Well…feel so worn out this morning and I’ve been grinding my teeth so they hurt like crazy today…and I only have 14 minutes before I need to get on the bike to get the first ride in before I do the grocery run…have two years worth of beer cans to take back and that will be the first time since I’ve lived here…got some cleaning done yesterday and need to keep that up today to make sure everything is clean before my daughter comes…I am concerned she is going to be disappointed with me and this house and how I live…and that is not helping with my depression at all….forgot to close up the house last night and it got down to 58 so it’s cold in here right now…only have 5 more days that I can ride the bike and I have no plans on what to do when I can’t ride anymore….need to starve myself for the next two months and get down to around 500 calories a day but I don’t think she will allow that….trying to not think about how hard this is going to be….not much to do today…damn, I’m late for getting on the bike already but I’m so tired….this is going to be a hard day…more later…