Well…damn, up at 6:08 this morning and I have been grinding my teeth all night so they hurt this morning…first cup of coffee is pouring down as I get ready to get out on the bike for the first time…it was really noisy up here last night with all of the motorcycle crap going on…and the assholes to the north took advantage of the bands playing downtown to play their thumpy assed bullshit almost all night….but I didn’t make a call and I guess that’s a win…going to try to get on the bike by 7:30 this morning since I have so much cleaning to still do before my daughter gets here tomorrow….man, this is going to be hard…counting down to the surgery and it’s funny that I saw an ad for cancer treatment at U of M calling it the “best hospital in the US” and I sure hope it is….glad the woman’s world cup is on and gives me some small distraction after the surgery….I am not good depending on anyone for anything and being helpless is going to test me like nothing before….but, I’ve done everything I could to get the best outcome for me and I don’t dare hope it’s going to be easy….it’s kind of like the rest of my life lived with depression…I endured a lot of it but didn’t live it….maybe that will serve me well here, too…I know how to endure….more later….