Well…I really do think I have a problem…I just can’t stop rushing to do things when I have absolutely no reason to….just this morning, I rushed out of here to get the first bike ride in before the F1 race started but then, knowing I wanted to hit the beach, I skipped the race at about halfway and suited up and went to the beach…but then I got antsy and headed back here about 1 since I needed to water the gardens with another race on at 3….just don’t know how to relax and that really sucks….and it is probably why I’m going to start working on this place again after this week…I would really like to have a few days of doing nothing but there is no damn way I can do that…really, I don’t know if I ever could as I think about it…maybe I need to see a shrink? An entire life of going hard all the time has ruined me….I can’t stop riding or I’ll balloon up to 250 pounds and I can’t stop working on the yard or I’ll lose all of the work I’ve done in the past year…and I can’t just leave the house as it is and live….need to think about this for a while…damn….