Well…woke up pretty depressed this morning and I’m not sure why that would be…I wonder if today is going to be that elusive day off I’ve been thinking about?  It’s the last day of the year and I really don’t want to think about how bad of a year it’s been…I mean having cancer and two sons who don’t talk to me anymore? That would suck in anyone’s book…but I’m not going to wallow in it…pretty damn tired today and I know it’s going to be hard to get started but I know I will…but I’m not sure about riding today…I hurt everywhere after mixing indoor and outdoor rides yesterday and I wonder if I’m at the point where riding 30 miles a day is doing permanent damage to me? When you get old, recovering from this much work is much harder…okay…enough of that…going to just revel in the fact that I made it through another year and I should get to my 71st birthday unless the cancer comes back…should I just eat anything I want to today? That would be luxurious and I think I may have earned one day of that…I guess we’ll see…more later…