Hmmm….you know that I’ve talked previously about becoming invisible as I age and to me, that is just part of the disconnect that I feel about society and how I fit into it..well, the great revelation was in the shower (I know, don’t put that image in your head) after I got back from the bike ride today. I don’t really know if it was a revelation so much as another crystallization of the vague feelings I’ve been having for quite a while of the new state of my life…that is that it all feels temporary, like I’m just marking time or idling; looking for work and hoping that there may be something for me here in Michigan. In an earlier life, there were the concrete foundations of family, job, and owning a home…that were then replaced by the great group of friends I had for a number of years that have largely gone away; most of them getting into their concrete lives that I had already done….so I feel like I’m starting over again…just like when the marriage crapped out…

This is part of the confusion that I mentioned in the first post to this page…and it is something that I am not having any luck figuring out…as time goes on, you’ll see how this fits with the posts on change….