Well…getting another early start today and I think I’m starting to feel better with being good two days in a row…only two months to go and I think the toxicity should be gone and feeling good could be the permanent state….it was an okay day yesterday and I did have lunch with T that made me smile….and I made just enough money to buy some groceries so I will be able to eat for another week…it is funny how your perspective changes when things go from bad to worse…I could never have imagined cheering that I have enough money to just eat but I guess that is what my life has come to over the past couple of years…don’t like it very much but the way it looks now, even with 4 fricking degrees, I’m pretty much unemployable and the money is going to run out this year….oh, well…at least there is soccer on this weekend…more later…

Well…getting an early start today…for me anyway, and with being good last night, I feel okay today…had one weird dream about people dying all over and getting stabbed in the back but it was another one of these weird things where a real pain was incorporated into a fake one in the dream…pretty weird….I did sleep okay and seem to have some energy so that is different….it was an okay day yesterday but didn’t do much other than send resumes and clean but not much of either….and not much to do today…may have lunch with T but I haven’t heard from her so who knows? That’s about all I have to say right now…so I’ll stop here and come back for more later…

Well…another day of lateness and I just haven’t been able to get going until right now…and it is the same old thing…sitting here waiting for the coffee to finish and trying to think of something to say…it was an okay day yesterday with Man U winning but Michigan losing and the rest of the day was just a total veg out…and it is the start of a two month dry period for me with not riding the bike…I have to cut out calories somewhere and the easiest way is to not have cocktails…and I think my liver will thank me…I know I’m looking forward to it anyway…not much to do today…can’t even think of anything to do so I’ll have to come back to that later…

Okay…still feeling like all of my energy has been sucked out and I’m sure I’ve gone overboard in calorie restriction trying to make up for not riding…and I am sore everywhere but not flu-like sore…my elbows and back ache like crazy and maybe I should go take some Ibuprofen before it gets worse…there really has been nothing to do today and that appears to be a good thing right now as I try to get the recovery going…and I will have to eat more here soon….so, I think I’ll get another one of these done and then do that…

Well…this has gotten pretty routine…waiting for the coffee to finish while I do this…and then not having a lot to say except about sleep, dreams, yada yada……and I’m sure I’m boring you just as much as I’m boring myself so I’m going to stop here and try to think of something new to do and say…it is the new year, after all…maybe this could be my resolution? Who knows?

Okay…sitting here in my Man U jersey and the thought struck me…”is this lame?” I mean wearing a jersey to watch a match from home? It probably is but I will be doing the same thing for the Michigan game later so I guess I am lame…well…the match is starting in 3 minutes so I am heading back to the couch with the last cup of coffee…

Well…I made it through another year and was just not a pretty one…still no work, still crazier than hell politics, and still getting older but I guess if you survive it, it was a good year. I was going to do this long reflection on the year and try to say something quite lucid but after going out to shoot pool this aft, my ideas seem to have deserted me at the moment and I just don’t have much to say…I guess I can say happy new year but I don’t really believe it so I won’t….just need to continue to survive and hope for things to get better….might be back for more later after I relax a little but I have made the goal for the year with this one so maybe not…who knows?

Well..running really late today and haven’t even gone out for the papers yet and it is after 9…and now I find that the walkman is dead so I have to let it charge for a few before I can go out for the papers…one weird thing did happen last night…you remember that I had dreams of a Sunbeam Alpine the other night? Well…when I was watching “Dr. No” last night, James Bond was driving a Sunbeam Alpine and the damn thing was almost the same color as my Miata…getting near the top of the weirdness scale….I need to go out but will be back later for more….

Slept okay last night and didn’t get up until after 7…the dreams were the same as the other night with no one in them that I recognized so that weirdness continued and I am not sure what it means….not much to do today….it is NY’s eve tonight and as always I’m just going to hang out here and watch tv…maybe a “Twilight Zone” marathon or a movie…but cocktails certainly and for the last two nights then I’m going to stop drinking for a couple of months…need to give the liver a rest and without biking, I do need to cut out a bunch of calories…

Well…it was an okay, if a little depressing day yesterday and I still have not adjusted to the fact that it is winter…and I can’t ride my bike so I do need to figure out some other kind of exercise or I will turn into a depressed blob of fat…maybe I’ll get out for a walk later today just to feel the wind and cold…and it looks like the weather is going to stay like this for quite a while which just adds to the malaise….I did sleep okay last night but the dreams were of people I didn’t know like they were from someone else and just found the wrong brain…not much to do today…I do have a pork shoulder roast to do so I’ll have food for a few days and I did thaw the last of my ham soup so at least I will be eating well…more later…

Well…I just haven’t had very much to say lately, and with coming up on the end of the month I do need to make the goal of 60 so I am going to cheat a little and do a second life one instead of adding to the first one…just got back from having a couple with K and V and that was fun…just don’t get to see too many people anymore and I guess I have to take the opportunity when it presents itself….but, I am still broke and using the debit card really, really hurts….but, I have to continue to live so what is the other choice? I do need to get back to the GLI and watch State try to come back from 1-0 down so that is what I’m going to do….and I need hockey and Ken Daniels…so, maybe more later but maybe not…

Well…it was another day yesterday and I felt so crappy I skipped the papers and coffee…but, feel much better today and have already been out in the snow to get some groceries…slept pretty crappy last night and was up really early this morning..oh, well…it has been okay lately so I guess I shouldn’t bitch…don’t like the way this winter is starting out but I’ll come back to that when I come back here in a few after coffee and the papers….

Well…it was a long day yesterday and I really feel like crap today…so this one is going to be short….for now, I did have dreams that included losing the Miata and replacing it with a 64 Sunbeam Alpine….yeah…that in itself is weird…okay…need more water and the couch…not even any newspapers today…

Okay…starting to feel human again but I did skip the papers and coffee today…it was fun to see T yesterday and a kind of reunion with G and that was fun, too…but going all day is a lot of work…I am going to come back to get to the one that I missed yesterday but, the USA is playing Russia in the world junior hockey championship so I’m going back to watch the third…