Well…that was a really crappy night of sleep and I’ve been up since 4:05…really worn out and I really need to get moving since I have a zoom appointment at 8:45 and need to shower and clean up a bit before then…and read whatever new message is out on my UofM mychart….didn’t get a lot done yesterday and probably won’t get much done today and I am hoping we really are going to get the rain we’re forecast to get…but it looks like the force field is working again and the rain is going north and south…so I may be able to get the lawn mowed today….my neck still hurts after three days and I think I may have to take something for it today…the voltaren works a bit so I may just keep that up for today and see where it goes…need to get out for another walk today after doing 5 miles yesterday…picked a couple of milkweed pods on the walk yesterday and I am going to try to plant them at the back of the house for the Monarch butterflies and I may even see if those seeds are available at Menards…not much to do today…still in leftover mode from when my daughter was here but that ends over the next few days…so I’ll need to do some meal planning this week…but right now I need to get on mychart to see what is going on…more later…

Well…haven’t gotten a lot done today but I did get out for a 5 mile walk through the city and saw some cool stuff that I posted out on Mastodon…much more fun walking with my mp-3 player than without it…and I do like my Fila walking shoes…they have memory foam in them and are so light I can barely feel them on my feet…and they should pair up well with my new sketchers that I am going to break in over the next month….have a zoom meeting with a social worker/nurse tomorrow morning so I’ll need to keep the cocktails to a minimum tonight….it looks like it’s going to rain in an hour or so and it is forecast to rain all day and night tomorrow with the possibility of an inch and a half of rain total for the day…so I’ll wait to mow the lawn until Tuesday…but right now, the race is on and will take up the rest of the day…

Well…damn, running late with not getting out of bed til 6:47 and I am having a hard time getting started today…and I am really sore from sleeping wrong the past two nights and I need to not do that anymore…will probably need to take something for it today and I don’t like to do that…had an okay day yesterday but didn’t get much done…I am going to put my walking shoes on and get a walk in through downtown today since I need to get my legs toned up for the UK trip that is only a month away…still have leftovers to eat today so I won’t need to cook for a few days…I think I am gaining some weight and that’s okay since I am too thin…and I’ll be back on the bike when I get back so things will get back to normal…really can’t wait to get out again…not much to do today…going to ease into it this morning and watch some soccer in a while….need to get the windows open to cool it down in here since it is only 63 outside and I’m sitting here sweating already….more later…

Well…running about on time this morning with getting out of bed around 6 but I’m feeling pretty worn out…again…and my neck hurts on the right side so I must have slept wrong last night…damn, waking up with new pains every day is getting old…as I am…there is a nice cool breeze blowing in through the front door right now and it feels good…but we still didn’t get any rain yesterday when the rest of the state got hours of it…and that sucks…didn’t get a lot done yesterday and today will be much the same with soccer starting in a half hour or so…need to do an E check in for the video doctor visit on Monday and that will cost me another 45 bucks in co pays…and I am still waiting for the big bill to come…the new shoes came yesterday and I really like them…they have big lug soles that will be good for winter and walking around in the British rain…and I really hadn’t noticed how the memory foam in the old ones had gotten flat…don’t think I’ve ever had three pairs of usable shoes at once in my life…not much to do today…don’t have to cook today with all of the leftovers I pulled out of the freezer and I am still trying to eat more but with little success…oh, well…more later…

Well…you know, it’s a sinking feeling when you wake up at 4:04 and know that you won’t be able to get back to sleep…so I’m running a little early today and that’s okay…decided to run an errand this morning to do the DD run and get some roasted turkey for 1.30 a pound and some breaded chicken filets for 99 cents a pound…think I have room in the freezer for them and if not, I’ll make room…that will be 10 pounds of protein and  that I probably don’t need…had a good day yesterday but didn’t do much…the assholes partied all day yesterday and I had to make a call on them and will again today if they keep it up…but it’s supposed to rain all afternoon so maybe I’ll get a break….have really been trying to gain some weight…yeah, you heard that right…gain some weight…something I never thought I’d ever say…and I may have gained 5 pounds or so heading for a 10 pound gain…that’s too damn weird…I do need to look at the recipes my daughter left and figure out what ones I want to make to use the peppers I have in the fridge….not much to do today…just the errand and then “staying home to watch for rain” as Pink Floyd says….more later…

Well…I did get out to the beach today but the water was really cold and wavy so I didn’t want to chance injury by going in…after just lying on my stomach on my beach chair for 10 minutes, my abdomen started to hurt so I think it was a good decision to take it easy…there were only about 10 people on the beach so plenty of room to be away from everybody…only stayed out there for an hour and a half…got some color but no enough for me to be uncomfortable…I may just go out there tomorrow to see if the water will be warmer and less wavy to get a swim in…who knows?

Well…running a bit early today with getting up a little before 6 but I’m not getting moving too fast….used the Voltaren on my right thumb last night and it worked pretty well…going to keep that stuff around…slept okay last night but feel worn out this morning and I think it’s not eating enough…really trying to gain some weight and haven’t been successful yet….still looking pretty gaunt and that needs to be fixed….I thinking of going out to the beach after I run an errand this morning…feeling good enough to do an easy swim today and get some sun…yeah, I know…not supposed to exert myself but I got through mowing the lawn with no damage so I guess I can try swimming….but I will just float and nothing else….didn’t get much done yesterday and I think today will be about the same…don’t have to cook today but I will need to figure out what recipe uses the peppers that are in the fridge so I can use them before they spoil….not much to do today…just the post office run and then an errand and I’ll be back here before 9 or so….then I’ll have the rest of the day to do what I want…but I don’t want to do much with how I feel right now….more later…

Well…got a weird phone call from Priority Health this morning where they wanted to try to enroll me in Medicaid to go with my Medicare and the only reason I can think of is they are going to send me a bill for my 5 grand copay for the surgery and they don’t think I can afford it….I make too much on SS to qualify for it so I just cut them off…it was an automated call anyway and I was just not going to spend a minute going through it when I know the outcome…what a waste of my time….

Well..damn, having a hard time getting going today with not getting out of bed til 6:45…and my fingers are numb so I must have slept on my shoulders wrong last night…had an okay day yesterday but didn’t get a lot done but the grocery run and today is going to be much the same…just need to change the oil in the car and that only takes about 20 minutes or so and then I’m going to grill some burgers and sausages to have for the rest of the week…have a green and red pepper in the fridge that need to be used so I’ll have to look at the recipes my daughter left and see what one they are used for and make it….still don’t have much pain from the surgery even with mowing the lawn and carrying in 25 pounds of groceries yesterday….so it looks like I’m pretty much healed and I hope to continue to improve over the next 6 weeks until the UK trip…still having problems gaining weight since I don’t have any desire to eat but that is not new…had a bowl of soup and a sausage yesterday and that’s not enough even with not riding the bike…not much to do today…just working on the car and grilling but I sure don’t feel like doing any of that right now…just so damn worn out and feel old…but I am old so I guess that’s normal….more later…

Well…talked to the surgeon this morning and that conversation burst my bubble of being cured from the cancer…and reading the report today there appears to still be a 2mm spot in the tissue left behind since he couldn’t take that out or all of the nerves would have been gone and I’d be peeing myself for the rest of my life…so now my life hangs in the balance with the PSA test in the first week of September…if it’s not 0, I still have cancer and we will start to talk about more treatment and that just sucks…this surgery was supposed to be it and I’d be done with it….pretty damn depressed right now…