Well..damn, up at 5 or so today and it’s not going to be a good day…my oldest brother is in the hospital after collapsing in his living room yesterday…he is in treatment for cancer and I think he is in the start of the end of life and that sucks…he has always introduced me as his “twin” as we were born on the same day 13 years apart….so my next oldest brother is picking me up at 10 to run into GR to visit him…it is so hard to see his decline and know that it is my fate, too…life is hard at times…so the mundane talking about my life seems to be unimportant right now….so I’m going to cut this one short to think a bit…more later…