Well…can I take a day off? I just frickin hurt and getting on the bike won’t help that at all….and I wonder how riding 30 miles a day has become such a given that I do it when I don’t want to? So, today is going to be one of those weird days when I think about what I’m doing instead of just doing it….and will probably only do one ride if I ride at all…yeah, you know how strange that is for me after going over 4,000 miles for the year the other day…..I’m tired…..it was an okay day yesterday but the depression that has been shadowing me lately has grown to the point that it can’t be ignored…I know I’ve dealt with this my whole life but it still wears me out when it comes…oh, well…so what is my day going to look like? I do need to do the grocery run this morning and hit three stores since DD has ham on sale cheap and frozen onion rings that I haven’t had in years but what do I have them with? Probably should get some more burger at Meijers but I’m not sure that would be the right thing…beef is not good for you but at my age is that really a problem? I do have room in the freezer so I can think about that later….not much to do today…just survival…and yeah, that sounds a little dramatic and it is…today will be just putting one foot in front of another and doing what I need to…have done this so many times I’ll be on autopilot once I get started….and that is a little comforting…I wonder how people who deal with this the first time cope? Too much thinking for 7:14….more later…