Well…just can’t get motivated to do politics today and politics itself may be a component to why I feel depressed today…I know there is plenty of good news for our side but I still have a sense of foreboding that something is going to happen to install the idiot trump again and the result will be the end of the US…can you see why it is affecting me so much? But that is not what this is about…after thinking a little this morning, the thought dawned on me that another reason for the depression today is the realization that riding the bike used to fix things and it doesn’t anymore….if I felt like crap from a cold, get on the bike and take a hard ride and I’d feel better…if I had a hangover, I’d get on the bike and feel better after going like crazy for 15 miles…if my foot was swollen, get on the bike with my shoe laced up tight and take a hard 15, and it would be better…if my back hurt, get on the bike and lean over the bars and it would crack and the pain would go away…you get the idea…but lately it doesn’t work anymore…haven’t been able to get my back to crack in months and my foot is puffier than ever…and I hurt so much after doing the 36 miles daily that I constantly take ibuprofen for the general pain and my foot…and I very seldom come back feeling better mentally than I did when I started out…the bike used to be my oasis from life and the crap going on but it just doesn’t work anymore and I can’t figure it out….and that is depressing as hell…so what’s the point of the bike riding if it doesn’t help? Yeah, still pretty depressed but I can’t even self medicate with cocktails anymore…crap….and the bars are closed again so no more pool for a few more weeks…ick…