May 29th

Well…it was a pretty crappy day yesterday and I didn’t sleep at all last night which just compounds it…it seems I’ve lost all of the progress on noise that I’ve made over the past year and it’s all back to square one and I see another long slog in front of me to get the quiet back…even had an officer come to visit me for a chat to make sure they understand my frustration with what is going on…and it doesn’t help that I’ve been fighting depression again, either, since this crap just adds to it and feeds it…and I told him that they are going to hear from me as many times a day as it takes for them to shut this bullshit down….so, today starts out with the anticipation that it is going to be another crappy day even on one of my favorite days of the year…it’s race day with F1, Indy, and the world 600 on today and will keep me entertained all day….and that starts at 9 so I need to get out on the bike before 7:30 to make it back here for the start…and then there is a window of an hour and a half between the end of the F1 race and Indy that I can fit the second ride in and it is warm enough already to go out in a t-shirt so that will be nice…and I had the top down on the car going out to get the paper and enjoyed that little ride….so, small pinpricks of light in a sea of blackness…and that sucks….but, we move on…one foot in front of the other until things get better or don’t…I know I can control how to react to this crap and need to get back to that….something else to work on….more later….

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