Well…have been having computer problems today with it getting really slow…it wouldn’t even restart so I had to unplug it and take the battery out of it…and then getting my browsers reloaded took me about a half hour but here I am…I have a conundrum…just noticed that Meijers has turkeys on sale this week for only 55 cents a pound…so, what do I make for the holidays? I am going to make another ham tomorrow but do I buy a third ham later in the week or do I get a turkey and make that instead? I think I may do that since I can get a 12 pounder for around 6 bucks and I’m down to only one container of soup in the freezer from the last batch and I should make ham soup first…and I probably shouldn’t have anymore salty ham…so it looks like I’ll get a turkey wed and it should be thawed or close to it by Sunday so I won’t have to think about protein for the next two weeks….and then I need to just stop eating at all for about a month when I get off the bike for three weeks…ick….okay, time to shovel the slush off the walks….and then salt them…

Well….damn, I think I may have a cold…have been coughing and feeling a little worn out today and my head is completely plugged up, too…so how the hell could that happen with always having a mask on when I go out? It does feel a little like I’m not eating enough and I wonder if a chicken leg and a handful of baked fries is enough for the big meal today? All I’m going to have for dinner is a bowl of turkey soup and a couple of crackers and that is the same as I had yesterday…let’s see, how many calories is that? 300 for the leg quarter and probably close to that for the fries and 100 for a glass of milk…so 700 or so and the bowl of soup is about 200 and the crackers are about a hundred and a hundred for another glass of milk, so 400 so that makes it 1100 for the day for the past two days…but I’m still gaining weight and I just hate it…I did do two hard rides this morning but that’s only about 700 calories burned…okay the calculator on the internet says that riding as I do burns 700 calories per ride but that just can’t be…if it was I wouldn’t be gaining weight…crap…oh, well….

Well…up before 7 this morning after waking up at around 4 and my legs are hurting like crazy for some reason…I wonder if it’s fallout from doing 16 miles a day on the indoor bike? Don’t know but I do know I need to get on the bike soon if I’m going to get two rides in before the third place game in the world cup comes on at 10…hmmm…maybe my legs hurt because I shoveled snow twice yesterday? I do need to get out there and do that again after I get off the bike and it looks like two a day or more with all the snow we are forecast to get…oh, well…it’s December in Michigan and that’s to be expected….didn’t get anything done yesterday and don’t really have anything to do today since I have leftovers to eat but I am going to make the next ham tomorrow and that will get me through for a week or so and I wonder if I’ll get one more if they are on sale next week? That would give me a lot of ham bones to make soup…at least three or maybe 4 so that will make some hearty soup….and I think I’ll do that before the new year….didn’t get the little paper with the ads that normally comes on Friday so I guess I’ll have to go out for the paper tomorrow to see them….not much to do today…just need to get on the bike here in a few minutes and get the day started but I want another cup of coffee and to read the news first….man, I’m tired….more later….

Well…man, I think I may have dodged a bullet with my depression today….yesterday, it felt like a bad one was coming on but I don’t feel it today at all…and that never happens but I’ll take it…it’s been a good but unproductive day today and all I did so far is get the two rides in and make lunch and then read the news on mastodon for a couple of hours but I will need to go out and shovel the snow before long but I want it to stop snowing first…looking at the radar that isn’t going to happen for quite a while so I probably can do the snow after dark if it keeps snowing that long…and it looks like snow for the next week so I’ll be out there a lot and I don’t mind that at all…looks like I’ll have to heat my back after shoveling since it has had low grade pain all day today but just on my right side and that is more normal than it hurting all across my lower back…..okay, it’s getting lighter out there so I think I’ll go shovel….maybe more later…

Well…up at 6:09 this morning and that is a little more like normal…but the depression that I could feel coming on last night is here so I’m not sure how the day is going to go…just poured the first cup of coffee and I sure hope it starts to work soon…had to put two pairs of glasses on to read my tablet this morning and I find that a little funny…but I can read my laptop just fine so I can do this with no problem….damn, I seem to be compensating a lot lately as I get older and I don’t like it much…it did start to snow last night and the lawn is covered and I wonder how much we’ll get today….as I said before, it is going to be kind of a hibernating day today and probably tomorrow with a winter weather advisory on for the day and I wonder if I should go out and walk around in it? I need to do something…okay, no I don’t…I’ve lived with depression my entire life and I know how it goes….it’s more of a nuisance than anything else and I’ll get through it….I do need to cook today and I’ll bake some chicken for lunch and then have some turkey soup for dinner and that will be what I’ll have for the next two days…still feel like I’ve gained back most of the weight I’ve lost but that can’t be true…but I do have to cut back to one meal a day to get ahead of the three weeks off the bike in January but I don’t want to do it now…the next couple of weeks is going to be as normal as I get around here…not much to do today….going to get on the bike in 30 minutes or so but I really don’t have much else to do today…so I’m just going to try to not put any stress on myself to keep to a schedule…after all, I have the entire day and the only thing I need to do is the two rides but that doesn’t seem to be too attractive right now…more later….

Well…with washing my outdoor bike and moving it downstairs this afternoon, I guess the decision to not ride outside anymore is final…it’s going to snow 4-8 inches out here in the next day or so and continue all next week with the cold coming in…so we’ll lose the trails anyway…I do need to organize the bike room better since I put the spare mattress in there yesterday but I had other things to do today….I did get out to pick up the items I forgot at Meijers yesterday so I’m good to not go out anywhere until next week and I can just sit here and watch the snow come down and then go out and shovel…and do two rides downstairs that I’m getting used to…I may shift up to three a day if I get bored but should probably use that time to start prepping the dining room for paint….I did get laundry done today and it looks like the timer on it is still working so that takes a load off…thought I was going to have to get a kitchen timer to use for it but don’t now….I did get another big ham today that I am going to cook Sunday but I have chicken and soup thawing until then…I do need to put the last ham bone in the freezer today and then I’ll make soup from the three I’ll have later….I guess I should get going but I needed the heating pad on my back and it feels good….maybe more later….

Well…damn, running late again today with waking up at 5 but not getting out of bed til almost 7…and I should be on the bike right now but just started my first cup of coffee and I need to have it start working soon….man, I forgot so much doing the grocery run yesterday that I have to go back out this morning and do it again…and that is not normal…and I have a weird taste for bagels and cream cheese but I can’t afford the calories so it will remain a taste…and substitute an apple I guess….didn’t get a lot done yesterday but the two rides and I’ll probably do the same thing today after I get the errand run but I am so damn worn out I don’t want to do anything….at least my back isn’t hurting much so I guess that’s something…..I do have to do laundry today but that will be about all for me….the attraction of taking the day off is pretty strong today but I know that all I have to do is get going and I’ll be okay….it looks like it is going to rain all day today but at least it’s not snow…yet…but the cold is coming next week and that will mean hibernation for me….but I do have to get used to winter weather here pretty soon since it’s going to come no matter how I feel about it….not much to do today…going to get on the bike right now and should be out to run the errand by 8:30 or so….and then I can do the second ride by 10 but I’m not sure what I’ll do with the rest of the day after that….don’t want to do anything right now…just frickin worn out….more later….

Well…damn, not sure if I can get going fast enough to be on the bike in 5 minutes…got out of bed a little earlier that has been the norm lately and broke the string of getting up at 7:30 with dragging my butt out at 6:30 today….I do need to keep up the two rides a day so I have no choice but to get going soon….but I feel so damn worn out that I could just sit here and get ready to do the grocery run….but I won’t and I wonder what that says about me? I did get a few things done yesterday with moving the spare mattress downstairs to get it out of the way for me to work on the dining room and I wonder why I let it sit there for almost two years when I have tons of room in the basement? Oh, well…now I just need to keep going on the trim in there but I’m going to be so busy that I may not get to it today…and I do want to watch the world cup match today….not much to do today…just the grocery run and then back here to ride the bike again and do a couple more of these…kind of boring, I know, but that’s my life…..more later….

Well…even with getting a late start to the day, I was able to get everything done I wanted to do…an that included doing two rides on the bike downstairs to give me 16 miles for the day…but man, that second ride was pretty brutal and I started to shake getting off it and I’m not sure what that was about…but it stopped within a minute so I guess I can live with it…and in between the rides I finally got the bathroom cleaned and it sure needed it so I feel good about that…and I got all that done before Argentina plays Croatia in 20 minutes so I will be able to just hang out and watch it…I do need to put the grocery list together during the game but that will only take about 5 minutes so I will be able to just sit back and enjoy it…okay, just did the math and I have about 200 miles to hit my goal for the bike this year and at 16 miles a day, it will only take 13 days to get there while I have 18 days left in the year…so I am going for it…and that should get me to about 6100 miles for the year…and that is 57 over the record from a couple of years ago….and I can even still take Sundays off….yay!

Well…damn, running really later again today…I mean it’s after 8 and I’m just getting to this…so is that sleeping in when I didn’t get out of bed til 7:30 for the 3rd day in a row? It sure feels like it but my body doesn’t feel like I’ve been sleeping in at all…I know I tossed and turned all night and remember looking at my phone at 2:34, 3:51, and 4:44 before getting out of bed so I guess that kind of cancels out the sleeping in….when I got up and looked at my couch I had to laugh that it looks like an old person’s nest with blankets, pillows, and a heating pad on it…and the various lotions for my hands and feet on the coffee table….damn, it’s strange getting old…I am going to try to get two rides in downstairs today but to do that I have to get off my butt and get going in the next 15 minutes or so….didn’t get a lot done yesterday but start on the bathroom and I need to put in an hour or so to finish it up…I made the mistake of having my glasses on when I went in there the other day and that showed me how much dust and dirt was in there and I need to scrub the shower to get rid of the soap scum…but I need to do the ride first and need to get off my butt and get going…but more coffee and some news first….more later….