supposed to snow more today, too so there will be more shoveling….it’s a leftover day today so no cooking but I will have to plan something for later in the week…I do want to do the turkey soup later but have two containers in the freezer that need to be used…maybe I’ll make a pizza this week on the grill…who knows? Not much to do today…can’t get moving but it’s only 6:30 so that’s to be expected….think I’ve lost some weight but I need to keep it up to get back down into the 160’s…damn, it’s hard to be me…more later…

Well…darn, the plan for today was just to watch the F1 race and then Man U, then make some potato soup…but when I checked the whole milk, it had already gone bad so I had to change the recipe to add a Russet potato to thicken it up along with the yellow ones…but when I made the roux and added two cups of skim milk, it thickened up nicely and I couldn’t taste the difference…what was different was adding some apple bratwurst that I had in the freezer and that really made a unique taste that I liked…I really was going to not ride the bike but I had time between the F1 race and Man U so I went down and got the first one in…and right after the Man U match was over, I went back down for the second ride…so I kept the guilts at bay and even went out to shovel the snow and salt the walks….so it was kind of a busy day and not what I had expected…so now it’s almost 7 and I am done for the day..back to political ones tomorrow…

Well…that was really weird…slept all the way through the night until almost 6 and that never happens…so I feel pretty good this morning but my eyes are scratchy from allergies…it looks like snow all day today and we may get 3-6 inches of snow so I may be out shoveling later…the F1 race is on at 8 and Man U plays at 11:30 so the first ride will be in between them…if I do one at all…one of these days I’m going to take a day off…my damn left elbow has been throbbing with pain since yesterday and I think I’ll hit it with some voltaren here in  a minute….it appears that it’s just the pain that has been moving around from joint to joint…it was in my left shoulder for the past few days and it’s normally my right shoulder hurts…okay, everything normally hurts and that’s pretty tiring…didn’t get much done yesterday and today will be the same but I am going to try to make some more potato soup today to use the whole milk before it spoils…need to make some turkey soup next week to start to make some room in the freezer…not much to do today…just going to sit a bit and have more coffee and ease into it and let my body adjust to being awake…more later….

Well…darn, up really late today and I am having a hard time getting moving…one good thing is my legs are getting better and don’t hurt nearly as much as yesterday…and I’ll take it…had a good day yesterday and contemplated taking  day off the bike but didn’t…so will today be the day? Not sure yet but I know I need to burn those calories so probably not…it is only 26 degrees out there and I can see the money going up the chimney as the heat is on almost continually….but I can afford it so no stress…I do need to lube the bike up today so it will be ready to go when the temp gets back up into the 40’s next week…slept okay last night and feel okay this morning but I’m still pretty tired and I’m not sure why that would be other than not eating enough…but I need to lose 10 pounds so I really can’t eat much right now…trying to figure out if I need to cook today but I don’t want to make any decisions right now…maybe some potato soup later? Not much to do today…going to ease into it and have more coffee and then get some laundry in since I want to do smaller loads so they will dry with no wrinkling…should probably do the bedding, too, along with the towels I used to clean the kitchen…more later…

Well…damn, my legs hurt worse today than they did yesterday and I am stiff to go along with it…didn’t keep me off the bike today but both rides were inside…but, I did almost stopped when I started the first ride it hurt so much…all from shucking walnuts and doing yard work…damn, it’s a pain getting old…I did get some work done in the kitchen today and now have a clean microwave, steel table, and one counter…so tomorrow will be the other counter and the stove top along with the fan hood…it looks like I won’t be getting outdoors on the bike anytime soon since it’s going to be damn cold out here starting today when it never got over 37 and it’s already down to 27 and it’s not 7 pm yet…oh, well…have been getting some birds on the feeder already but most of them are noisy Bluejays that are pigs and I’ll have to fill it again tomorrow…now it’s time to try to find something to watch over on netflix…there’s an Italian mob series that looks promising so I’m going to start with that…