Well…still quite blocked but needed to see if I could write anything at all…maybe that will get me started… I think I have to apologize for the false start on the last one, usually, when I get going it just flows out of me…yeah, I can hear you now…just like crap. It’s been that way since I started this thing in April and I can’t figure it out…but, that’s just one of the things that I can’t figure out…do you guys have that problem? At 57 you’re supposed to be sure of yourself and have everything figured out but as time goes on I feel less and less sure of things…maybe it’s that change thing I promised to write about way back in April.

You know how change works for me? It’s like I see changes as discrete events and automatically think and label my life as pre and post event….like I was traveling along one line and then whack; the event puts me on another path that I have no clue about how to deal with it….well…that’s not really true..it just looks different in some way and it takes me a while to start living that life without thinking about it…I don’t know if I’m being clear, if it’s the block or I’m just tilted off the normal 45 degrees skewed. But that is just a clinical description…the feelings that go with it are what I think is the key…but who knows? As I said…I just don’t know…