Well…I think I’m running on time today and slept pretty well with trying to catch up on the lack of sleep from Sunday night…and waking up to the knowledge that I am as healthy as an old guy can be is pretty relieving….but, I’m not sure why my BP is still high this morning…I wonder if it’s still a hangover of stress from yesterday or from not eating for two days…whatever it is, I am not going to worry too much until I get a couple of days back into my normal routine….and that means a workout and a bike ride this morning but the rain and wind may have something to say about that…it is blowing at almost 20 with gusts over that so that will make it difficult but after being off for two days, I need to get out…maybe even in shorts for the last time since it is 50 out there….as you could tell….I didn’t get much done yesterday but I am going to try to do something today…not sure what that will be but it will be something…more later…

Well…as you know, today was the day for my first colonoscopy under Medicare and I was a little freaked out about the possible outcomes…I have been really lucky with my health with not having health insurance for 16 years and not going to a doctor in that time…but the tests so far for all of the normal health concerns like high cholesterol, high BP, liver function, heart function, and now colon cancer….have been negative….the people who did the procedure were really nice and I was able to watch the entire thing on the computer screen while they did it…they only found a couple of polyps that they removed…and I got to see them do it… and no other pre cancer or any other problems…so, it looks like the combo of taking care of myself, eating right, and getting lots of exercise has done the trick to keep me healthy…and I am so damn relieved…no more doctors for a year and I get to go back to my normal life of worrying about other stuff….

Well…that was an unusual night…have been up since about 4:45 with the prep for my colonoscopy today and that continues right now…didn’t sleep at all last night so I will tonight…I hope so, anyway if there is not bad news from the doctor…I guess I’ll know in 9 hours or so….it is a little interesting how knowing you can’t eat anything highlights the food shows and ads on tv….I am just fricking starving and I have a pizza to cook when I get back here this afternoon…will probably overeat the next few days since I have over 3,000 calories that I haven’t eaten and I am not going to even think about calories for a few days….don’t feel as bad as I thought I would but the stuff you have to drink to flush out the colon is just nasty and it got me right to the edge of throwing it all up after I got to the goal of drinking a half gallon….and I have more to drink this morning but I’m not sure if I’m going to drink all of it since it kept working all night…and there is just nothing left to clean out….will probably not do a political one today since my mind is going to be somewhere else…more later…

Well….sitting here waiting for the rain to stop to see if I can get out on the bike today but the wind is blowing about 25 right now so I just may take the day off…I am freaking out a little that today could be the last day that I don’t know I have a huge health problem and I guess I could look at that two ways…if I know, then I can get moving on treatment and maybe stay alive a few more years…but how is that going to change how I look at the world? I have been lucky to not have had any health problems at all really….I guess I need to stop thinking about it until I know there is a problem….but, there are not enough distractions right now to keep my brain occupied…and my stomach is already starting to give me problems with the diet change and not eating anything since about 6 last night….okay, need a couple of deep breaths and to find a soccer match to watch….and I need to stop whining….and remember “it is what it is” and know that I’ve dealt with everything life has thrown at me and this is just one more thing….more later….

Well…running a little early today with the time change screwing me up like it always does and with the anticipation of the ugliness of the prep this afternoon…slept okay last night and I am starting to think it may be the new pillows…they are pretty comfortable and I know they are working to help the pain in my neck…now, the question is: why didn’t I do this a long time ago? Oh, well….I did get a little cleaning done yesterday and will probably do a little in the kitchen today in between football and the race that’s on later…did get laundry done yesterday, too, so I won’t have that to do today so it looks a like a pretty easy day…not sure about the bike ride today…don’t think I have the calories to spare with not eating again until tomorrow afternoon…and, I know I won’t get on it tomorrow morning…can’t wait for this whole test thing to be over so I can get back to normal…I am still a little freaked out about what they might find and the fallout from that….more later….

Well….sitting here ready to take it easy for my Saturday night and I just realized something…with my test not until the afternoon Monday, I’m going to have to go almost two days with nothing to eat since I can’t have anything starting tomorrow morning…but, that really means tonight since I won’t eat anything tonight other than maybe some cheese and crackers….and with being so close on calories every day, I am going to be out of energy completely by Monday afternoon and that will make me feel even worse…crap…at least maybe the rain will come and it will keep me off the bike tomorrow…who knows?

Well…slept okay again last night and I may be getting convinced that it is the new pillows…my neck doesn’t hurt either, so that is a plus and I hope it continues…haven’t been able to move it easily for the past few weeks….had a nice day with getting out to have lunch with T and it was good to see her and buy her lunch for her birthday…had a huge olive burger and I am still not hungry even after not eating anything for dinner last night…but, I will have to eat today since I can’t eat anything tomorrow…but, nothing but protein since I can’t have any fiber…and that is a little weird….didn’t get anything else done yesterday but I do need to clean the bathroom today and do a little clean up in the kitchen….and I have bills to pay that I can do online so I don’t have to think about it early next week….can’t wait for the election to be over…the stress is killing me and I don’t even want to imagine the hellscape this country is going to be if the repubs keep the house….can’t wait for Wednesday…more later…

Well…okay, not sure if it’s the new pillows or not but I didn’t get up until 6:36 this morning and that is an hour later than the new normal…and my neck doesn’t hurt too much so that’s maybe another plus…I did sleep okay, too with not too much tossing and turning but that might have been from not sleeping too well over the past week or so…we’ll see tonight…I am getting a little stressed out about the procedure Monday but I think it’s more the prep for it than anything else…and thinking they might find something is starting to add to the stress…and colon cancer can just be there with no symptoms so I guess I should look at it that way…let’s just find out and go from there….didn’t get a lot done yesterday but I will need to clean today to get a start on the weekend…don’t really have a lot to do but I don’t want to have anything to do Sunday when I’m prepping…I may have lunch with T today but I have to remember the no fiber diet I’m on and try to keep it…I really don’t want to screw up the test so I have to do another one….more later….

Well…it has been a little bit of a weird day with T cancelling so she could get some rest…and with her schedule, I don’t blame her one bit. But, that’s not what this is about…it’s about the screaming bargain I got on pillows at Kohl’s today. Every Thursday, I pick up the Free Press when grocery shopping and today they had an ad for Kohl’s in it…and, in the ad, they had pillows on sale for 2.99 each that are regularly priced at 12 dollars each…so, I picked up 4 of them and got an even bigger deal at the register…my total for the 4 pillows was $10.30 so they were only a little over 2 bucks each. Now, they may not be the best pillows in the world, but damn…only 10 bucks? Couldn’t pass that up….can’t wait to try them tonight….

Well…finally on time today with getting out to do a small grocery run…going to be on this restricted diet until Monday so there was not much I could buy or that I needed…still spent 40 bucks and that is a little disappointing….slept okay last night but was still up at 5:39 that will be 6:39 after the time change….I did get a nice bike ride done yesterday in shorts but today will be back to thermasuit since the high is only going to be 48 and that is too cold for shorts and no gloves…I did have a pleasant surprise with the BP this morning when I got a reading of 97/74 that I thought must have been a mistake so I took it again and got 113/74 and that was closer to what I thought it should be…and that is the lowest it has been since I got my machine so I am not going to worry about it anymore…I did have to buy the prep stuff for my test on Monday and that set me back over 30 bucks…I just want it to be over…and the really nasty stuff won’t even happen until Sunday night…I do have a tentative meeting with T for this aft but, with her schedule, who knows? More later….