Well…with everything happening, or not happening on the house hunt, I’ve found myself sliding into melancholia today with that dead feeling that comes with it…and with it comes the need to listen to melancholy music to try to reset my semi functioning brain…it is in times like this that I’m really glad I live alone….just couldn’t give anything to anyone right now…and this time I reached back to one of my favorite albums and the first one I bought with my own money “Revolver” by the Beatles and the song “For no One”….one of my favorite songs of any Beatles song…a song about a break up where she’s getting over it and he isn’t…2 minutes and 1 second of perfection…back then I didn’t really have a clue what the song was about but I was in band at the time and it has a french horn solo in it that I just loved….I’m not sure what it is about breakup songs that speaks to me but this one and “Wasted Time” by the Eagles about a woman who is getting older and is going through another breakup and can’t believe it’s happening again….saw that one live here in GR and I will admit I shed a tear when I heard it…”you never thought you’d be alone this far down the line…”  maybe it’s that the lyric describes my own life? Normally, I’m not a country fan but I remembered a song by LeAnn Rimes called “Probably wouldn’t be this way” about a woman who lost her husband and is struggling to try to get over it that I have to include in my wallow today…in the song, her friends and family can’t figure out why she can’t move on…but I get it…there are time when you just don’t get over it…an emotional punch stays with you for years even when you know logically that it’s time, but all you hope for is the pain to just fade a little…and like today, there are times you welcome it as an old friend…and a necessary part of your sanity….okay….it’s not that dark…I just needed something different to write about today…and I am melancholy….