Well…running a bit late today with not getting up til 6:40 and I’m wondering what would happen if I decided to not get on the bike today? I know I won’t but it would be nice to just do whatever I want for just one day….had an okay day yesterday and got some work done on the spare room but I think I’m going a different direction in there…the previous owners put some kind of fibrous paneling over the plaster on the ceiling that would be a pain to take down so I may just buy new inserts for the dropped ceiling and leave it in there….we’ll see…I did get the overhead light re-mounted to the ceiling yesterday and I’ll take the last panels out today…after the bike rides….my daughter sent me a couple of pairs of what would be called sweat pants but they are too nice for that…made out of stretchy material that look stylish….I wonder if she doesn’t want me traveling in jeans? Can get on the bike as soon as I have my coffee since it’s in the 50’s right now and I want to get it done as soon as I can….need to make potato salad this morning and cook some chicken on the grill later but I really have no motivation right now….just so damn worn out that I hope the coffee works soon….not much to do today…going to drag myself out here in a while to get started on the day…but more coffee is essential to make that happen…more later…

Well…crap…one of the people I read since I joined Daily Kos many years ago died last night…when I started following him his Kos handle was BFSkinner and he changed it to CameronProf a few years back and I don’t remember why that was…his life was filled with health problems that he unflinchingly shared with us but he never once cried about it…that was just his life and he stoically went about it and kept moving forward through trials that would have stopped most people….he always tried to engage people with questions about music, art and life and damn, I’m going to miss him…RIP BF…

Well…man, I feel really worn out after the work day yesterday and I wonder if it’s from getting old? My back still hurts from the yard work but it’s not quite as severe as it was last night so I’ll take it…up at 6:04 this morning but laid in bed til after 6:30 and I’m still forcing myself to get out of bed when I don’t need to and I’m not sure why….it still feels wrong to relax and after all this time it shouldn’t…after all, I worked my butt off yesterday so I would think I’ve earned an easy day…I would really like to buy a steak to grill for my birthday but damn, at 20 bucks for a ribeye? That just isn’t going to happen…and I won’t be able to eat it anyway with the periodontist work I’m having done before it…oh, well…not going to get the big ride in this week so it will have to happen next week….need to carbo load before it and I don’t see that happening until the weekend….it looks like the ind is going to pick up later this morning since there is a “beach hazard” warning up today for big waves and rip tides but the water is not warm enough to swim so that’s kind of moot…not much to do today…it’s warm enough to get on the bike right now but it’s sprinkling so I’ll wait a bit…need to get the ingredients for potato salad done but just don’t feel like it right now…more later…

Well…damn, I don’t know why I keep doing this to myself…go the day started at 8am with the first ride…back here for 5 minutes and then back on the bike for the second ride…and when I got back here I changed clothes and went out to take the string trimmer to the yard and that was the only thing I was going to do…but, the yard needed mowing since there are parts of it in the shade where it is still growing and looked like hell so I mowed the whole thing…and while I was doing that I noticed that the branches on the mulberry tree were only about two feet off the ground with all of the heavy berries on them and I had to push them aside to mow…so I got the clippers out and trimmed all of them up so I can walk under them again….didn’t get done until about 2:30 and then I had to prep some food and grill some burgers for dinner…and now it’s 5:30 and I can finally take a break…some damn animal attacked my garden and at most of my broccoli and then it got fungus in everything today so I give up…too damn much work…at least I still have carrots….

Well…it’s still the middle of June and the heat is on again this morning…it’s 48 degrees out there and I can remember this time last year that I was already leaving the windows open overnight…and that means I won’t be out to the beach until next week…up at 6:05 this morning and I feel like that is way too early….I think I went too hard on the bike yesterday pulling 24th all the way back from the beach on both rides….my legs hurt like crazy today and I even had to heat my back last night and it’s still stiff this morning…oh, well…just getting old I guess….didn’t get a lot done yesterday but I need to clean today and I may need to mow the lawn even with it being brown…it’s still growing and I can’t figure that out….it was nice to get rain again yesterday but that is it for a few days and I really hope we get back to a normal pattern and don’t have another 60 day stint of dry….I just realized that I could have bought some bagels and cream cheese since I now have a toaster oven and don’t have to squish them to fit them in the toaster….damn, I may have to run out and get some…not much to do today….just going to sit here and wait for the temp to come up and that is going to take a while…probably won’t get out til 9 or so and that means the rides will take up the entire morning….damn, I’m tired…more later…

Well…up at 5:40 this morning but was able to stay in bed til 6:43 so I’ll take it…I’m really sore for some reason and I wonder if it’s just from pulling some weeds yesterday? It’s only 45 out there again this morning and the heat has been coming on all night…ick…that’s not supposed to happen in June here in Michigan…have an errand to run this morning but I wanted to get one ride in before that but that looks like it’s not going to happen unless it heats up quick…not going out in the cold like yesterday…my hands, feet, and ears were numb when I got back here after the second ride…I will put the top down on the car this morning…and I have a clean car and that makes me happy…I do need to fire up the grill today and cook some chicken that I have thawed and I’m thawing some burger to cook later in the week so I’ll have plenty of food…I really should only have one meal a day to continue the weight loss but that saps my energy and I don’t like it…broke the cardinal rule of no dishes in the sink overnight and I don’t know how that happened…won’t let that happen again…not much to do today…just the errand and the rides…well…cleaning, too, and I got some of that done yesterday….more later…

Well…damn, up at 5:42 this morning but laid back down til almost 7 and that has made me late getting here…have been grinding my teeth a lot lately and I’m not sure why that is happening…have to make a conscious decision to stop doing it and I really don’t want to think that hard right now…wasted the day with the rain yesterday but it was good to finally get some after almost two months of it being dry out here…and it looks like it may rain again tomorrow but only a 50% chance but I’ll take it if it does…have had cramps in my feet and pain in my Achilles the past day or so and I wonder if it has something to do with staying off the bike yesterday? Talked to my daughter yesterday and she is buying me a complete bed for the spare room so Tom, you don’t have to clean the frame you have up….I will have to clean up the spare bedroom for her to use when I have my surgery and that means getting the dropped ceiling down and fixing the overhead light and I should start on that soon…I need to get out on the bike here in a minute but it’s still only 52 out there and I’ve only had one cup of coffee so I’ll wait a few minutes and gulp another one….not much to do today…just the rides and figuring out the meals for the week…I am going to post some photos of the garden on Mastodon this morning to see if anyone can tell me what is what in the garden…going to have beans to pick in a couple of weeks so that is cool…more later…

Well…it’s 1:30 in the afternoon and it’s still raining and we sure needed that…but that means I’m running out of time to get on the bike before the race comes on at 3:30 since riding takes a little over an hour per ride…so, maybe I should just take the day off? The last time off was after the last biopsy a month ago so my legs could probably use the rest…and it’s only in the 50’s out here and the weather channel says it’s going to keep raining until almost 7 pm so I guess I’ll just suck it up and clean instead…but that means I have to keep the calories down around 500 for the day…so that was a small chicken breast and three spoonfuls of potato salad…haven’t been sleeping too well and feel pretty worn out today…probably should try to take a nap this afternoon I’m that tired…oh, well…need to check on the rain and see if riding is possible…more later…

Well…it’s raining out here for the first time in almost two months but I’m sure it’s not going to revive my lawn…but it’s going to keep raining for another hour or so and that will keep me off the bike for a while…I can use the rest…up at 6:23 this morning and I lost an earplug overnight and can’t find it…weird…I have muscle in my right arm that is twitching today and it has been doing that off and on for a couple of weeks now….I think it may be that I really didn’t eat enough for the past few days…under a thousand calories for days and that’s not sustainable…didn’t get anything done yesterday so I need to clean today…don’t have to cook today with doing the chicken yesterday but I’m not sure what the second meal will be…maybe some of the rotisserie chicken slices in a sandwich? I do have potato salad to use and some asparagus but nothing appeals to me right now….still can’t taste much and that makes it harder to fuel up…not much to do today…just going to sit here and have coffee and watch LeMans for a bit as I read the news and look for a topic for later today….more later…

Well…if you didn’t think medical charges are nuts, listen to this….after having the second biopsy, I saw the billing to the insurance company and it was almost 11,000 dollars…for an hour of the doctor’s time…and I had to pay a copay on it for 225 bucks…so now I’m over 1K out of pocket since this whole ordeal started…I can only guess what the surgery is going to cost…I’m betting close to 200 grand…and if I had normal Medicare, I’d be out 40 grand instead of the 5 grand my out of pocket is going to be…man, I’m not going be able to afford getting sick again…