Well…it’s been another depressing day in a depressing week that is turning into a depressing life and I’m sure I don’t like it much…not getting anything accomplished with the damn heat and knowing that if I work in it it’s going to flare my foot again and I’ll be off my feet for another week…but I need to get off my ass and finish this house soon since all of my efforts now need to be focused on finding a house that I feel is going to be impossible with the weird assed housing market right now…prices are exploding and I’m pretty sure I’m priced out of the market…houses that were going for 120K a couple of months ago are now priced over 150K and that’s too rich for me….and the prospect of going back into an apartment at my age is just too ugly to contemplate….so, I’ve got about 5 months to figure something out….and the stress from all of that is always in the back of my head so I can’t really enjoy anything anymore….I’m getting too old for this crap…and my option of just pulling up stakes for somewhere else is gone with two of my kids expecting grandkids and I do want to be part of their lives…so taking what cash is left and moving to Costa Rica is off the table….I don’t even enjoy getting on the bike anymore but I still do it because I’m supposed to and I have a goal that I need to meet…don’t even care about that anymore…can you tell I’m depressed? I can….and my sunflowers are dying and my three important plants out back are dying, too and I’m not sure why that would be…and my tomatoes are dying to the point that I’ll probably get a dozen tomatoes off 20 plants and that is depressing too….should probably just pull them all out so I don’t have to take care of them anymore…have already pulled out 6 of them that weren’t growing any tomatoes on them and chopped down 6 sunflowers that were attacked by that damn squirrel and a couple that were just mutated and weren’t going to blossom….oh, well…I’ll get over it in time…and maybe something will happen that will lift the depression…what that would be, I don’t know but it’s happened every time and just took time….so I wait….