Well…up at 5:30 this morning but no booze last night…don’t feel a whole lot better but I hope that will change as the day goes on. Need to go grocery shopping today since I am getting really tired of chicken all the time..but the fresh veggies form C have been a welcome change. Still not much closer to the cliff today so far but you never know…it will be nice to get the hell out of here for a while today to go out to shoot pool…more later….

Well…it has not been the easiest of days…I did get the car cleaned but it was so much effort to do anything today that I am exhausted…so this will probably be the last post today…doing this usually makes me feel better but it has seemed like work today and any writer will tell you that when that happens, you need to just walk away for a while…at least a couple of hours anyway. It seems like the cliff edge is coming closer again but I’m not sure…it will probably be clearer tomorrow…

Well…it’s later in the day and reason has substituted for pain….so I’m glad I’ve waited this long to come back today, or I would have had to delete any post that I would have written. It’s been a tough couple of days emotionally for me but I don’t want to get into that as yet…I will later, but it gets back to the change thing that I struggle with all the time and how it relates to friendship. I see mine dying all the time and I really don’t know what to do about it…I usually attribute it to the changes that come with differing stages of life; stages that I’ve already gone through but is that it? That’s the problem, I don’t know. I also don’t know if I have the energy or desire to try to construct new ones…just to have them die and end up back here thinking about it again.

I do know one thing…that I have depended on these relationships too much; have given them more value than I should have; even defined myself by them…but that is just me..basically all or nothing when it comes to everything…you get a huge high when it is working but I don’t know if the inevitable low and pain is worth it….more later….

Oh…I would like to claim that first line as my own…but, it is borrowed from the song “Live My Life Again” by Jim Fox…

Well…did go out with G last night but again, it had the feel of an ending…like we were just going through the motions because we’re supposed to not because we want to….hmmm….not much to do today…might go out and hit a bucket of balls for something to do. Or, I was going to clean up the car since it hasn’t been washed in a couple of months….and the windows are starting to get that film on them that I hate…at this point, I don’t really know…more later…

Well…I guess I need to lighten up a little here huh? It’s been a pretty normal day with a few things that I needed to get done and did, so now I’m just sitting here nursing a thigh injury but the weird thing is, I can’t figure out how I got it. I felt fine after the ride this morning, but when I sat down on the couch, it was like fire shooting up the outside of my thigh…kind of like a cramp but it is so unpredictable in when it hurts that it is a new one for me…oh, well…first injury in a while so I guess I shouldn’t bitch, huh? I could tell a joke or something but I don’t know any….hmmmmm…well…I’ll end it here, then…just waiting to hear from G to see if she wants to go out…..

Once there is Red Wings news, I’ll start getting back to the daily postings about my team…I should do some about racing but I’m just so bored with it right now that I can’t even work up any outrage over the team orders by Ferrari yesterday in the F1 race….I wish we could still get the WRC on the dish…those rally drivers have got to be the bravest ones on the planet and the wrecks they have are the coolest…reminds me of the dirt tracking we used to do when I was a kid…and that is a story for another time…later…

Well…I think I’m getting old…just feel tired this morning and the brain is not working too well…it’s not the SF but it may have had a contributing effect…so, this one is going to be short so I can get in the shower and head for coffee….more later….

Didn’t write enough this morning to make this a part two…so I thought I’s add it to this one…not a lot to do today except out with G later this evening and, in a pleasant surprise, having lunch with T again this week either Wed or Fri…that will be fun. Yeah, I know, my writing is not very good today…but it feels the same way in my head..kind of disjointed and sticky…no flow at all…so, I’ll have lunch and come back later to try again…that one will have to be a part two, I guess…

Well…it’s 9:18 and again, I have everything done that I wanted to do today…except write this which I’m doing now and then it will be 9:25 and I’ll really have everything done. Not much going on today…last night’s Dr. Who on BBC America was a good one with none of the contrived cliffhangers that usually grace season finales. What else about today….oh, will probably have a limited SF but with K in Chicago, it looks like just C and I but that is okay…probably go to Vinnie’s and play some Keno and drink cheap beer. that’s about it for now…I did work up some outrage yesterday if you look down to the next one…going to try to do that again today but I’m not sure how successful I’ll be…we’ll see….

Well…don’t you just love it when you have a clean fridge? Yep…finally did do something that I said I was going to…I guess it was all of that coffee I had watching the F1 stuff this morning…got out on the bike and even rode over to the veg stand to get some more home-grown tomatoes…you know, the ones that taste like tomatoes. Probably won’t do much the rest of the day, will probably even wait until tomorrow to post anything else since this is a no newspaper day; I have to take at least one day off or my head will explode with all of the heat that is in the news today. But, who knows, I could see something on TV that might make me want to comment…

Well…took it easy last night and feel pretty good this morning…have already been out to the grocery store again and now I’m having coffee and watching F1 qualifying. I AM going to get on some cleaning today starting with the fridge since there is no room to put anything new in it….it’s strange how you collect half empty bottles and other stuff over time…and the spills are starting to gross me out so that will be done today. Not much else to report but there will be more later today since I have no other plans…and the rain is going to be around for a while so no bike until later…but I am looking forward to going out. More later…

This is something that I have been thinking about for a while now…Just wanted to say thanks to those of you who have visited this little slice of my mind, some of you even come back every day and I hope that there are times that it is worth your while…that I can get the conversation started on the things that I think are important and that are important to you. I know that the daily writing has given me more discipline and I have something to look forward to everyday; something that is quite rare when you are Overqualified and Unemployed. I promise that I’ll try hard not to waste your time; but if you’ve read this at all, you know that I’m not successful all of the time…but if I’ve made you laugh or think just a couple of times, that will be enough for me.

So, to my readers I say thank you, and I sincerely hope you’ll keep coming back if just so see how far off the rails I’ve gone….