Well…I am so damn tired this morning and I need to get on the bike in 16 minutes but I sure don’t want to…need to schedule the liver ultrasound today on mychart and I really think it is going to be something serious like liver cancer that my mother died from…forgot to put sunscreen on for the 2nd ride yesterday and I got pretty scorched after just a little over an hour in the sun…skipped the beach yesterday since I didn’t have the energy to go out there and I’m not sure about today…it hasn’t been relaxing going out there lately and it should be…not sure what I’m going to eat today but I really don’t care either…hey, can you tell I’m depressed? Living in this 72 year body is getting to be too much work…all I want to do is lie on the couch and read all day but you know I won’t do that….after all, I’ve been on the bike for 630 days straight and that is going to end next May when I do the trip to Italy with my daughter…was shooting for 1,000 days in a row but does that matter? Not to anyone but me…not much to do today…need to assemble the potato salad this morning but I really don’t feel like eating at all…okay, this is depressing…so I’m going to stop and have one more cup of coffee and get on the bike….more later…

Well…damn, I am getting so tired of this body giving up on me…got a call about the blood work I had done yesterday and I have elevated billirubin levels and they want me to go in next week for a liver ultrasound…I am so damn tired of doctors appointments that I may just say no and just live out what little life I have left…if I have to give up the few cocktails I have every week, I’m going to scream…it could be caused by a lot of things like dehydration or gallstones and I know I have both of those…but it still sucks because it they find something, there will be more doctor appointments and more medicine, and more pain in the ass…and I don’t like that one bit…crap…

Well…no one should be up at 4:36…it’s just wrong and it is going to set me up for a low energy day that I’m feeling right now…slept okay but this damn humidity is going to kill me…there just is no relief at all and it’s wearing me out…need to get on the bike in less than 15 minutes and I don’t know if I can do it…the coffee hasn’t had time to work and every damn keystroke is too much effort…had an okay day yesterday but did way too much work and don’t want to repeat that today…but I do need to hit the library after the grocery run and a stop at Menards and I think I’m going to do a DD stop just for the heck of it…the results of the latest blood draw are on mychart but I think I’m going to follow my daughter’s advice and not look at it until my doctor calls me…it’s going to be hot and humid for the next week and I’m going to shift into survival mode to get through it…not much to do today…and that is a lie since I am going to be running all morning and I may hit the beach again…but the couch has a gravitational pull right now that is going to be hard to resist…need to get going…more later…

Well…got a call from my doctor’s office today and what they removed from my forehead was NOT a melanoma…how it got from melanoma on mychart to the good news of no cancer I don’t know…and the kicker was no more treatment needed…so that was  a nice surprise and makes me feel better about my health that I haven’t had two kinds of cancer in two years…yay! It was kind of  a busy day with getting out on the bike for two rides before I could break the fast I was on for the blood draw…my legs gave up on the 2nd ride and I know it was from no food for 14 hours and I’ve been struggling to make up for that the rest of the day…had another good phlebotomist at the lab and she hit it with one poke, no bruising, so no big deal..okay, a little bruise bit it’s the size of a rice grain and I’ll take that anytime…when I got back from the lab, I vacuumed and washed the car and I used the car wash I bought and the new mitt…used way too much soap and I’ll fix that next time…and then I went out to the beach for a swim, getting back here about 12:45 then I did the laundry and cooked the ingredients for another batch of potato salad…after that, all I did was read and I’m going back to that right now..

Well…another month starts and more health bullshit with needing to go out and have blood drawn after the rides this morning…I think they are looking for vitamin deficiencies and it’s possible I have some with how I eat…last ate at 5pm yesterday so I’ll hit the 12 hours of fasting needed for these tests…feel a lot better than I did yesterday and the black and blue left big toe doesn’t really hurt anymore…still can’t figure out what I stubbed it on and I can’t remember a worse one since I moved out here…have a lot to get done today with going straight into cleaning the car to get the sand out of the interior and then washing it since it is really dusty out here when it never rains…and it’s not supposed to rain til Sunday…I am not looking forward to the 4th of July and and the war zone that this place turns into…and I still can’t figure out how people in these run down houses can afford the thousands of dollars they spend on fireworks every year…think I’ll be heading to the library tomorrow since I’m on the last book that I should have finished today…going to try to get to the beach after I clean the car up but I do need to load up on food for lunch so avoid feeling like I did yesterday…and it will be 17 hours of not eating anything…have a half hour before I get on the bike at 6:30 so I think I’ll pour another cup of coffee and get a post out on Mastodon…more later…

Well…damn today was probably one of the lowest energy days I’ve had in quite a while…only did two rides an then some yard work and I was so exhausted that I even skipped the weight work today…and you know it’s probably from not eating enough but I can fix that since I’m having blood drawn tomorrow for them to check to see if I have any vitamin deficiencies and need to fast for 12 hours before I get that done…so no cocktails tonight, either but I can use a night off…ha, I’m laughing again when the forecast says rain later tonight and that’s not going to happen and there is none in the forecast until Sunday so I guess I can wash the car tomorrow and maybe go to the beach since I skipped that today, too…I am getting tired of the heat and humidity out here but it looks like we’ll be in it for most of July and then we have wonderful August that will be even worse…oh, well…tv time…

Well…I’m feeling every damn minute of my age this morning and I don’t like it one bit…and my left big toe hurts like I bashed it last night and I don’t remember doing that…crap…it’s already 6:30 and I am so far from getting going that I don’t think I can see it from here…didn’t get anything done yesterday other than cooking the Masala and this heat is just wearing me out…it’s not bad right now but it’s going to be in the high 80’s again with no rain so I won’t be mowing my lawn anytime soon…I really should clean this joint up but I’m pondering going to the beach…and I need to have blood drawn to see if I have a vitamin deficiency tomorrow…man, it’s a lot of work getting old…have started to think about about my mortality with the cancer diagnosis last week and that sucks…I may not make it to 80…oh, well…need to get moving soon but that seems like a lot of work right now….damn, I’m feeling old…more later…

Well…after the diagnosis of melanoma from the freckle I had removed last week, it dawned on me that I’ve had two different kinds of cancer in two years…now the prostate cancer was removed on July 27, 2023 and less than two years later melanoma…and I’m not sure how to think about that…I need to follow up with my doctor to see if more treatment is necessary…I would have thought they would have called me when the diagnosis hit the charts and said melanoma…and they took a look at the freckle in the office and said it didn’t look like a melanoma but they would remove it if I wanted them to…so I’m glad I had them do it since getting at melanoma early is the key to survival…so, should I feel fortunate or concerned? Not sure yet but I really don’t see this killing me…yet…

Well…it appears that the “danger freckle” really was one…the test results showed it was a melanoma and it appears that cancer really is trying to kill me….first from the prostate cancer and now this and I wonder if there is further treatment that has to happen…I guess I’ll find out tomorrow…I do need to get out on the bike by 6:30 to get two rides in before the F1 race at 9 and with this new development, I wonder if all the work is worth it if the damn cancer is going to kill me anyway? Oh, well…going to die from something…so I guess I need to get my life in order and get a will written…I do know I have 6 pounds of coffee beans that need to be used so I’ll be using some of them tomorrow…have to start getting rid of stuff around here so my daughter has an easy time selling this place…okay, not going to think about that right now…need to make some Masala today and I’ll do that for lunch…and I thawed some more cheap bacon so there will be blt’s today, too…still can’t taste anything and it appears they are not going to do anything about it and that sucks…it is such a pain in the ass to have to work so damn hard to deal with health problems…and I am so tired of it….more later…

Well…when I started out this morning, I thought it might be a really short, one ride day with the big running race going on today…I did get the first ride in leaving here at 6:30 am but then the race started as I was just getting back…there were almost 1,000 people getting ready downtown so I came back here to wait it out…but I got to around 11:30 and I realized I could just go east instead of west so I got on the bike and headed out…rode all the way to the eastern end of Muskegon Lake and kept going so I could look at Muskegon from the north side…that was about a 12 mile round trip to get back here…and I had completely forgotten about the 2 mile long boardwalk that goes over a couple of rivers and through a swamp so that was cool to ride on again…and when I got back to the park, the runners were gone so I decided to just keep riding and do another normal 12.5 mile lap…so it was a 37 mile day today and it felt good to stretch a bit and do some extra work…and I even had time to finish the book I started yesterday…this small town was just buzzing with activity all day…starting with the running race, then the craft fair downtown, the boat ramps were full, and there were no parking spots out at my beach…probably busier than I’ve seen…so that was cool…now it’s time to start another book…