Well…yeah, I was lazy and only did one of these yesterday but I will do better today…slept okay last night but still feel a little worn out this morning and I’m waiting for the coffee to work after going out to get the paper….there was supposed to be a big snow storm later this week but it looks like it’s going to be light instead of the feet of snow they are getting in the plains and mountains to the west….and I’m okay with that…if we can get through December with just a little snow, there are only two months of winter to endure and I can live with that…I’m re-thinking getting another car in the spring since I don’t really use mine much and I’m not going to be able to afford one after all the dental work…going to take the day off the bike today since I need to rest my legs a bit and I just don’t want to ride right now…I may go down there later since it only takes about 45 minutes to keep my guilt at bay but I don’t have to and I like having that option at least one day a week…didn’t get anything done yesterday…as you know…and today is going to be the same I think…but right now all I want is to have another cup of coffee and to read the news for a bit….no world cup on today so I am just going to run the tv in the background and veg it out a bit….more later….

Well…damn, not sure how things changed but I didn’t get out of bed til after 7 again today and I still feel pretty worn out even without doing anything yesterday…and it’s almost 8 now and I need to get on the bike soon so I can be done before the world cup comes on at 10…I am going to try to get an outdoor ride in before the second cup match comes on at two but I’m still leery of going out in the cold…I did look for a pair of heated gloves the other day and I may buy a pair but then it dawned on me I have over 4 grand going out by March of next year and I shouldn’t spend any more money…if I add buying a new car that will be 12 grand and there is no way I can afford that…so, another reason to be depressed…not sure what I’m going to get done today since I haven’t planned for anything but I think I’ll move the spare mattress out of the dining room and into the spare bedroom so I can get at the trim in there…but what if I don’t want to? What if I just take the damn day off and do what I want? Yeah, I’m pretty conflicted this morning and even when I take a day off the guilts don’t let me enjoy it….and I’m tired of it….oh, well…I did finally get Yellowstone yesterday at the mid point of the second season and I am enjoying it now…thanks, Tom…..not much to do today…just need to shake off this malaise and get going but I think I’ll need another cup of coffee to do that….so I think I’ll get one and read a little news…more later….

Well…with another wasted day today, I really do need to get off my butt and get some work done around here…haven’t accomplished anything in weeks and it is starting to depress me…I do have an excuse with the world cup on but that is not enough to keep me from feeling guilty….going to start doing two rides indoors tomorrow so that will be something but I still don’t think I’ll make it to my goal for the year…oh, well…I did finally cook something other than ham today when I made chicken and roast potatoes for dinner and I need to make room for the ham bone in the freezer when I strip it down tomorrow…I think I’m puffy from all of the salt in the ham so I need to eat some other stuff for a while…I did get some Fuji apples wed and I can’t believe how hard they are…have had to cut them up into slices to be able to eat them…but I like the slices better anyway so that’s good…okay, can you tell I’m bored? I do have a book to read that I could work on but that just doesn’t interest me right now…okay, I’m done…

Well…damn, running late again today and I should feel okay with not getting out of bed til after 7 but I don’t….still worn out and I’m not sure why that would be…and I feel like I’ve gained most of the weight back that I’ve lost over the past year and I sure don’t know how that could be….oh, well….I did  get a few things done yesterday but I’m not sure about today…I am going to get on the bike here in a few minutes but there won’t be an outdoor ride today with the wind blowing like crazy and rain/snow coming in a few hours out….the world cup starts up again today with two matches so I’ll have something to keep the boredom at bay….I do need to cook some of the chicken I got at aldis today and that will be a welcome change from ham although I still haven’t finished up the mashed potatoes and gravy I made to go with the ham….I did resist going out to daily deals to get some kielbasa they have on sale since it is not good for you and I have no room in the freezer for it after I put the chicken in….I did catch another mouse in here yesterday and that is the first one in about 6 months and I hope it’s the last one in a while….had to dispatch it with my billy club and that is not something I enjoy….not much to do today…just need to get more coffee in me and read some news before I get going on the bike….but I really have no motivation right now….ugh….more later….

Well…it’s been a long, sweaty slog but I finally got to 1,000 miles today on the downstairs bike…and instead of just rolling over and start counting over, the computer on the bike just started flashing error messages so I had to reset it…and the problem with that was I couldn’t find the instructions so I spent an hour and a half looking for them everywhere and finally found them right on the table next to the couch in a bunch of paid bills….and, with getting to 4,800 on the outdoor bike yesterday, that makes 5,800 miles for the year so far and I am wondering if I can do the last 250 miles to get to my record for a year in the next three weeks…that will mean and outdoor and indoor ride every day and I’m not sure I want to do that much work…but I guess we’ll see…didn’t go outside today since I feel cold and just couldn’t get myself to go out and freeze like yesterday…I think I’m going to look for some heated gloves to just see what they cost…..

Well…damn, up at 4:08 this morning but laid back down til a little after 6 but didn’t feel like there was any sleep in there but there must have been…no dreams at all, though, and that means the sleep was pretty crappy…at least my back doesn’t hurt too much today but my abs do and that sucks….it looks like I’ll be riding indoors this morning with the temp only getting to 30 or so but I may get outside later if I get motivated….if I ride twice a day for the rest of the month, I may get close to the goal for the year since I’m sitting at 5,800 as of yesterday but to do another 250 miles by the end of the month? Not sure if that’s doable but I do feel good that I did as many as I have….didn’t get much done but laundry yesterday and I really should get to work on this place today but it’s unusual that I have such a lack of motivation that has gone on for months now…should have finished the dining room by now and I know all I have to do is start but I just don’t feel like it….oh, well…going to be working on leftovers for the next couple of days but I do need to cook  some of the chicken I got yesterday…but that will wait til tomorrow since I still have soup to use and tons of ham left….not much to do today…just need to get on the bike by 8 so that gives me time to read some news and have another cup of coffee….I think I’ll hit 1,000 miles indoors this morning and that has been a lot of work….more later…

Well…damn, that was a brutal ride…I did get two in outside today but even with little wind, they were just brutal for some reason…and I think it may be that I only had one meal yesterday and that is not enough to support doing 30 miles on the bike and I didn’t even get to lunch until almost 2pm so I think that will set me up to only have one meal again today…or I can have a bowl of soup later since I do need to use the turkey soup leftovers up before they spoil….and I did get chicken legs quarters for 59 cents a pound today and now I have 10 pounds of those that need to be frozen but I think I have room for them but it will be a tight squeeze to fit the leftover ham in to save up for making ham soup in a couple of weeks…have already heated my back once as I wait for the dryer to finish up with the bedding and couch blankets in it….haven’t even read the news today…darn, I better get going…

Well…damn, running late this morning with getting up at 5:40 and then lying back down until almost 7:30 and than never happens…but I don’t feel like I slept at all and it’s going to be hard to get going today…need to be in the shower in 20 minutes to get out for the grocery run and I don’t want to do it…it’s only 29 out there right now and that is too damn cold to ride outdoors so that may have to wait til the afternoon…the weather says it’s foggy out there right now but it’s not light enough to see that yet….looks like it could be ice fog since it’s pretty cold out there….didn’t get much done yesterday but make the big dinner for lunch but I do need to do some laundry today…there are no soccer matches on today so I won’t have any excuse for not working…but do I need one? To not feel guilty, yes…darn, haven’t even read the news yet this morning and it looks like I won’t get to it til the afternoon so there won’t be any topics until then…I know there has been a lot happening so it should be pretty easy to find one for today….okay, need to get more coffee in me before I can even think about getting going…so I think I will…more later…

Well…after getting out for two hard rides outdoors today, and my back not hurting much with heating it as soon as I got off the bike, I thought I got away with it…but nope, my back just froze up completely after sitting on the couch for a few minutes…and now my abs are getting back in the party, too…crap…I guess I could take something for it since I didn’t take anything yesterday….I did cook the big ham I got yesterday and I’m a little confused…it really doesn’t taste like anything…maybe a little bit like ham but not HAM! Like it should….I’ve seen this before with cheaper hams and it is a little disappointing since I’ve been looking forward to this for a month now…oh, well…life is full of disappointment…and it was only 8 bucks so no big loss…thinking about getting some shrimp tomorrow at Meijers since they have pound packages buy one get one free but that still makes it 5 bucks a pound and I wonder if it’s worth it or not?  I guess I’ll have to think about that one….

Well…how much does ending uncertainty cost? In my case it’s 3 grand or so and it appears to be worth it…didn’t sleep well at all last night with getting up twice and then out of bed before 7 and I have a headache…didn’t take anything for the allergies last night and I’m paying for it right now…I had a laugh this morning when the old saying “wake up and smell the coffee” actually happened when I did…yeah, I have a weird sense of humor…it is nice that I don’t have any more doctor or dentist appointments for a couple of months and I am going to enjoy that…at least for the next week or so…I did start getting into Yellowstone over the last few days and the thought hit me it’s the Sopranos set in Montana….and I watched the Guardians of the Galaxy christmas special last night and it was such good natured fun that it made me smile….I have weird taste in shows at times…I am going to make a big ham today that I got for 8 bucks yesterday at Meijers and that should last me for almost a week…and I am going to try to get outside on the bike today for two rides since the wind is down to only about 6mph but it is still too cold to go out til around 9….but it will still be in the 30’s so I’ll need full thermasuit but I will be able to watch Route 66 and have more coffee before that….not much to do today…just going to cook the ham later and then watch some soccer…I really should clean but I’m not sure if I will…I should do bedding today and probably will but that won’t be til this afternoon….just want to sit here for a bit and have more coffee….probably should heat my back as I sit to prep for the rides…more later…