Well…how the hell can it be 28 degrees when it’s almost May? This is going to be one of those years where the is no spring and I don’t like that at all…it should be in the 70′s every day and it won’t even get into the 60′s today…got the results of the MRI on my mychart page and I think it’s more serious than my urologist is letting on…not sure how long I have but it has triggered a huge bout of depression this morning…one troubling finding is that I have a “U shaped kidney” and I don’t even know what the hell that is….it appears that the cancer has not spread but I don’t think they should put the results on the mychart page until the doctor sees it and can explain it…had an okay day yesterday but I know I didn’t eat enough but who cares? And why am I working so hard to stay in shape when it doesn’t really mean anything? I am going to cook a pizza today in the new toaster oven and figure out what I need for sausage tacos that I want to make over the weekend….I sure hope I can get to the UK trip before I start feeling the cancer….not much to do today…I have no motivation to get on the bike and it’s almost 8…maybe by 9? I am going to have to mow the lawn at some point and that might be today with the rain that is coming in for the next few days…it’s going back down into the 40′s for highs for a few days and that is even more depressing…this is not going to be a good day….more later…