Well…feel like crap today..way too much fun out with K at Logan’s and then I was not a good boy when I got home…so, it will be a penance day today as my body makes my brain pay for the stupidity….oh, well…the Wings did win last night so that make it a little better…but not enough so I’ll do that again soon. It looks like another boring day today but it’s still too early to tell…I am not planning on doing anything but you never know what will happen….I am going to try to get a couple of topics out today…but, I promise that every weekend and rarely keep that promise….all I can say is that I’ll try…more later…

Okay…I’m back…I forgot some stuff about yesterday that kind of touches on a theme from one of these last week…that, as I age, there are things that I enjoy and will no longer be able to do…not physically, but societally, yeah, that’s not a word but it conveys the idea that I’m trying to get across…and I used the example of going to water parks or stupid boating tricks….I am getting to a point…slowly, I’ll admit but I am getting there…well..sitting at Logan’s, and after a couple of beers and a shot, it seemed like a good idea to put together a tubing trip to Pando; one of the ski areas that we have around here. So, in a couple of weeks, we will be tubing under the lights at Pando….I wonder if it will be the last time I do something like that? Oh, the point…is it weird that a 57 year old still likes stuff like this? When do I have to stop before I become a caricature?

Well…running late this morning and I don’t know why…haven’t done anything yet except go out and get the papers and make coffee…oh, well…the Wings lost to columbus last night and that puts me a little out of sorts but I’ll get over it pretty quickly…Had a fun lunch with T yesterday and then just a veg day the rest of the day…I do have some work to do today but the papers and coffee come first…maybe a trip out this aft to Logan’s to hang out with K for a while but that is about it..see, I don’t have to say not much to do today….more later…

Well…had a little fun last night…went out to OT to hang out with C and D and it turned into a nice little party..man, it was good to see some of the old people again…not really old people…you know what I mean. Almost overdid it but ran out of cash so that was a good thing…couldn’t understand the people on the way home, though…they were acting like it was glare ice…I mean, 35 on the e-way…if you are so scared of driving in the snow, just stay home…I was successful in controlling my anger and just followed the idiots…which I felt pretty good about. I do have things to do today! Bet you never saw that coming…need to get a few groceries, get out for coffee, and then lunch with T which I am really looking forward to….it is going to be a cocktail night with Red Wings thrown in so a pretty full day…for me, anyway….I am going to try to get a couple of topics out later…I’m sure I’ll get at least one…more later…

Well..running a little late this morning…was up at about 4 or so, watched a little tv, and went back to bed…I’m still shaking off the sleep but I thought I’d write a little just to see if it can be done in this state….not as easy as I thought….have skipped the news shows for the last couple of days…I think I’m trying to cleanse myself from the vitriol of the last week but it doesn’t help with topics…as you can see…my thoughts have been short and I don’t know why at this point…maybe I’ll just stop thinking about it and let it flow…not much to do today…C and D are coming into town later and will probably go out and have a couple with them to break some of the boredom…although…working around here helped yesterday…did get my bathroom done and it looks good so maybe I’ll use that motivation to get the kitchen done today….nope, going to be cooking a pork loin roast and that makes a pretty big mess…looks like the kitchen will have to wait…darn….more later….

Well…fun night out in Ada…won at pool for the first time in 3 weeks and I know it was the new tip on the stick….well…maybe…and I was good when I got home so I feel okay today…up quite early, though, and I wish just once I could get a good nights sleep…oh, well..I’ll stop complaining now….it was slick coming home which forced me into low and slow mode which really was a good idea anyway. Not much to do today…think it will be a cleaning day…need to get the bathroom done and after two days of having fun, I do need a rest day, too….so there will be netflix involved and some couch if I do it right…and some topics for later…not anything cooking in my head right now…couldn’t watch Keith last night since he is still harping on the Arizona thing and I am tired of the partisan bickering…more later…

man..I have been missing a bunch of stuff that has happened in the last couple of days…don’t know why, just that it slipped my mind…let’s start with M being in Denver for the Wings game a couple of days ago…we lost that one 5-4 but it was good to hear from him…then got a picture from him last night from Red Rocks…the really cool concert venue there that I would love to see…then, got up this morning and it looked like my car had been frozen into a block of ice…don’t know if it rained last night or if it was just from the snow coming home but the doors were frozen shut and I had to climb over from the passengers side to start it and let it thaw…works okay now but I’m getting too old to do those contortions….especially since it’s a stick and won’t start unless you push the clutch in….

Well…long day yesterday..did go out for a few with G and that was fun…but the Wings lost…not that bad a thing since it was the 4th game of a west coast swing and we won 3 of them….do feel kind of crappy but I think it is more that I was up and down all night than anything else. Didn’t see the end of the national championship game but it is on again right now so I may stay here and watch it before going out for coffee but, maybe not…don’t want to blow up my routine since that is the way that I maintain discipline…but, then again…discipline may be over rated and I should just cut loose…who knows? Not much to do today…as always…do have pool out in Ada so that should be fun…I am going to try again today to get a couple more of these out…more later…

Well…yeah, coined a new word in the title but it seemed to fit my mood today…can’t get interested in anything politics today and I think that’s extending into almost everything that I’m thinking about. You’ve seen this before if you’ve been here…not to the extent that the couch is calling but there seems to be this veil of cobwebs between me and the world; insulating me from feeling that I’m part of it. Could it be that it is just January in Michigan? Don’t know, really….I do feel a compulsion to write something today…I called it onion peeling when this started back in April of last year, but there are still the shackles of self-control that I still wear…and a promise to myself that there would never be anything in this post that would embarrass my kids or friends…kind of limits really sharing but do you want that anyway? I did start this as a chronicle of what it is like to be old, educated, and unemployed and maybe I need to get back to that…I think I’ll try to do at least a couple of those every week from now on, but, I’ve broken promises to you guys before and I can’t promise I won’t again…there is still something rattling around in my head that is not taking shape….that’s part of the frustration where you wait and wait and think and think and nothing comes….so I write one of these free-form things hoping clarity will magically come…and it doesn’t….

It just seems strange that as my life gets smaller and simpler….it also gets harder and harder…

Well…okay, I lied…there wasn’t more later but the tragedy in Arizona threw me for a loop…I was going to comment on it but it would have been really hard to keep politics out of it and that just wasn’t appropriate. It was a normal day for a sunday…did have a SF with K and K and it was good to see them…spent most of the day on British tv from Netflix but did watch “Eyes Wide Shut”…the only Kubrick movie that I really didn’t like…just didn’t see the point of the thing and Tom Cruise doesn’t belong paired with Kubrick…It is nice to have T back in town but I will miss seeing the kitties….hmmm…said that before, I think….not much to do today…going to have to get back out for an hour walk this evening but the heel splits that I get in the winter are back and I’m limping like crazy since they hurt….I will have at least two more topics for today once I read the papers and get the coffee in me….no cocktails except out with the twins so I feel okay this morning….man, this one is really disjointed…the brain will be working better later…I hope…

Well…another day goes by and I really don’t remember much of it…and no, it’s not from the cocktails…this time anyway. I am kind of hobbling around today, still sore from the walking but the ibuprofen works so I guess I should take some, huh? Sometimes I just forget that that stuff is available…just like a couple of weeks ago when I was bitching to T about being cold…and then I remembered that the heat is included here and I can just turn up the thermostat….it’s about 6 degrees outside and the poor old car just hates this crap..but, on the bright side…only about 6 more weeks and we should start seeing a break…just had a thought…that there are things that are disappearing from my world….as I get older there are things that I enjoy that are just not suitable for someone my age…like water parks…and going out to bars to raise hell and dance…hmmm….need to think a little more about this to make sense…not much to do today…no SF planned so another day of boredom….I can smell the coffee so I’m going to go and get a cup and read the paper…more later…

Well…was not good last night so I do feel kind of crappy this morning…tried to stay up to watch the Wings but crashed out when the score was 4-2 Calgary…just looked and we won 5-4….that must have been a good third perlod…I’ve got to try harder to make it through the games….not as much snow as they were predicting here and I’m okay with that…big storms next week, though….not much to do today…have the last day taking care of the kitties and I think I’ll miss them…oh, well….you know the drill by now…feel crappy..write less….so, I’ll be back later to finish the placeholder and keep going with this one…need water and the couch…

Okay…just finished the coffee and papers and feel quite a bit better…but I am sore from starting to walk again…had to do something to replace riding the bike and it is really strange how brand new muscles are screaming at me this morning…it’s not that I’m old…see, trumped that idea before it even started…already have everything done for the day but cooking and I’m not sure what I’m going to make…maybe chicken in a mushroom sauce…or a homemade pizza…made one the other day and it came out great so I’ll have to think about it….

Oh, the placeholder…I know there are things look like a good idea at night and then, in the light of day, you can’t figure out why you thought that way…that is kind of where I am with the placeholder….I sometimes have my enthusiasm jacked up by watching “Countdown” and cocktails but lose the thread the next day…I will try for later but it’s still early and I need to just veg for a while…and let the coffee kick in…