Well….sitting here waiting for the rain to stop to see if I can get out on the bike today but the wind is blowing about 25 right now so I just may take the day off…I am freaking out a little that today could be the last day that I don’t know I have a huge health problem and I guess I could look at that two ways…if I know, then I can get moving on treatment and maybe stay alive a few more years…but how is that going to change how I look at the world? I have been lucky to not have had any health problems at all really….I guess I need to stop thinking about it until I know there is a problem….but, there are not enough distractions right now to keep my brain occupied…and my stomach is already starting to give me problems with the diet change and not eating anything since about 6 last night….okay, need a couple of deep breaths and to find a soccer match to watch….and I need to stop whining….and remember “it is what it is” and know that I’ve dealt with everything life has thrown at me and this is just one more thing….more later….