Well…I just realized it was 50 years to the day that I started to work at steelcase…I gave 28 years to that company and at 48 years old they just discarded me like a piece of trash…oh, well…feel pretty worn out today and may not get on the bike since I feel like I’ve been overdoing it on the bike with 180 miles last week…and I’m running late today since this site was not working when I got up…and it’s cold out here at 50 degrees and I really don’t want to be cold….so today could be a one ride day if I go at all….only one week til the UK trip and I need to take care of myself….I do feel the missing prostate when I’m on the bike…I feel hollow and sit completely different and it’s hard to get comfortable when I ride….I wonder if it’s depression again? Need to do so much this week to be ready for the trip and it appears so daunting…maybe I could take today off to regroup and then attack tomorrow? Not much to do today…going to have making the list for what to take on the trip as the goal today…no grocery run this week since everything in the fridge will spoil in 3 weeks….more later…