Well…man, getting out of bed this morning was a process that started at 6:04 but took until 7:53 to complete…and I must have ground my teeth since on of the lower ones on the damaged side hurt like crazy…as this goes on, I have less and less hope that the surgery is going to be successful…I can drink hot coffee without pain so I guess that’s something…even had to take an ibuprofen a few minutes ago to get out ahead of the pain that I can feel coming back…damn…had an okay day yesterday but didn’t get much done but buy bad food that I am still feeling guilty about….and there is no room left in the freezer for anything so I won’t be buying any protein for a couple of weeks…but I had such problems eating yesterday that I don’t even want to try today…but I will since I do need fuel…but I’m not sure about getting on the bike today….damn, I think depression is coming in again….crap, crap, crap….not much to do today…just going to wait for the snow storm to start…toss some bread out for the squirrels and fill the bird feeder….I have been pretty successful in not taking days off the bike and having some discipline and I am going to try to keep up that stream…I do remember times when I let things go and just enjoyed the day but that seems a long time ago….more later…