Well….as I add the titles to these, I get this feeling that my life is slowly slipping by in those numbers…..and it is 5 in the morning again and I am up; sitting here trying to make my brain stop and not having a lot of success. Today may be a lost day again…I can’t see it being a success at all…maybe a survival day….trying to smile and make it all go away but I’m getting less and less certain that that is possible anymore. So, I’ll be back later to try to add to this one but I can’t promise that it will happen….

Okay..two days of wallowing and that is just enough…so, it’s time to get going again and stop this nonsense. it has been an okay week but the car is still not fixed right….only got one day out of the gasket this time but I’m not going to take it back until tomorrow or thurs…did get the bike ride in and it was a good one…it does make a difference when I eat before I go…had some energy today and it felt pretty good. Not much else to do today…I was up at 4:40 so I may take a nap and not feel guilty about it…or I might…still not completely out of the black hole yet…more later…and I mean it this time…