Well…just as I was digging out my big gloves to get on the bike, it started to rain/snow so the decision where to ride was made for me…it will be an inside day today or I may even just say the hell with it and take the day off…it is a little funny that with me losing all the weight, I have that sagging skin on my abdomen that people get after fast weight loss….and it looks pretty strange….I really don’t want to ride today….but I will….and I need a reset about that…it seems that everything I do is focused on my weight and that is pretty unhealthy….but that has been a lifelong thing…I remember when I was in my 20′s that I would skip eating for days to try to get it under control…and very seldom being successful….I wonder what it would be like to be able to eat like a normal person? I’m always under 1500 calories a day and many days under 1000 and normal people are supposed to be able to eat 2500 a day and maintain their weight….but not me….I’m just damn tired of all of it…I would love to just get cleaned up and park myself on the couch with soccer on in the background and read some more…man, that seems pretty attractive right now….oh, well…running out of days to do that….and that sucks, too….