Well…not sure how it happened but I didn’t get out of bed til 7:20 this morning…and for the first time in a while I don’t feel any urgency to get out on the bike…and I may not even ride at all today…okay, that’s not going to happen but it’s a nice thing to think about…I’m still struggling with just living and not having a schedule and running to get things done…but today just may be a breakthrough…yeah, that’s just wishful thinking on my part…I think it may have rained last night but I am getting a little annoyed that it always happens when I’m sleeping…the rain is soothing and I can use a little of that right now…it would be nice to have a day to just screw around and do whatever I want…and yeah, I should be able to control that but my compulsions and looking in the mirror to see that I’m gaining weight again won’t allow that…man, it’s a weird morning….I do have an errand to run this morning to Menards since I need to get the fall lawn food, a can of wd, and some lawn bags….and I’ll probably put the food on today and do a weed walk to start getting the lawn ready for winter…the weather is going to change big time later in the week with the high getting down to around 60 and that will end the summer for me….not much to do today….I really do want to just sit here for a while and read the news and I just might….it may be a one ride day today and I’m gritting my teeth about that…boy, my head is just too jumbled today…more later…