Well…darn, it is such a pain in the butt to go to bed feeling okay and wake up depressed as hell…that might have had something to do with how worn out I felt yesterday….and it’s only 52 degrees out there so there won’t be any beach trip today with the high only around 70….and it still hasn’t rained out here in almost a month and I think I’m losing the battle to save the lawn….and after all of the work I did to make a lawn, that really sucks….at least I’m keeping my garden alive and the first flowers have started to bloom at the back of the house…but my tomatoes are showing the stress and look pretty odd with the leaves kind of shriveled looking…you know, I’m at the point where I just don’t care about much anymore and if they die it will be met with a shrug….I think I slept okay last night but don’t feel like it and I wonder if I can just take the day off sometime soon? Haven’t done one of those in a long time but I know it will depress me even more if I do….and that’s the problem…it’s a catch 22 that I have to gut my way through and I’m tired of it….oh, well….not much to do today…did laundry yesterday so I don’t have that to do today so I guess I’ll just try to find a doctor this afternoon and then over to verizon tomorrow….but I don’t want to do either of those….don’t want to do anything….more later….