Well…yeah, coined a new word in the title but it seemed to fit my mood today…can’t get interested in anything politics today and I think that’s extending into almost everything that I’m thinking about. You’ve seen this before if you’ve been here…not to the extent that the couch is calling but there seems to be this veil of cobwebs between me and the world; insulating me from feeling that I’m part of it. Could it be that it is just January in Michigan? Don’t know, really….I do feel a compulsion to write something today…I called it onion peeling when this started back in April of last year, but there are still the shackles of self-control that I still wear…and a promise to myself that there would never be anything in this post that would embarrass my kids or friends…kind of limits really sharing but do you want that anyway? I did start this as a chronicle of what it is like to be old, educated, and unemployed and maybe I need to get back to that…I think I’ll try to do at least a couple of those every week from now on, but, I’ve broken promises to you guys before and I can’t promise I won’t again…there is still something rattling around in my head that is not taking shape….that’s part of the frustration where you wait and wait and think and think and nothing comes….so I write one of these free-form things hoping clarity will magically come…and it doesn’t….

It just seems strange that as my life gets smaller and simpler….it also gets harder and harder…